Dec. 29, 2025

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Good evening, everyone, Welcome to setting it straight with Miss Gray.

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Where we have Miss Kay.

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How are you.

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Doing, Lady, I'm getting yourself.

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I'm doing well.

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And this is Trey and we're waiting for Miss Gray

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to join us shortly. But before we do that, let's

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get started with a prayer. Heavening Father, thank you for

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allowing us to rise this morning to see another day,

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a day we've never seen before, a day we'll never

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see again. This is your show, and we're giving it

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all to you to allow us to present, to answer questions,

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to provide comments, to give clarity to anyone that needs it. Again,

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this is yours show, and we're doing it to please you.

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This prayer, I'm asking your name amen.

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Man.

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All right, So we are nearing the end of twenty

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twenty five. This year has really gone very fast. So

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miss Kate, what do you think has to move fast

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for you toobe?

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It has moved very fast, very very fast.

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Yeah, it's like it seems like we just started the

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year and now we're getting ready to go into twenty.

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Twenty six exactly.

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Wow.

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And I know a lot has happened this year, and

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so I guess I am curious to figure out.

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What are we going to do different for next year?

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You know, I know people have resolutions, some people have

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vision boards, some people.

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Make pacts or something like that.

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But what is it that that we're going to be doing?

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Is it anything different? It's something new that we're going

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to try this year? You have any thoughts on that?

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Misque perfeully?

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We are and that just goes for everyone.

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I literally have my prayer board behind me actually this

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past year, and I made a prayer board for this year,

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but I'm probably gonna redo.

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One for next year definitely.

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But roughly everyone has plans to do something different, care

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more about their health and take that more seriously and

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getting into the right shape. I feel like that's very

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important for us to come and just being aware period mentally, physically, everything,

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just being aware right, And I know for me being

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it's a lot of things that in preparation to improve on,

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especially spirituality, you know, improving that, making sure that my

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strength of faith grows stronger, because it's it's been a

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it's been a trying year, and I know everybody has

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things going on, and and there a lot of uncertainties

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going on with us, with the with the world, with

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the United States, and so basically make making sure that

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your preyed up, putting on the arm of God, to

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making sure that you can handle whatever comes your way.

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Guarding your heart, guarding your mind, your thoughts, and so

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these things are going to be very crucial because let

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me tell you, your mind can wander. And when your

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mind wanders without aimlessly, without any destination or without any

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forethought or what without any faith, they can land you

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in a bad place. You know, Depression can sneak up

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on you, Anxiety, fears, you know, spare a lot of

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spiritual warfare. It's a things prayer board, like a vision board.

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I literally have like prayers.

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So I have health, I have like my business, like

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for consistency and everything like that.

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I have scriptures for each topic I have, and.

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Then I have pictures that's kind of like the vision

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board side of it, like pictures of goals and everything.

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But for the most part, I literally have categories where

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I will put like what I want like my faith

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to like fo focused on, like having faith in God.

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I literally have scriptures on index cars of that and

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consistency and loving and family and friends and everything like that.

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So that's how I kind of structured out my prayer board.

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I mean that sounds good.

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You know, I've heard Miss Grace talk about her have

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not because we always have vision board and your prayer board. Yeah,

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And so listening to that, I think that's probably something

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that I'm going to take up to do for the

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new year, because I know I write stuff down, but

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I need to make sure that I have it posted

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where I can see it daily.

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I think that's where I fell short.

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It's not having it right in my face where I

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have to see it every day and do something about it.

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So it doesn't very board in a way.

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I pray of everything, but I just go over the

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scriptures to remind myself of what God his promises of

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us as well, because most of those scriptures are His promises,

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you know, to us as well, so I kind of

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recite them. I do like a it's like a clapbackschallenge

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I've got from a prophetess, where you know, you recite

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scriptures daily and stuff like that one hundred times to

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kind of like have it in mind. My Mom's probably

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spoke about it before, but I do that as well pertaining.

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To my scriptures up here.

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Yeah, And I think that's very important to be able

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to recite scriptures and positive affirmation because it's so many

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things that we consciously and unconsciously hear every day that's

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being fed into our ears, into our minds, whether it's

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through other people's words, whether it's through music or something

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else that's going on dialogue. It's you're inundated with it,

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and sometimes we don't. We're caught off guard with things

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that we hear. An wants to remember them. So I

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used to do one every day, but now I do

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one per week, So I focus on one scripture for

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like one entire week. Like this week, I'm changing the scripture.

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So I had like two scriptures these past couple of weeks,

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I believe when I started back again on my cloud

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back challenge, and now I'm going to change it to

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one scripture, focus on that recited one hundred times per

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day to just keep that with me and a reminder

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when I do want to do stuff that I'm probably

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not supposed to be doing or any you know.

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Bad thoughts and stuff like that, to remind myself of

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his work.

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So so quick question with the hundred times a day,

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and I know Ms Gray has spoken about that, but

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do you set a certain amount of times in one

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setting to do it or how what's the easy way

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to keep track for anyone that wants to do that.

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Honestly, I just like literally.

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Just focus on one and I just do it in

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like one sitting, So like while I have I have

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a time for praise and worship, like worshiping God. So

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I usually doing it while I'm worshiping God, just reciting

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those scriptures and everything for thirty minutes. I give myself

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time to make sure that I'm giving myself to God

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and having that time with Him so that nothing else

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clouds that or gets in the way of me having

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that time with Him and that that's important, you know,

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and and I'm learning some tips too, So I really

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do appreciate it because this year coming up, I want

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to do things striving forward to make sure that I

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am on task spiritually because you know, like I said,

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it's a lot of spiritual warfare, and I've experienced you know,

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negativity and people's words and actions and stuff like that,

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and so I don't want that to affect me, and

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I know no one wants to affect them as well.

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So that's something good that I can kind of strive

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forward and just see and even maybe just like a

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check in, you know, where am I on a quarterly basis,

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how have I been doing?

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Am I meeting my marks and my staying on task?

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Because a lot of times I get in my way,

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you know, I get in my way where I'm not

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following through.

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Yes, it's all on you.

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You know, when you whenever you have that free time,

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just as long as you're setting out that time for

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that day, you know, to give that to him as well.

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Because I have certain times per day, like i'd rather

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I was start in the morning. Usually I try to

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start my worship in the morning. So like I usually

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pray always in the morning first, and then I go

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into my worshiping time while getting ready as well, because

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I know I have that alone time I'm not interacting

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with people, Like I don't interact with my family until

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I walk.

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Out of my door.

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They don't know I'm up until I walk out of

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my door. So I'm getting all these things done prior

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to even speaking to my family, you know. Or sometimes

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I do it later on to day, like when I'm

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half the head straight out, I do it later on

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in the day, study my word, et cetera, et cetera.

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I have literally different times for worshiping God. Usually my

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cloud back is during that worship. If not, I'm like

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driving and reciting while I'm worshiping, or while I'm studying

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my word, which is me that at the end.

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Of my day, so I have a word hear me

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a word every that day.

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Can you won't hear me?

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Yes?

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Mummy?

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Can you hear yeah? I can? Now, thank you a man,

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Sorry to cut you off.

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It's definitely really doode for the mental and just reminding,

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like it's like reminding.

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Yourself of God's word consistently, you know what I'm saying, Like,

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because I literally do scriptures that pertain to me in

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a way or that I need help with, you know

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what I'm saying, so like we're all sinners right, So literally,

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I've been reciting verses from PSNGS fifty one perfect though.

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If you have trouble with anything, like any type of

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singwere of your it doesn't even matter recite those.

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There's plenty of verses.

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Within that chapter alone that will probably get you through

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the month, like honestly and so forth, because it's like

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a couple of I think it's like sixteen or something

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like that, and not just just to interject to before

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because I know Miss Gray is joining Ms Gray.

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Also I think, hey, Kate Bosson, Yeah, back at you.

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So so I don't know you heard a lot of

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what was going on, but I just want to say

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too with the the the the serenity prayer, you know,

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God gramm me the serenity except the things I cannot change,

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to the courage to change the things that I can't,

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and the wisdom to know the difference, and so to

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challenging you know it might be of the things that

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you cannot change because if you're if you're if you're

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focused on I wish I could change that and you're

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gonna it's like beating.

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A dead horse. It's not gonna happen.

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And then it's you know, insanity is doing the same

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thing over and expecting different results. And then that too,

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just gives you clarity. There's everything you cannot change. Everything

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is not gonna change your way. So on one side

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the things that you cannot change, and then the things

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on another side, the things that you can or you

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will want to change that are doable. And in that

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way that'll give you something to kind of look at

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and look forward to and say, Okay, I accomplish this,

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but not easy to see the difference. You're right, you're

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right about that mystery. It's not easy to see the difference.

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But you have to also have to stay in prayer

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and stay in faith to recognize, you know, okay.

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I've tried this. Let's at least let it go for

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a little bit and then move on.

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To something else.

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Don't stay there, you know, don't don't overthink.

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It, because if you're not you know, you're not able

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to change how other people think about you.

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Don't try to change you, because you'll be changing every

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day because you're you're trying to change for everybody that

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that wants you to change something. So you you cannot

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change people's thoughts about you.

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You can, you can, you.

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Can change how you react to that. But say, Lord,

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thank him, I pray for them, and keep it moving.

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But don't let it stay up in your head for

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a long time, because it's dangerous up there. When you

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start letting things simmer over and over and over, then

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you're not sure if that's what you're saying, or if

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that's what someone is saying about you, or if that's

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what God is saying.

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And God is not going to say anything to hurt us.

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He's never gonna say anything or put anything up that

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that's going to physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually hurt us. So

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you can discern that right now, that's not Him, that's

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something else. And then when it's something else, I say, Okay,

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let me just let it go. God, gam me, I

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need to let this go. Help me to let this go.

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Yeah, please all the.

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Time, right, And others may hurt pleasing others will hurt you,

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there's no may.

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They will.

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They will because they don't they're not there for you.

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And that's what I'm hoping to help people get to

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under standing. It's like people say, oh, I just don't

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understand why.

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They don't know.

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They don't care. Now, now, how do you feel about that?

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They don't like you, they're threatened by you, they're jealous

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of y'all. Don't even go down those paths they don't like.

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They're not changing for you. Now, how you feel? Well?

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And then if you're gonna come back at me and

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you're gonna still try to make sense, then I have

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nothing else to say.

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I have nothing else.

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You like that, you like to be rejected, you like

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to be talked about, you like to be.

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I can't do nothing for you. I can't. I can't.

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Once I get it, and I'm like, oh, it's a

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lesson by God and that used to be this way.

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Is this a lesson from God? Or is this the devil?

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And then I realized I kept going, he kept taking

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me back to job won and I'm like, wait a minute, God,

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pull the devil. You can mess with Joe, just don't

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kill him and don't take the hair. Shave the hair

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off his head and the devil's and You're like, oh, no,

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I'm that's your boy. I'm not touching him.

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I said, no, go ahead, I got him go ahead.

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Once I got that in my mind, everything that happens

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to me, God already knows that it's going to happen.

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What do you do with that? You gotta love him.

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Now it's like, okay, yo, oh, never know other than tended. Yeah,

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you never will know. Okay, there's a year again.

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Okay, but once you, once you get that, it's like,

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oh you, I say, it's why o you?

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Okay? I got it? So now now now how do

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you feel?

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Now?

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How do you feel? Oh? God, you knew this was

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gonna happen.

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You chose me to go through this to represent the kingdom. Oh,

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I'm bringing them back to you years ago, years and

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years ago.

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God revealed to me.

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He said, one thing I love about you, Warrior, is

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that you always bring it back to me.

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You're gonna make you bring you.

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Will bring the accountability back to me because I'm gonna

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asking a question, But why is she like that?

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Why did me?

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I need to know you?

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He said, that's one thing I love. You will bring

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it right back to me. And once I drop it,

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I didn't know. But once I've dropped it at his feet,

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he's taking.

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Care of that because he already knows it's going to happen.

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I hope this week could just just turn the page. Now,

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he already knows what's gonna happen.

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Now, if I'm in Virginia and I'm going down the road,

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I'm telling Trey, I'm going down this road Trey already,

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and Trey may know. She may say, you know what,

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at least you wait a minute, No, that road is

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under construction. You may need to do it different. Now

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Trey knows this. Now I'm telling her I'm going down

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that road. Then she don't tell me. And if it

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messes up my dad because now I got the reroute

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and back up and turn around it. But Trey already

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knows that the street is under construction, and she don't

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tell me. Do you see what I'm putting Are you

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picking up what I'm putting down?

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God already knows.

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I need y'all to stop right there and sit in

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this thing. God forbid, God help us. I know there's

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been trauma. I know you've been hurt. I know you've

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been manipulated.

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I know you've been lied to it. That's the big

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thing I've been going through these past few days. The lion.

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I know you have. But then you step outside of

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that and say, wait, a bit of God. You knew

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this was happening.

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You knew the time to day, the hour, you know

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every you know the people. You knew what we were

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going to wear, you knew how we were going to communicate.

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You knew exactly that this day this was going to happen. Now,

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let me back up now, because it's a lesson in this.

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You deep power.

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What do you do here? You're depowering the devil? You

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just tell them you just you kicked them to the curve.

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You ain't got nothing to do with you because you

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had to go to my God to get permission to

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bother me. That's not Joe, just a job thing. That's

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a forever thing for his believers. Not pretender's not luke warmers,

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not Sunday go to meeting folks.

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Those are the people who just go to church on Sunday.

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It's hard for people to see through things before as

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they are going, But when you look back on it,

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you may see what really was happening.

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True, misty, But you know what when.

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It comes to me and I guess maybe because of

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how you know what I went through in house, raised

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and being adopted. I'm always cautious. I'm always cautious, and

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I've taught my kids. I think, Okay, step back, step

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back now, Mommy, I don't know why she don't like me. Mommy,

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I don't know why they're they're talking about me.

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Let's step back. Let's step back and step back.

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Trust me.

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Every times.

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I never question it though, because at this point, anything

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she says, I already know.

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It's wrong God, because I was gonna add. I was

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really gonna add because of how I was raised. Because

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you know, I my mom gave me this trick, like

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you know, reveal exposed. You know people like whoever in

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your life you want to see the real them and stuff.

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But I also do it for myself to ask self

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reflection and trust me, when you do that, you want

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to stay home that day for sure. When you ask

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God to revealing expose.

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Yourself, people think about MICKI is the way you were born.

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I'll get to that in a minute.

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Go ahead, yeah, because I would say with that, like now,

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I could care less because you know, I always pray.

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No, I'm gonna be real because I always pray God,

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make me be the person you want me to be

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and that's my main focus. I could care less in

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the wild world who feels the way how I am,

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because you know, I get judged all the time on

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how I am, But it's because who I was raised

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by and who created me. You know what I'm saying, Like,

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because I mean I have people in my list, I

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mean they question it. No, they question it because you know,

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I don't want to do everything everybody else is doing

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around my age, drinking, smoke and all the like. Who

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wants that's no fun in that. I like to laugh.

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That's my true enjoyment. I'd love to laugh. I love

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to joke around. I love to crack on people. We

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you know, crack on me and cool. We having a blast.

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It's a matter of yourself who you are. Right to

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know who you are, and by knowing who you are,

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you need to ask God revealing exposed me to myself.

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I want to see the deepest dark side of me.

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When God did that.

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I ain't want to do nothing the entire day.

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It's not like I.

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Didn't know though, because I'm completely aware. We have our laws,

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we have this and this and that. We don't know

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no better. At times I'm young it's a little difference,

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you know, identifying it when you're young, but.

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You know we're bound to make mistakes.

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Come thirty year olds and fifty year olds, of sixty,

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seventy and eighty year olds, they can they can identify right.

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You know, truly how you are.

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Sometimes you want to ignore it, you want to look

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past it, but you.

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You know deep down how you are as the individual.

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You know deep doubts.

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So it's just like, I feel like I want to

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share that as well to as God revealing expose me

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to myself. I'm telling you do not leave your house

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that day because you're gonna be crying. Maybe for some centuries,

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it's gonna hurt your feelings, but you're.

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Gonna be a.

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I'm for real, Like it's that deep, you know what

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I'm saying. It's really that deep.

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But again, and when you have trauma, when you've gone

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through things, been manipulated, dealt with certain people, you're gonna see, Okay,

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how did I handle that situation, how reacting to that situation,

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et cetera, et cetera. Like God's gonna reveal every single

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moment in your life. I kid you not, it literally happened.

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I was just judging myself. I said, love him mercy.

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You know, I knew better in certain situations, but I

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tend to avoid things because I don't have the patience.

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So it's just like you know, and that's just the

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realness of it. I don't have patience for drama. I

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don't have the patience because if I have to step

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out of line, there's no bringing me back. Just being

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honest with y'all, I'm a better individual.

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Now this is a.

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Okay, you know, I'm a little snapper. We're just it's

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gonna be real about it. Simple, that's o me. I'm

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a good person. I'm a heap person. But you're not

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gonna try me or my family. That's when the line

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is crossed. But anyway, you know, or God either you

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know you're say anything crazy, you know, it's just it's

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just that. But yeah, you know, just being honest. You

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have to be honest with yourself. Like now, I could

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always joke about how I am as an individual. I'm

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just a mini version of my mom, Y'allso don't think

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you know she Yeah, because just a mini version of her.

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I'm just more energetic with it. I guess you could

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say that's the emotional side. I'm a hard core side.

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Basically, we're gonna take it there.

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But you know, yeah, gosh, just it's just just.

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Y'all should not expect this. She don't expect y'all to

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be that me to be that honest with y'all. But

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I'm gonna be honest.

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Because that's allid that's what we're here to do, be

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real with you.

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Get he nailed the k Please to me a minute,

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that's okay. I had to shake some things, so he

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showed me things about me.

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Oh wow, Yeah, it's it's a it's a hard look.

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And going back to Michael Jackson's man in the mirror,

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who are you staring at?

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Why do you live with yourself? What are you doing?

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And it's the way we were raised, misty, you know,

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it's the way we were raised. And then after a

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while we're beginning to raise ourselves and then we accommodate.

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We we are like, okay, you know what, that's okay.

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If you if you if you were raised by parents

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who swept things under the rug, it comes back to

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haunt you because you do the same thing.

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You don't mean to You're like, oh no, I'm gonna

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be bold, and I'm gonna.

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Tell everybody not till you find yourself and know that

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that's your role.

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I was telling somebody today I realized my role.

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Once you realize your purpose, it's like, oh, okay, now

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00:22:10.920 --> 00:22:12.720
I don't have to do that. No, I don't have

475
00:22:12.759 --> 00:22:14.880
to go that way. Well, I remember I started a

476
00:22:14.960 --> 00:22:16.480
job and I know, Trey, you want to say something.

477
00:22:16.519 --> 00:22:18.039
Did you want to say something? People don't know who

478
00:22:18.039 --> 00:22:20.680
they are looking at it? Go ahead, Trey.

479
00:22:20.920 --> 00:22:23.200
No, No, I was just you know, all of it's

480
00:22:23.240 --> 00:22:26.039
good and go ahead, miss Gray. I'll follow after that

481
00:22:26.480 --> 00:22:28.079
because it might be tying into something.

482
00:22:28.160 --> 00:22:28.799
Yeah, I'm good.

483
00:22:29.160 --> 00:22:31.720
Well, I worked at the Mental Health Association in Palm

484
00:22:31.759 --> 00:22:35.519
Beach County. I went into a director of a program

485
00:22:35.559 --> 00:22:39.359
where I match volunteers with people mental illness. The supervisor

486
00:22:39.680 --> 00:22:42.039
Jane bless her heart, she said that she goes, well,

487
00:22:42.240 --> 00:22:44.160
this is how we do this now and all the

488
00:22:44.400 --> 00:22:48.079
programs under that umbrella. That's how they had a regular thing.

489
00:22:48.119 --> 00:22:50.319
You go out, you do your marketing. Did you train

490
00:22:50.440 --> 00:22:52.839
your volunteers, you know, and stuff like they can do

491
00:22:52.880 --> 00:22:53.599
the background check.

492
00:22:53.759 --> 00:22:54.799
This is the and so.

493
00:22:54.799 --> 00:22:57.319
This is who we normally you know, this this is

494
00:22:57.319 --> 00:23:00.559
a pool of volunteers we normally do. And I said, well,

495
00:23:00.759 --> 00:23:03.559
everything else is more flowery. Either it's working.

496
00:23:03.240 --> 00:23:07.000
With children or it's working with you know this over here.

497
00:23:07.359 --> 00:23:11.559
But working with somebody with mental illness that takes a

498
00:23:11.680 --> 00:23:14.799
special volunteer, where you're gonna hang out with them on

499
00:23:14.839 --> 00:23:17.759
a weekly basis, go places with them, do things with

500
00:23:18.200 --> 00:23:22.440
that takes a special person. So that Thursday, Wednesday, Thursday,

501
00:23:22.880 --> 00:23:25.640
I went to a restaurant that was on the inner

502
00:23:25.640 --> 00:23:29.240
coastal on the water kind of and something. I said,

503
00:23:29.279 --> 00:23:32.160
Oh my god, that's the Chamber of Commerce. So I

504
00:23:32.279 --> 00:23:35.119
went in there before I ate, and I'm looking around

505
00:23:35.240 --> 00:23:38.720
and there's nothing but magazines and papers and brochures and everything.

506
00:23:38.759 --> 00:23:40.680
And this boy said, let me know if you need

507
00:23:40.680 --> 00:23:42.359
any help. I said, well, let me know where you're at.

508
00:23:43.119 --> 00:23:46.839
I couldn't see the person because they was and then

509
00:23:46.839 --> 00:23:49.519
she goes, yeah, and the prices of the little pamphlets

510
00:23:49.559 --> 00:23:49.920
is on it.

511
00:23:49.960 --> 00:23:52.960
So I looked. I kept there was this green pamphlet,

512
00:23:53.119 --> 00:24:01.200
very thin, and it held the names of lodges, miscellaneous

513
00:24:01.240 --> 00:24:02.920
non traditional.

514
00:24:02.640 --> 00:24:07.160
Groups, not sororities and fraternities, not the basic Civitans or whatever.

515
00:24:07.599 --> 00:24:09.839
These off you know, these these lodges and.

516
00:24:10.039 --> 00:24:12.640
These units and these uh what what is it called?

517
00:24:13.039 --> 00:24:17.039
I can't think of it, but anyway, very rare groups

518
00:24:17.079 --> 00:24:20.079
of people. So it was only two dollars. So I

519
00:24:20.119 --> 00:24:21.720
picked it up and I took it to the restaurant

520
00:24:21.759 --> 00:24:23.720
women and I'm looking through it. I'm like, oh, this

521
00:24:23.759 --> 00:24:26.640
is where all the unions are, thank you, Lord, unions,

522
00:24:26.720 --> 00:24:30.160
and and the lodge people and the Elks and all that.

523
00:24:30.319 --> 00:24:32.039
I'm like, whoa okay.

524
00:24:32.319 --> 00:24:35.119
So that Friday, the Lord, the supervisor called me in

525
00:24:35.119 --> 00:24:36.759
the office. She goes, well, how are you you know,

526
00:24:36.799 --> 00:24:38.400
what do you what's your plan of you know? What

527
00:24:38.440 --> 00:24:39.720
are you going to recruit? I said, well, I've got

528
00:24:39.720 --> 00:24:43.559
this little booklet from the chamber and I'm gonna look,

529
00:24:43.680 --> 00:24:45.319
I'm gonna take it home with me this weekend and

530
00:24:45.720 --> 00:24:48.119
I'm gonna pray and see what God has to say.

531
00:24:48.240 --> 00:24:50.759
And she's like, oh okay, and I know she was like, pray,

532
00:24:50.839 --> 00:24:51.640
you know who's that?

533
00:24:52.079 --> 00:24:53.559
So I went home and I prayed about it, and

534
00:24:53.599 --> 00:24:58.160
God said, choose ten organizations and send a cover letter

535
00:24:58.200 --> 00:25:02.200
to them Monday, Wednesday, y Thursday, my phone was hopping off.

536
00:25:02.519 --> 00:25:06.240
All of them said all one main thing. No one

537
00:25:06.279 --> 00:25:10.319
has ever called us to volunteer no one's ever called

538
00:25:10.400 --> 00:25:14.200
us a volunteer, and I got thirty five people. Next

539
00:25:14.200 --> 00:25:15.839
thing I know, I was able to tell my supervisors,

540
00:25:15.839 --> 00:25:18.119
I've got to go ahead and schedule orientation. They were,

541
00:25:18.440 --> 00:25:21.000
you know, sending me their things and information and stuff

542
00:25:21.039 --> 00:25:21.319
like that.

543
00:25:21.559 --> 00:25:23.200
They were going to do their background.

544
00:25:22.920 --> 00:25:24.440
Checks and stuff that they had to do that before

545
00:25:24.440 --> 00:25:26.960
they came in for orientation. And then I had a

546
00:25:27.000 --> 00:25:30.720
group of five people that did not leave their house,

547
00:25:31.279 --> 00:25:32.680
but they wanted to volunteer.

548
00:25:33.000 --> 00:25:35.759
And I said, God, need to utilize these people. How

549
00:25:35.799 --> 00:25:36.279
can I do that?

550
00:25:36.319 --> 00:25:38.640
And God said, let them be your sunshine callers. So

551
00:25:38.680 --> 00:25:43.319
they called them mental the client weekly before the volunteer

552
00:25:43.759 --> 00:25:45.000
got to the client as well.

553
00:25:45.279 --> 00:25:48.039
So these clients got.

554
00:25:47.839 --> 00:25:51.880
Two forms of communication, a person on the phone and

555
00:25:51.920 --> 00:25:55.039
a person in real time FaceTime real time. So my

556
00:25:55.079 --> 00:25:57.400
supervisor called me back and she goes, she came. She

557
00:25:57.480 --> 00:26:01.319
stayed that night for my orientation. Five people, including my

558
00:26:01.359 --> 00:26:05.039
biological mother, and I did the training and most of

559
00:26:05.079 --> 00:26:06.880
them came and said, well, I had a dui back

560
00:26:06.920 --> 00:26:08.839
and you know when I was a teenager, blah blah blah.

561
00:26:08.880 --> 00:26:10.759
I said, well, hopefully they won't pull it. If they do,

562
00:26:10.880 --> 00:26:12.640
I'll let you know okay, no problem.

563
00:26:12.920 --> 00:26:18.000
Actually, my kids godparents came out of that group over

564
00:26:18.039 --> 00:26:21.240
the years, and I had them until I retired from there.

565
00:26:21.640 --> 00:26:23.480
I had to run, so.

566
00:26:24.039 --> 00:26:26.960
You know, you can always you do your ninety days.

567
00:26:27.000 --> 00:26:29.160
You learn the company, you learn the policy, you learn

568
00:26:29.200 --> 00:26:32.079
the procedures. But after that nighty first day, used to

569
00:26:32.160 --> 00:26:32.880
start to get.

570
00:26:32.759 --> 00:26:37.119
Your own rhythm. What's gonna really work? And share?

571
00:26:37.160 --> 00:26:41.200
I'm sharing this, I believe because you know we're raised.

572
00:26:41.400 --> 00:26:43.400
You know our parents are doing the best that they can.

573
00:26:43.960 --> 00:26:45.359
And are they perfect?

574
00:26:45.519 --> 00:26:49.000
No, they never will be. Can we forgive them for that? Yeah?

575
00:26:49.160 --> 00:26:51.119
And then you move on, you.

576
00:26:50.960 --> 00:26:55.319
Grow up, you grow, and then you got the along

577
00:26:55.359 --> 00:26:57.599
the way people did what they didn't tell you in

578
00:26:57.640 --> 00:27:00.640
the humanities class or in the religiou clas classes, or

579
00:27:00.839 --> 00:27:03.200
you know, in the social service classes or whatever is.

580
00:27:03.440 --> 00:27:07.319
You got to check yourself so you won't be checked.

581
00:27:07.400 --> 00:27:11.039
Never knew who or what can come from working relationships exactly.

582
00:27:11.279 --> 00:27:14.680
I've had great executive directors and I've had bad ones,

583
00:27:14.720 --> 00:27:17.119
and I learned from all of them, all of them,

584
00:27:17.440 --> 00:27:19.559
and I could I could close books on my life.

585
00:27:19.799 --> 00:27:22.039
I'm not continued. That's another thing too. And then trade

586
00:27:22.039 --> 00:27:22.440
come on in.

587
00:27:23.119 --> 00:27:25.839
I don't continue chapters, because you don't have volumes of

588
00:27:25.880 --> 00:27:29.720
book with one chapter chapter one book, fifteen books, but

589
00:27:29.960 --> 00:27:30.799
one subject.

590
00:27:31.240 --> 00:27:35.480
That's that's that'll make sen You got the encyclopedia or

591
00:27:35.559 --> 00:27:36.000
one thing.

592
00:27:36.200 --> 00:27:39.839
No, you got that close that this chapter ends, This

593
00:27:39.880 --> 00:27:42.799
book is over. People wanted to make we can Weeping

594
00:27:42.880 --> 00:27:44.920
Warrior one and two, but they wanted to make Weeping

595
00:27:45.039 --> 00:27:46.039
Warrior number one.

596
00:27:46.079 --> 00:27:48.480
I said, no, these are two separate stories.

597
00:27:48.640 --> 00:27:50.559
Everybody would ask me, do I need to get the

598
00:27:50.599 --> 00:27:51.920
Weeping Warrior the first one?

599
00:27:52.079 --> 00:27:54.920
So no, they're two different things, politely different things.

600
00:27:54.960 --> 00:27:57.960
But the Lord said the title it Weeping Warrior number

601
00:27:58.039 --> 00:28:01.319
two because I whip I will talk man knowing when

602
00:28:01.359 --> 00:28:03.160
the chapter end is a good thing. And you got

603
00:28:03.160 --> 00:28:06.680
the land on and mickey and leave it there, lolose

604
00:28:06.839 --> 00:28:11.559
the door it is. I've told people I'm not gonna

605
00:28:11.559 --> 00:28:13.519
talk about this anymore. This is the last time I'm

606
00:28:13.559 --> 00:28:15.599
gonna say this. This is the last time we can

607
00:28:15.640 --> 00:28:18.319
talk about this. Four hour delete you and block you

608
00:28:19.000 --> 00:28:22.920
blocking the I will I love you, not mad at you,

609
00:28:22.960 --> 00:28:24.000
but we're not talking about this.

610
00:28:24.240 --> 00:28:25.039
Did we talk about this?

611
00:28:25.279 --> 00:28:27.160
That's why I didn't want to become a pastor. Go ahead,

612
00:28:27.160 --> 00:28:27.960
try I'm gonna be quiet.

613
00:28:27.960 --> 00:28:30.519
I mean, no, no, no, no, you're You're fine.

614
00:28:30.559 --> 00:28:33.559
I was, I was thinking just tying stuff in because

615
00:28:33.960 --> 00:28:36.400
people say, why didn't we care so much about what

616
00:28:36.440 --> 00:28:39.599
people think? And I know growing up we did. I mean,

617
00:28:40.200 --> 00:28:42.519
you wanted you to make friends, you wanted people to

618
00:28:42.720 --> 00:28:44.720
like you. And at this stage in my life, I

619
00:28:44.720 --> 00:28:56.720
could give a flying kitty how they feel. I mean really,

620
00:28:56.960 --> 00:29:00.880
because I know what it's like to be, you know,

621
00:29:02.640 --> 00:29:04.799
and I know some you know, sometimes I've said some

622
00:29:04.839 --> 00:29:07.279
things to people that I wish I had never said.

623
00:29:07.319 --> 00:29:11.200
But one of the things is each experienced, whether good

624
00:29:11.319 --> 00:29:16.440
or bad, makes you a better person. So the bad things,

625
00:29:16.480 --> 00:29:18.599
you can look and say, how did I bounce back?

626
00:29:18.680 --> 00:29:21.559
How did I handle it? You know? How was I resilient?

627
00:29:22.039 --> 00:29:23.839
What did I do? How did I respond?

628
00:29:24.359 --> 00:29:27.799
And growth means that you respond differently, you know, you

629
00:29:27.920 --> 00:29:28.880
respond better.

630
00:29:29.400 --> 00:29:32.200
So I'm like with miss k my mouth.

631
00:29:32.960 --> 00:29:35.039
Growing up, my mouth, My mother said your mouth is

632
00:29:35.039 --> 00:29:37.480
gonna be the death of you. Because sometimes I would

633
00:29:37.480 --> 00:29:41.039
get to that point, but it took a minute. It

634
00:29:41.079 --> 00:29:44.759
took a minute, and I did not like people teasing

635
00:29:45.000 --> 00:29:46.000
or belittling me.

636
00:29:46.119 --> 00:29:48.240
And stuff like that, and I would take it there.

637
00:29:48.759 --> 00:29:51.960
And so I mean with everything, and so one of

638
00:29:51.960 --> 00:29:54.240
the things that I work on now, you know, I

639
00:29:54.240 --> 00:29:56.680
don't use the profane language, you know, because I know

640
00:29:56.680 --> 00:29:58.400
there's a whole lot of other words that I.

641
00:29:58.359 --> 00:29:59.599
Can use instead of.

642
00:30:00.200 --> 00:30:02.799
But I also know I need to work on, or

643
00:30:02.799 --> 00:30:06.400
continue working on, guarding my heart and think, really thinking

644
00:30:06.440 --> 00:30:09.640
about because people can come at you wrong. People can

645
00:30:09.880 --> 00:30:12.720
and will come at you wrong, and you have to

646
00:30:12.759 --> 00:30:15.400
really have to stop yourself in the track, stop think,

647
00:30:15.839 --> 00:30:19.359
and then react because if you don't, it could take

648
00:30:19.359 --> 00:30:23.359
you out your character, it could flaw people's image of you,

649
00:30:23.519 --> 00:30:27.160
especially if you're in a leadership role, a supervisory role.

650
00:30:27.319 --> 00:30:30.960
And it takes some doing. I'm not saying it's easy,

651
00:30:31.359 --> 00:30:34.680
but it takes some doing. And so I have learned

652
00:30:35.200 --> 00:30:37.400
and still learning how.

653
00:30:37.200 --> 00:30:37.839
To do that.

654
00:30:38.160 --> 00:30:39.920
But you also need someone that's going to tell you

655
00:30:39.960 --> 00:30:43.559
the truth. You need someone in your circle to say, trede,

656
00:30:43.640 --> 00:30:46.880
you know that wasn't right, that that what you said

657
00:30:47.039 --> 00:30:50.039
was not right, or what you said was correct, or

658
00:30:50.319 --> 00:30:52.680
you could have done it differently, because sometimes when you're

659
00:30:52.680 --> 00:30:55.720
in the moment, you're not thinking, and another person outside

660
00:30:55.720 --> 00:30:58.480
who you truly trust, that knows, that's going to tell

661
00:30:58.599 --> 00:31:00.240
you the rights.

662
00:31:00.079 --> 00:31:02.519
And the wrongs kind of look at it that way.

663
00:31:02.559 --> 00:31:04.279
I mean, I have quite a people in a few

664
00:31:04.279 --> 00:31:05.720
people in my circle that do that.

665
00:31:06.200 --> 00:31:06.359
Ms.

666
00:31:06.480 --> 00:31:08.680
Gray's one of them. Miss Kay is one of them.

667
00:31:09.000 --> 00:31:10.720
You know, if I'm not doing.

668
00:31:10.640 --> 00:31:13.559
Right or if I need to do something differently, I

669
00:31:13.720 --> 00:31:16.200
value and trust them. Why because I know that they

670
00:31:16.240 --> 00:31:18.279
have my best interest in heart and they want to

671
00:31:18.279 --> 00:31:22.000
see me grow spiritually and through faith. And that's what

672
00:31:22.000 --> 00:31:23.799
people do that care about you. They don't want to

673
00:31:23.839 --> 00:31:28.039
see you not see God. They want you to see God.

674
00:31:28.440 --> 00:31:30.480
They don't want you to go see the devil.

675
00:31:30.759 --> 00:31:32.319
They will tell you God.

676
00:31:32.160 --> 00:31:34.039
Would not like it this way. You need to do

677
00:31:34.119 --> 00:31:37.160
it that way. You need to repent. And I find

678
00:31:37.160 --> 00:31:41.480
myself repenting on things that knowingly I've done something that

679
00:31:41.559 --> 00:31:45.240
might not have been right, and unknowingly knowing something that

680
00:31:45.319 --> 00:31:47.440
might have been right. Because in his faith, you're not

681
00:31:47.480 --> 00:31:51.160
sure what everything is. You know what sins are, you

682
00:31:51.200 --> 00:31:54.000
know there's no good sin, but you know what I mean.

683
00:31:55.279 --> 00:31:56.720
But that's right.

684
00:31:57.240 --> 00:31:59.240
So oh, by the way, but that's part of the

685
00:31:59.319 --> 00:32:02.799
growth period. And I'm and I'm happy that I'm doing it.

686
00:32:02.839 --> 00:32:03.799
I'm I have.

687
00:32:03.799 --> 00:32:04.559
Quite a few people.

688
00:32:04.599 --> 00:32:07.599
I'm very blessed and fortunate to have people in my

689
00:32:07.680 --> 00:32:11.119
circle that are helping me through this walk. And it's

690
00:32:11.160 --> 00:32:14.279
not easy, but I do have people say I see

691
00:32:14.319 --> 00:32:17.880
your growth, which makes me feel good, like, okay, let's

692
00:32:17.960 --> 00:32:20.839
keep track and trade. Let's keep doing this because at

693
00:32:20.880 --> 00:32:23.519
the end of the day, your goal is to be

694
00:32:24.119 --> 00:32:28.000
able to see God. And was that well done, my

695
00:32:28.079 --> 00:32:29.079
good and faithful servant.

696
00:32:29.119 --> 00:32:29.799
I want to hear that.

697
00:32:29.839 --> 00:32:31.359
I don't want to see you know what you do

698
00:32:31.440 --> 00:32:34.240
so well. I'm pushing the down button on this elevator.

699
00:32:34.640 --> 00:32:35.559
I don't want to do that.

700
00:32:36.680 --> 00:32:44.480
Hold five years old, I'm one hundred and twenty now,

701
00:32:44.519 --> 00:32:45.000
I'm an agent.

702
00:32:47.400 --> 00:32:48.680
That's what I want to know. I want to get

703
00:32:48.680 --> 00:32:50.079
to go up to the front of the line. What's

704
00:32:50.079 --> 00:32:51.359
wrong with you?

705
00:32:51.400 --> 00:32:51.920
How much.

706
00:32:53.559 --> 00:32:56.680
Half a book I want to get in?

707
00:32:56.960 --> 00:33:02.160
I'm sorry all so the audience, you see how missus

708
00:33:02.160 --> 00:33:07.440
Gray is so mss Grey has always been real. He

709
00:33:07.599 --> 00:33:10.799
and a magic growing up in that household. But that's like,

710
00:33:11.359 --> 00:33:14.160
so you're gonna get it. But the thing is, her

711
00:33:14.200 --> 00:33:17.400
heart is good. I'm telling you her heart is good.

712
00:33:17.480 --> 00:33:20.519
And I know she is a child of God. I

713
00:33:20.599 --> 00:33:23.839
am she has a testimony out this world. I know

714
00:33:23.960 --> 00:33:25.920
she shared some stuff and I know there's a lot

715
00:33:25.960 --> 00:33:28.400
of stuff that I probably don't even know, but the

716
00:33:28.480 --> 00:33:30.319
fact that I do know some of the stuff that

717
00:33:30.359 --> 00:33:31.599
she's even shared on here.

718
00:33:32.079 --> 00:33:34.200
If you don't believe in God, you better look at

719
00:33:34.240 --> 00:33:37.680
miss Gray. I'm telling you. I am telling you that.

720
00:33:37.759 --> 00:33:39.920
Is it if you want to be believe in the

721
00:33:39.960 --> 00:33:43.039
faith or what God is capable of doing. The first

722
00:33:43.119 --> 00:33:45.440
time I heard or never knew her, never saw before

723
00:33:45.440 --> 00:33:45.880
in my life.

724
00:33:46.000 --> 00:33:49.200
She made an impact. And that was years ago, and

725
00:33:50.359 --> 00:33:52.759
she made she made a good impact.

726
00:33:53.119 --> 00:33:55.480
So I am telling you to the point, I had

727
00:33:55.559 --> 00:33:57.920
to find her. I had to find her. And God

728
00:33:58.000 --> 00:33:58.759
knew what he was doing.

729
00:33:58.799 --> 00:34:00.799
I did not. I did not realized what.

730
00:34:00.759 --> 00:34:04.319
He was doing. Just believe in yourself. Go ahead, okay.

731
00:34:05.960 --> 00:34:08.000
But I wanted to add, like Trelin back on what

732
00:34:08.119 --> 00:34:10.159
Miss Tray said, y'all.

733
00:34:10.159 --> 00:34:11.920
I was a hard head for the right reason.

734
00:34:12.559 --> 00:34:15.800
I never you know, I had to react certain things. Well,

735
00:34:15.840 --> 00:34:18.440
I felt the need to react. Not everything needs reaction,

736
00:34:18.599 --> 00:34:20.960
though only when tried and it was built up. I

737
00:34:21.000 --> 00:34:23.639
was bullied as well for being too hairy. Stuck with

738
00:34:23.679 --> 00:34:25.679
me a little bit, but I have every right.

739
00:34:26.559 --> 00:34:28.679
I would get after the bullies. That was my thing.

740
00:34:28.719 --> 00:34:30.599
I would get after bullies and stuff like that. Like

741
00:34:30.760 --> 00:34:32.679
I wasn't just you know, picking stuff, you.

742
00:34:32.679 --> 00:34:35.440
Being a bully. Now was my time to turn up

743
00:34:35.440 --> 00:34:35.679
on you.

744
00:34:36.039 --> 00:34:39.239
But with that being said, I wanted to share.

745
00:34:40.840 --> 00:34:42.320
Not for real, guys, because I'm gonna tell you. So

746
00:34:42.320 --> 00:34:43.639
I'm gona tell you a little quick story.

747
00:34:43.800 --> 00:34:46.480
So as far as that, I asked God I share

748
00:34:46.480 --> 00:34:49.199
with you guys before, to have peace over my heart.

749
00:34:49.559 --> 00:34:51.400
When I tell you, I could barely get mad. It

750
00:34:51.440 --> 00:34:53.920
really takes a lot for me to like actually get angry,

751
00:34:54.000 --> 00:34:56.639
Like I really don't. Lately these past couple of months,

752
00:34:56.679 --> 00:34:59.760
I haven't been angry at all. I'm telling you, when

753
00:34:59.800 --> 00:35:02.920
you ask God for something, you're being obedient, you will

754
00:35:02.960 --> 00:35:03.440
receive it.

755
00:35:03.800 --> 00:35:04.559
And I say that.

756
00:35:04.639 --> 00:35:06.559
One day, me and my mom was out having lunch

757
00:35:06.679 --> 00:35:09.239
or whatever, and I'm putting the food down on the

758
00:35:09.280 --> 00:35:11.280
car and the homeless man come up on him. So

759
00:35:11.440 --> 00:35:13.719
I'm like, Ma, you know what I'm saying. I'm getting

760
00:35:13.719 --> 00:35:16.119
her attention because I'm putting stuff. You know, this man

761
00:35:16.199 --> 00:35:18.000
trying to roll up on my mom. Like we're good,

762
00:35:18.079 --> 00:35:20.400
you know, we're good. You know the old me probably

763
00:35:20.440 --> 00:35:23.199
would have like, you know, went crazy, But I was

764
00:35:23.239 --> 00:35:25.559
really at peace. Although that's a situation you should be

765
00:35:25.599 --> 00:35:27.840
mad at. I'm just trying to show y'all how God

766
00:35:27.960 --> 00:35:30.440
provided peace over my heart like that much to where

767
00:35:30.480 --> 00:35:33.440
like I really couldn't react because I'm like, I'm God.

768
00:35:33.480 --> 00:35:35.159
I'm trying to get mad right now. I'm trying to

769
00:35:35.159 --> 00:35:37.000
turn them to where I was super saying this man,

770
00:35:37.440 --> 00:35:41.880
but unfortunately, you know, you know that's what God does.

771
00:35:42.039 --> 00:35:44.920
You know, you know that's what he does. Though, when

772
00:35:44.960 --> 00:35:47.239
you ask for something, you will see. Oh, you guys

773
00:35:47.239 --> 00:35:51.199
are going to see Jazz. Okay, he wants to interview.

774
00:35:51.199 --> 00:35:56.480
You want to say, hey, okay, he's up here.

775
00:35:56.559 --> 00:36:03.159
She's wearing me okay, fat but okay, rely into the story.

776
00:36:03.239 --> 00:36:09.119
She's you know right, she's still right here.

777
00:36:09.159 --> 00:36:09.960
She's not getting down.

778
00:36:10.280 --> 00:36:12.719
You want to go, okay, you gotta put her in

779
00:36:12.760 --> 00:36:14.920
a vision, get her more in the camera.

780
00:36:14.679 --> 00:36:17.239
So they can see her. It's just hearing Jazz.

781
00:36:18.719 --> 00:36:19.719
She's down.

782
00:36:20.960 --> 00:36:21.519
Okay, that's too.

783
00:36:23.840 --> 00:36:26.440
But yeah, just sharing that to show you guys what

784
00:36:26.480 --> 00:36:28.920
God can do. You know what I'm saying, like pieces

785
00:36:29.000 --> 00:36:31.159
all you know we need and everything like that, and

786
00:36:31.320 --> 00:36:34.800
just his love, his support and filling any voice again

787
00:36:35.480 --> 00:36:37.920
your past problems. You have to get over a baby.

788
00:36:37.920 --> 00:36:40.280
You're the only one upset about it. You only one

789
00:36:40.360 --> 00:36:42.679
said about it. Going through the things. Nobody else cares.

790
00:36:43.039 --> 00:36:44.800
The people that did you all, they don't care. They

791
00:36:44.880 --> 00:36:45.639
living their life.

792
00:36:45.920 --> 00:36:48.719
You're stuck on your past. You shouldn't be. You gotta

793
00:36:48.760 --> 00:36:52.000
move forward. And I hope that as this new year

794
00:36:52.159 --> 00:36:54.480
is coming, that you just move forward. Forgive these people

795
00:36:54.480 --> 00:36:55.199
and move forward.

796
00:36:55.599 --> 00:36:58.639
You're the only person that has an emotion to whatever

797
00:36:58.719 --> 00:36:59.480
has happened to you.

798
00:37:00.119 --> 00:37:03.199
Simple ask God to fill those voids in your heart.

799
00:37:03.679 --> 00:37:07.239
Neglect anything, not feel in love, feeling like you need

800
00:37:07.239 --> 00:37:10.079
a partner, I need more, whatever the case may be.

801
00:37:10.800 --> 00:37:12.719
Ask God to fill that void in your heart, because

802
00:37:12.760 --> 00:37:15.039
he will. I'm telling you right now. That's a testimony,

803
00:37:15.119 --> 00:37:17.000
you know, I'm saying, filling my heart with peace. I

804
00:37:17.039 --> 00:37:19.239
can't even get mad. As much as I want to

805
00:37:19.280 --> 00:37:21.840
get mad, I can't get I literally cannot get mad.

806
00:37:21.880 --> 00:37:23.840
I kid you guys, not like I can't. And it

807
00:37:23.880 --> 00:37:25.559
freaks me out because I'm just like, Okay, God, I

808
00:37:25.559 --> 00:37:26.639
did ask a lot of times.

809
00:37:26.679 --> 00:37:28.960
I think you forgot the place I heard in my life.

810
00:37:30.719 --> 00:37:31.239
I love that.

811
00:37:31.400 --> 00:37:31.719
Thank you.

812
00:37:31.800 --> 00:37:36.199
El the k three years one side of the teaching

813
00:37:36.559 --> 00:37:39.960
turn into three years and all my life no, no, no,

814
00:37:40.079 --> 00:37:41.599
your life.

815
00:37:40.960 --> 00:37:46.119
All my life and your teachings all my life. Thank you.

816
00:37:46.119 --> 00:37:47.719
You know I had twenty three.

817
00:37:48.719 --> 00:37:50.880
Okay, yeah, yeah, you had twenty three came in six

818
00:37:50.920 --> 00:37:52.760
weeks early. Yeah you need to know.

819
00:37:53.320 --> 00:37:56.599
But but I think you you know when I first

820
00:37:56.960 --> 00:38:00.079
when I remarried and moved to Orlando, my first I

821
00:38:00.079 --> 00:38:02.079
finally was able to get a job with the Agency

822
00:38:02.079 --> 00:38:04.639
for Persons with Disabilities, and I was there, I did

823
00:38:04.679 --> 00:38:08.119
transportation of the disabled to their work site. So my

824
00:38:08.199 --> 00:38:10.760
kids are in the car too, and I have you know,

825
00:38:10.760 --> 00:38:12.519
I had a pathfinder person that I got there, a

826
00:38:12.639 --> 00:38:15.400
model which is the three seater, and they were in

827
00:38:15.440 --> 00:38:17.119
the car with me and they would look at me

828
00:38:17.199 --> 00:38:19.960
how I would respond to the clients and things and

829
00:38:20.000 --> 00:38:22.159
calm them down. Okay, we're not gonna have that, and

830
00:38:22.400 --> 00:38:25.320
they get unruling. My kids are looking so as little people.

831
00:38:25.440 --> 00:38:28.800
They grew up around folks who were disabled, who did

832
00:38:28.840 --> 00:38:31.679
not have a voice, who couldn't express themselves.

833
00:38:31.079 --> 00:38:33.280
And they would looks and even to this day, they

834
00:38:33.599 --> 00:38:34.920
their compassion is there.

835
00:38:35.360 --> 00:38:37.679
It's there because they'll see somebody and they'll hold the

836
00:38:37.679 --> 00:38:39.360
door open for everybody to come on there. I say,

837
00:38:39.400 --> 00:38:41.440
you know, fly as a company. You know, this is

838
00:38:41.480 --> 00:38:43.679
a restaurant. We gotta go eat, come on, but they do.

839
00:38:45.199 --> 00:38:47.400
You got to show people that people don't have that,

840
00:38:47.480 --> 00:38:49.920
you know, that niceness that you know. And even when

841
00:38:49.920 --> 00:38:51.960
people don't even thank me, it is what it is. Uncle,

842
00:38:52.320 --> 00:38:52.960
you know what I'm saying.

843
00:38:53.519 --> 00:38:55.599
They're not here to be thanked. That's the thing I

844
00:38:55.719 --> 00:38:57.239
raised them on. Don't worry about somebody.

845
00:38:57.280 --> 00:38:58.159
I'm not looking for it.

846
00:38:58.159 --> 00:38:59.880
I never will. I never will.

847
00:39:00.119 --> 00:39:02.599
But just make sure God is saying, that's my child,

848
00:39:02.840 --> 00:39:05.599
all right, that's my child. And I was thinking today,

849
00:39:05.840 --> 00:39:09.519
you know, to say to you all, I'm gonna challenge y'all.

850
00:39:09.519 --> 00:39:11.639
I'm not gonna do no resolutional stuff because most of

851
00:39:11.679 --> 00:39:12.400
the people don't do.

852
00:39:12.599 --> 00:39:14.519
You know. I challenging you.

853
00:39:14.599 --> 00:39:18.519
But I need you really to take the Bible really serious,

854
00:39:18.920 --> 00:39:21.800
as serious as you can, and I need you to

855
00:39:21.920 --> 00:39:22.599
study it.

856
00:39:22.880 --> 00:39:25.039
I need you to do more than what you've been doing.

857
00:39:25.400 --> 00:39:29.000
Unfortunately, the world's getting getting ready to hit it come

858
00:39:29.079 --> 00:39:34.400
Friday something whatever. However, things are getting ready to be turnt,

859
00:39:34.559 --> 00:39:36.440
and you cannot lose your mind.

860
00:39:36.880 --> 00:39:37.800
I don't know how long.

861
00:39:37.960 --> 00:39:40.119
I don't know the What all I know is God

862
00:39:40.159 --> 00:39:43.000
says to hunker down now for us.

863
00:39:43.119 --> 00:39:44.320
I just told the person.

864
00:39:44.119 --> 00:39:47.519
Today, you're gonna probably be quieted from dealing with one

865
00:39:47.559 --> 00:39:51.119
on one situations. God's putting her to do a whole

866
00:39:51.159 --> 00:39:54.199
different thing. Now I've been quiet for a minute. He's

867
00:39:54.199 --> 00:39:57.079
getting ready. Now it's time. My time is coming. I

868
00:39:57.079 --> 00:40:00.840
can feel it that I'll be attending social media and

869
00:40:00.880 --> 00:40:03.800
things like that and possibly, you know, starting the rest

870
00:40:03.800 --> 00:40:04.559
of the ministry.

871
00:40:05.239 --> 00:40:08.119
It was funny, just a sidebar, but he said, and

872
00:40:08.159 --> 00:40:09.400
I went to We.

873
00:40:09.480 --> 00:40:13.159
Ended up going to lushon quick yesterday and I was

874
00:40:13.199 --> 00:40:15.400
looking at the restaurant. Looked like it was dark inside.

875
00:40:15.800 --> 00:40:17.920
So she's trying to read the notice on the door.

876
00:40:18.320 --> 00:40:21.800
I said open. She said, you're the open, but she's

877
00:40:21.880 --> 00:40:24.519
trying to read it. And she said, fine, I'm trying

878
00:40:24.559 --> 00:40:25.039
to read this.

879
00:40:25.159 --> 00:40:26.519
And I'm like, I just need to do that if

880
00:40:26.559 --> 00:40:28.519
they opened, because ain't nobody here, you know.

881
00:40:28.840 --> 00:40:31.039
We walked in and here's this guy. He's all over

882
00:40:31.039 --> 00:40:32.960
the place and the whole Sister's like.

883
00:40:32.960 --> 00:40:35.320
Oh, you can see it anywhere. Oh, I got nobody

884
00:40:35.320 --> 00:40:40.000
in here, but like one couple this is telling us something.

885
00:40:40.320 --> 00:40:44.280
So he comes over. So she hands us the temporary

886
00:40:44.320 --> 00:40:46.920
menu because their power was out or something was out.

887
00:40:47.199 --> 00:40:50.239
They had a lot of maintenance issues, so they have issues.

888
00:40:50.280 --> 00:40:52.719
I said, well, this is not the day to have it.

889
00:40:52.840 --> 00:40:55.760
The day a weekend of Christmas. From Christmas. You got

890
00:40:55.760 --> 00:40:57.719
everybody in their mother and the theater is in the

891
00:40:57.719 --> 00:41:00.920
same plaza. So I said, you know, the one movie

892
00:41:01.199 --> 00:41:04.079
Avatar is full. That theater is full in there. They've

893
00:41:04.079 --> 00:41:07.320
got over sixty people in there, so they're gonna be

894
00:41:07.400 --> 00:41:09.480
hungry when they come out, and they're gonna come over

895
00:41:09.559 --> 00:41:12.320
here instead of going to cheesecake factory, because everybody at

896
00:41:12.360 --> 00:41:14.280
the door with cheesecake factory started.

897
00:41:14.039 --> 00:41:14.880
There and it was full.

898
00:41:15.360 --> 00:41:19.199
So we set out and literally it was a page

899
00:41:19.400 --> 00:41:22.639
with what they had available. So the other young man,

900
00:41:22.960 --> 00:41:25.400
the waiter, I guess he's our server. He was like

901
00:41:25.480 --> 00:41:27.199
all over the place and I don't know what he

902
00:41:27.320 --> 00:41:29.440
was on, but anyway, I didn't have time. We were

903
00:41:29.480 --> 00:41:32.119
really hungry, and I was like, okay, well we'll do this.

904
00:41:32.199 --> 00:41:32.360
Well.

905
00:41:32.400 --> 00:41:34.559
He said, even though it says Hamburger's on there, we

906
00:41:34.639 --> 00:41:37.519
only have chicken. We only have chicken breast. I said,

907
00:41:37.519 --> 00:41:40.159
you got publics right two feet away from y'all. You

908
00:41:40.199 --> 00:41:41.719
can't go over there and get a bag of wings.

909
00:41:42.079 --> 00:41:45.280
They'll pay you back he'say, ma'am, I know. I said, no,

910
00:41:45.360 --> 00:41:47.719
you don't know, y'all. You don't know what you're doing

911
00:41:47.960 --> 00:41:51.320
because you all just really stuck a fork in your grave.

912
00:41:51.639 --> 00:41:54.599
I'm telling you this is not the time to be Oh,

913
00:41:54.679 --> 00:41:56.760
we can't. But the air condition. We were up on

914
00:41:56.840 --> 00:41:58.880
the air condition. I got a running nose from sitting

915
00:41:58.920 --> 00:42:01.559
under the air condition. But nothing was working in the kitchen.

916
00:42:01.559 --> 00:42:02.599
I don't understand that.

917
00:42:02.639 --> 00:42:03.360
I don't need to.

918
00:42:03.719 --> 00:42:06.480
If you can grill my chicken and give me a

919
00:42:06.519 --> 00:42:07.840
chicken breast, you could.

920
00:42:07.679 --> 00:42:09.000
Go and drop wings and.

921
00:42:11.119 --> 00:42:18.199
And and thes potato tops. What's wrong with y'allread What's

922
00:42:18.199 --> 00:42:18.920
wrong with y'all?

923
00:42:19.119 --> 00:42:20.480
Y'all need somebody to tag it that.

924
00:42:20.800 --> 00:42:26.400
So we're gonna talk about y'all on the podcast for sure.

925
00:42:26.480 --> 00:42:27.440
I want to add.

926
00:42:31.480 --> 00:42:33.920
To help those who wants to study their word.

927
00:42:34.039 --> 00:42:36.320
Like two methods I learned on studying the word, and

928
00:42:36.360 --> 00:42:39.639
one is the soap method soap s O A P.

929
00:42:40.239 --> 00:42:42.679
Which is you're gonna write down a scripture, You're gonna

930
00:42:42.719 --> 00:42:45.760
deserve what happens in that story. You're gonna have an application,

931
00:42:45.880 --> 00:42:47.320
how can you apply it to your life?

932
00:42:47.480 --> 00:42:50.159
And a prayer. That's the soap method.

933
00:42:50.480 --> 00:42:54.760
You have GPS, which is what God says, what does

934
00:42:54.760 --> 00:42:58.599
he say about people? And I believe a scripture like

935
00:42:58.920 --> 00:43:01.559
to go along with or no, it's for self, that's

936
00:43:01.599 --> 00:43:03.480
it's for self. So like, how can you apply it

937
00:43:03.519 --> 00:43:06.360
to yourself? Just in case I wanted a way to

938
00:43:06.800 --> 00:43:09.719
begin studying your word if you're going on into that

939
00:43:09.800 --> 00:43:11.440
journey and stuff like that, and I.

940
00:43:11.400 --> 00:43:12.840
Want you to that's and I'm glad you said that

941
00:43:12.840 --> 00:43:14.639
because IM gonna pick it right up from there. The

942
00:43:14.840 --> 00:43:17.599
challenge is you need to study the work for whatever

943
00:43:17.639 --> 00:43:20.800
you're going through right now. I want you all one

944
00:43:21.519 --> 00:43:23.559
once we get you hang up or you you know,

945
00:43:23.719 --> 00:43:25.920
turn off the station, whatever, I need you to give

946
00:43:26.000 --> 00:43:28.159
grab a piece of paper, even a supposed or whatever.

947
00:43:28.360 --> 00:43:31.960
And I want you to identify three major things that's going.

948
00:43:31.679 --> 00:43:32.159
On with you.

949
00:43:32.480 --> 00:43:35.000
Three major things. Just don't write a whole sentence and stuffing.

950
00:43:35.280 --> 00:43:38.239
Just put you know, financial debt. I'm in debt. I

951
00:43:38.280 --> 00:43:40.519
don't have a relationship. I want I want a husband,

952
00:43:40.519 --> 00:43:42.400
I want a wife. Whatever you have to do.

953
00:43:42.480 --> 00:43:44.119
I want you to write down those three things.

954
00:43:44.280 --> 00:43:47.440
Then your challenge for the rest of the year is

955
00:43:47.480 --> 00:43:53.039
to find scriptures on that and learn those scriptures, meditate,

956
00:43:53.079 --> 00:43:57.199
on them day and night. I double dare you find somebody,

957
00:43:57.199 --> 00:43:59.480
because you're gonna find somebody. In the Bible, you know,

958
00:44:00.320 --> 00:44:03.440
women who were barren, could not have a baby, didn't

959
00:44:03.440 --> 00:44:06.960
think they would ever get married, looked over, bullied, you know.

960
00:44:07.159 --> 00:44:10.400
But folks in have finances, they didn't have money. The

961
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widow who was gonna make the one last cake for

962
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Ezekiel and and and die her and her son was

963
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going to die.

964
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He said, no, just give me the cake. And she's like, uh,

965
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did you not hear me? I have nothing else.

966
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We're we're preparing to die, most sure, we're preparing to die.

967
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And the Man of God said give me that.

968
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And before he left, she had tend cairs of oil

969
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that she could go to the market and set.

970
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Always had. Oh I'm about to cry, always had the

971
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Man of God.

972
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Jesus just got a new testament the marry and Martha

973
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mad at him because Lazarus is dead and it's because

974
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of you.

975
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If you to come here four days ago when we

976
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sent the message.

977
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Jesus is like, okay, Jesus wept. We're really not sure

978
00:44:52.719 --> 00:44:55.599
why he wept. Was it because they're getting on over?

979
00:44:55.960 --> 00:44:57.599
Was he saying, oh, ye of little faith. Well he

980
00:44:57.599 --> 00:44:59.360
did say that, oh ye of little faith?

981
00:44:59.599 --> 00:45:01.519
Did he? He said, what you where'd you put him?

982
00:45:01.719 --> 00:45:04.119
It's not like what you gonna view the body? You know,

983
00:45:04.239 --> 00:45:07.639
he's smelling. And he in the cave. We wrapped him up.

984
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We we we put the little.

985
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Bomb, the prophem and the borough on it. But you

986
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say him and he's over there, he said, and he goes.

987
00:45:16.480 --> 00:45:19.760
He don't go inside. He don't say move to Rocky Lazari,

988
00:45:20.079 --> 00:45:23.119
come forth. They're like, oh, here we go. Now, okay,

989
00:45:23.159 --> 00:45:26.079
now Jesus, you do okay. You know people were murmuring,

990
00:45:26.280 --> 00:45:27.280
what is he doing?

991
00:45:27.719 --> 00:45:28.039
Come for?

992
00:45:28.760 --> 00:45:31.719
You know how you're gonna smell? First of all, he's

993
00:45:31.719 --> 00:45:36.079
talking to a dead man. Lazarus, come forth. I'm the word,

994
00:45:36.119 --> 00:45:39.000
I'm the bread of life, I'm the living water. I

995
00:45:39.119 --> 00:45:42.960
was dead when you were created. Come, Jesus wasn't bragging

996
00:45:43.039 --> 00:45:44.760
showing off for nothing? And those of you who are

997
00:45:44.760 --> 00:45:46.880
in ministry, you showing off and all that kind of.

998
00:45:46.880 --> 00:45:50.760
Stuff and hurting people. You're done, nailing the coffin. You're done.

999
00:45:51.159 --> 00:45:52.920
Jesus had a four third time.

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If you mat Lazarus, come forth, and all you know,

1001
00:45:57.119 --> 00:46:00.239
all you all they could hear was something shuffling up

1002
00:46:00.239 --> 00:46:01.920
to the Scheffler, he said, I'm the bread of life.

1003
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I'm the light of life. He who believe on me

1004
00:46:04.400 --> 00:46:08.199
shall have eternal life. So the challenge to all of you,

1005
00:46:08.480 --> 00:46:10.320
because the next time we see you we will be

1006
00:46:10.360 --> 00:46:13.559
in a new year. The challenge will be write down

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00:46:13.719 --> 00:46:16.679
three things. Don't go beyond that, don't do two things,

1008
00:46:16.679 --> 00:46:18.480
don't do one and a half. I'm on three things.

1009
00:46:18.519 --> 00:46:20.800
I know all of y'all got three things you need

1010
00:46:20.840 --> 00:46:23.320
to work on. Three things that make you anxious, three

1011
00:46:23.360 --> 00:46:26.360
things that make you upset and angrid, whatever.

1012
00:46:26.079 --> 00:46:29.239
It is, three things that make you doubt God. Write

1013
00:46:29.239 --> 00:46:29.679
them down.

1014
00:46:30.159 --> 00:46:33.320
Then you're gonna use the rest of this year to

1015
00:46:33.360 --> 00:46:34.760
find the scriptures to support it.

1016
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I guarantee you you will.

1017
00:46:36.480 --> 00:46:40.320
Find our relatives in the Old and New Testament that

1018
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will totally blow your mind.

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Well that's our time, guys.

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Happy this.

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Next time, same station, different year. We love you, night night.

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I ain't happy a year, STUDI