March 17, 2025

A Day of Happiness, Really?

A Day of Happiness, Really?

sadness, happiness, depression, false hope

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Well, good evening, How are you all doing this fine evening,

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second to the last Monday of the month of March.

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And no you're not dreaming, No, you're just You're not

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in a fog. This is true. But before we go

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any further, let's pray. Father, we just loved you so much.

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We are forever giving you all the praise, the glory

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and the honor. It's still not enough. It's still not enough.

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There's not enough words in the dictionary to give you praise,

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to honor you.

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There's not enough.

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So the least we can do is try to get

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live our lives in accordance to what you would have

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us to do. I love you so much and the

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conversations I've had, the interactions I've had just in the

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last few days.

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Have blown my mind.

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Lord. I pray that others have experienced this, especially this

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week and now do to prophecy.

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I know why. I thank you God. We thank you God. Now,

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as always, this is setting it straight with Miss Gray.

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Is your program, it's your podcast, it's your time of interaction,

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it's your time of communication.

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We stand and we get quickly behind the cross because

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we know not what your audience needs to hear.

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Tonight, We've ever given you off the praise, the glory

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and the honor.

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Lord.

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We also intercede for those lives that have been lost

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with these crazy storms and tornadoes this this last weekend

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and the weekend alone, losing over thirty some odd people

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five six car thirty car pile ups who we would.

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Have never expected or guessed this. I wan't just be

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with us tonight.

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You speak to your people through us. We give you

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all the glory, honor, and the mighty name.

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Of Jesus Christ. Amen and amen. Right, Well, here we go,

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here we go.

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Well I'm excited. I was just as we were coming,

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you know, waiting to come on. I was talking to

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Pastor Miguel and Rebel our engineer, and I couldn't believe

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it because I was setting. I was filling out a

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form that goes onto iHeartRadio about our show. So I

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have to fill in the dates, and I mean the time,

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the title and all that good stuff and some words,

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some keywords and stuff like that.

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So I'm on my computer and all of a sudden, this.

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Announcement comes up that broaches have entered a new era

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and here is how you can style them in twenty

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twenty five.

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And let me tell you about my love of broach.

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For brochures, brochures, broaches, I've always I think they're just

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unique pins, unique pieces of jewelry.

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Yes, you've got to wear it the right way, with

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the right garment, with the right earrings. Your accessories have

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to be on points. So I'm going to show you.

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Let me just do a little history here, Victoria Area.

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Broach just went mainstream as royals like Queen Victoria adopted

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lavish takes on the accessory. In fact, Prince Albert famously

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gifted her a sapphire and diamond brooch the night before

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the couple's wedding in eighteen forty and she wore it

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to tie the knot the next day and another and.

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I had no idea. I've noticed, I've watched how Queen

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Elizabeth would dressed. I was just taken aback by her hats.

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And they note her as well in this article and

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they said the accessory was also a staple in Queen

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Elizabeth's too royal ensembles, even long before she took the

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throne in nineteen fifty two. And there was an author

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who I guess her first book, Fourth of the Queen,

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and it's called The Queen's Jewels, the personal collection of.

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Queen of Elizabeth believed she owned and they.

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Believe she owned ninety eight brooches ninety eight throughout her life,

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and many of her styles had hidden meetings. Here we go,

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such as the flower basket brooch that her parents gifted

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her prior to the birth of her son, King Charles.

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The Monarch revived the broch in twenty thirteen alongside her

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signature pearls. Another classic jury category experiencing a resurgence, and

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I think her great grandson Prince George, when she was

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they were christening Prince George and then Madeleine Albright, the

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first woman to served in the United States Secretary of State,

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was another prominent figure known for her broch collection. She

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even wrote a memoir titled Read My Pens, Story from

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a Diplomat's Jury Box jewel Box, and she talks about

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the brooches that she wore. So without further ado, and

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I'm gonna read the rest of that. But I had

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to run and go get my brooches because last week

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I was gathering stuff to donate to Goodwill or indoor

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Salvation Army. And I finally went through all of my

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jewelry boxes. Don't be trying to break in on anything,

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because you will get hurt. You won't succeed, So don't

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even take this to the wrong way. And I said,

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you know, this jury piece is that I'm not gonna

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wear anymore ear rings and stuff like that to like

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the light. Rather, I'm not gonna wear these things anymore.

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And so I came up with a half a bag

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of little nylon bag of jewelry that I donated. But

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I came to the drawer with my pant my brooches

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in it, and I looked at all the pieces that

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I had collected, so far that I was given. These

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are gifts, and I said, I can't. I can't let

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them go. I can't let them go. So I want

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to show you real quick some of my pieces. This

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is one of my favorite ones. Here that's a lion

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with all the jewels in it, and I'm not ambiguous,

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he's just lions. I have my oh, let me go

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this way elephant, if you can see that one. I

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can't remember where I got this little fella from, but

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I have had him.

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For years, literally years.

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Yeah, and then I got I picked this up somewhere

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I'm not quite sure to wear, but you just you know,

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you can put it or you can put it in

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your hat.

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This one was funny.

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I think I went to a cultural uh event and

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picked that up. And I love the women that I

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love the view of the church women in their hats,

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you know, I love that. And let's say, oh, oh,

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this is this is the oldest piece that I've ever had,

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and I believe it came out of my mom's jewelry. Yeah,

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that was my that's before nineteen forties. And here's another

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one that's an oldie but a goodie. And I just

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couldn't let these go. I just couldn't. And now they're

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coming back.

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Now. I think my grandmother had a fascination with them.

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Hey miss it. Yeah yeah, I'm telling you.

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You know, when people lose their elders, you know you're

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looking at different things, and you know you try to

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inherit or whatever. But look in their jury box, looking

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their hat box. Now, this one was given to me

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by Damon John of the Shark Tank and a Fooboo,

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because he was here and I attended one of his

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money management type of things and he sent us out

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to He gave these to all of us rising grind

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and that's one of his mottos. And then I don't

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know how I got this one because it's in a

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little cute thing here and go in real d oh.

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It's like, Lady Liberty, I'm sorry, I can't do this.

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Real good is that the woman? Isn't that the woman

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of justice?

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Okay, there you go.

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See.

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I didn't even know what it was, but somebody gave

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this to me in a nice's little and I still

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have it in this little tuble thing. So things are

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coming back into style, and that started years ago because

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you know, I mean people just especially as young kids,

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you know, they put on.

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Anything and it doesn't even have to match.

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It doesn't have to They put on circles and rectangles

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and triangles and all kinds of stuff, and you know,

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stripe sucks, and you know, it doesn't matter the matching.

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And my daughter says, it's too sorry about that. Why

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are you doing? I said, because I have to match.

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So my headband has to match, my my my my

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accessories have to match it.

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It's more important to me, especially.

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Since I became, you know, an MPTE and my kids

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are like so my headbands and my my accessories and

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my glasses now have to And then I have my

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you know, my blade bracists with the.

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Cross on it.

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You just never know when time changes for you or

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changes you.

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You know, you just don't know. And thank goodness for Amazon.

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Amazon became my safe haven and I uh, get out

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of this real quick.

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And so you know, it's what I have. This is

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the only thing I gave away over.

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Eighty pairs of shoes because and this is the reason

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why this is so important to me, because before my

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amputations and everything, I was always a plus sized girl.

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I'm not I mean, I'm not an obese, but I've

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always been.

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Those little cute. Thank you, Thank you, Mickey.

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I've always been, you know, a plus sized girl, and

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I just want to cover myself. I just want I

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would wear the long sweaters and the long skirts, and

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that was an era.

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I would do the maxi look.

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I would never do the really the mini look above

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my knee because I just didn't celebrate.

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Myself like that. I just wanted to make sure I

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was covered.

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So the only thing you really could see is, of

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course my our garments and my accessories.

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But my eyeglass.

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Frames were very important to me because I would I

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have no idea, no no desire to have contact lenses,

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so my glasses had to match nearly everything I wear.

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So when I go when my optometrists, she has what

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they call this trunk show and all the design about

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three or four designers.

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Uh uh uh uh com forward uh d y n k.

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Uh not less Clayborn, but there's a few more and

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uh what's the person the guys at Italy Uh oh

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god dnng uh yes, yes, yes, they have their reps

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that come. So I walk in the second time I

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did it the first time. I attended it the first

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time years ago before the world shut down.

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Nothing wrong with plus side if you look amazing, oh

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and see thank you, I love you, thank you. But

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you know, I mean I want you all to hear that.

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You know, you know it's everybody has an issue and

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it's going to tie into tonight's check. You know about happiness,

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you know, the day of happiness really, because I suffered

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that in silence, and thank god I wasn't bullied about

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my size. And I think I don't know if folks

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were just afraid of me, but because I have I

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had a mouth on me too. I didn't use profanity,

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but I will come for you and make I can

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make you cry, you know, so leave me alone. I

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don't bother anybody, but you know, trail showing them my

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brooches and stuff because the broachers are back in style,

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and Queen Elizabeth actually and Madelon alright and a.

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Few other people have brought that back, so broaches up it.

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And I was just getting rid of some things.

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I had a whole bag of clothes, twenty three blouses,

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twenty three.

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I had Donald to help them for me. And I

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have a bag of jewelry. I have a bag of jewely.

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One thing I haven't gotten rid.

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Of yet, are my rings because they're so unique and

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everything I haven't gotten rid of, I haven't been able

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to do that.

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I don't know. If I could try them.

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On and see if one of these will hold up

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long enough, I don't know, because I have large rings,

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oversized huh.

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If not, you might be able to find a way

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to use your rings and another piece of jewelry, make

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it into a brooch or make it into an ear

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ring or bracelet.

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Yeah, okay, and I got the drooler from for that,

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So I'm gonna I'm gonna, you know, when I'm ready

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to make that that that leap, you know, because getting

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rid of my clothes, the only thing I had to

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comfort me was Amazon and to be able to order

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because I didn't want to go out of my house

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when I first came home, and then especially after I

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was ampu teated, I didn't want to go out. I

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didn't want nobody to see me except those that you

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know't really care, my inner circle. But now I'm just

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so happy. I'm happy today anyway. But when I just

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read this, you know, I was doing the forum for

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the show and I saw what brooches are back, and.

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You know, I was like, oh my God, so I

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had to run and go get mine and show you

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all those.

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But you know, happiness, everybody has to define happiness for themselves.

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What's happy for me is not happy for my daughter.

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It's not happy for my sons, it's not happy for

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people in my age group.

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Everybody.

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That's a whole different level, and it's isolated, it's customized

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to you. You know, I loved being married. I didn't

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like being a girlfriend. I would tell, you know, my suitors, no,

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I'm not somebody's girlfriend.

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I'm somebody's wife.

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And even though the first decision, you know, but I

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got my son out of that, you know, and you know,

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and then the twins came along at God's expense.

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But you know, I love marriage. I love my wedding ring.

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I love what that symbolized, and I love the sanctity

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of marriage.

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I loved that.

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I love being Missus Knights, and I loved being even

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Missus Lewis.

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I love that.

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Uh, And especially if you were raised and your parents

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had a good marriage. My parents were married for like

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almost over fifty some years, and you know, and stuff

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like that when you and then I watch, you know,

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older couples, and I watch couples who are really in love,

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they're not that lustful love that they are really they

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gently grab each other's hand, or you know, the other

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one would clean off the table at the restaurant and

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and just to look at each other. And it's just

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I could just sit there and stare at people for days.

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But what makes me happy? You know, it's a different thing.

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And that changes over the years too. Okay, that changes

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as you grow younger and you experience different things in life.

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It changes what makes you happy?

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What is it?

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That's why you have goals. That's why you should have

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a vision board. Everybody may and men and women should

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have a vision board.

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Kids should.

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If they can write and they can dream, they can

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write down their dreams. You need to have a vision

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board because I don't know how you're being led. I

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don't know what your roadmap is. And even though I

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totally one thousand percent lean and depend on God, he

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still told me write down your goals and check it

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for me. I check it every thirty days, and I

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check off things overflow, wisdom, you know, those are the

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things my favorite scriptures. Now my prayer points are on

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this year's vision board. But you have to decide, and

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another thing too, and then everybody, y'all come on in

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here a good yell or unmuted could another person cannot

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be the end all of your happiness. Yes, those of

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us who have children, we want them to succeed. And

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I'm just speaking for myself. How many times I recently

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have told all three of them, I said, you know,

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the world's gonna settle, and you all gonna have to

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be ready to go.

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You're going to go. This is my dream house.

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This is part of my dream and I know people

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have they not say it outwardly for fear of my

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wrath or something. I don't know what it is, but

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I know people are looking at me like you got

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adult children still living at home? Yeah, because I don't

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have a revolving door. I don't have a revolving door.

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Once they pack up and go, they have to stay gone.

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That's it.

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Leave my key behind. And if I need you, I

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know how to find y'all. Well, we'll you know, but

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I'll be okay. If I have to pay people to

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come in and help, I'll be okay. But you have

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to go and live this thing. You have to go,

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and you have to go. I love whit kids.

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I'm happy. We laugh.

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We're the most laughing family you'll ever meet because we

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just be I mean, gut laughing, you know, over just

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the littlest thing, over memories and things like that. But

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you know, at the end of the hour, my kids

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are not my end all to happiness. My husbands did

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not end up being my end all for happiness. I

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had to find my happiness things that I do that

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makes me happy and believe.

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It or not.

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Being able to know that broachers are back in style

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and they're going full force.

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I am so happy.

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So I can hardly wait to see what Mother's Day

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gifts and Birthday and Christmas gifts.

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So just get me a gift card. Let me go

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get my own. I'll be okay. But you know what,

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y'all come on in here, because our time is going

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by so fast. What are y'all thinking about? You know, happiness?

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And and again tonight's show, it's called happiness. A day

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of happiness really, especially the era, the Asian and era

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we are in right now.

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Go ahead, Trey, you were just I could just see

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ready to say something. Go ahead, Well, I.

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Think I wanted to piggyback on this when you said,

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vision born and when children can write, but maybe even

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a little earlier than that. If there's like pictures, you

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know that the thing is that they want or to

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aspire to be, they can use like a picture vision

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board without the words and then lack of the parents

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can kind of help navigate that, you know, kind of

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keep them on track. So in order for you to

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get there here, like if you want to aspire to be,

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say a doctor, what do you need to do?

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You need to work on your behavior.

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You need to study practice studying in school.

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You know, because to be a doctor you have to

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be knowledgeable. So it could be just like a start there.

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The other thing I want to say what happened is

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I think it doesn't take a whole.

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Lot to make me happy. I enjoy.

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I limit who is around me that's negative. I can't

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do the negative energy. That mean I can't do that

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too well.

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I love going to scenic places of water. Look at that.

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I mean, it's nothing like it I tell you that

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makes me happy. You know, maybe catch a nap or

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eat some lunch.

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Out there and just kind of be still, you know,

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and with nothing.

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And like I tell people, it's like you can hear

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to win. I know you feel it, but when you're

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sellent enough.

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You can hear.

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It's something about it. I can't explain it, but it's

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just so serene. That makes me happy.

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You know.

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When I see the people.

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Around me that I really love and care about, when

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they're happy, that makes me happy.

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So you know, there are things that I aspire to have.

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You know, it's not like I don't inspire to have

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the biggest house, but I would like my house to

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have a place where I can entertain if need be.

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A bedroom is nice that I can just enjoy that

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if I stay there. A big arts and crafts room

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where I can just go in there with all my

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arts and crafts.

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Different tables so if I want to pay, ain't the

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day or you know, color tomorrow.

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Each table has something different.

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You know.

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I just want their creativity, you know.

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And I notice lately just being more in tune than myself.

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I said, okay, juices are coming back, They're flowing better.

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You know, I'm becoming more of me.

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And you know, Lisha and I think pastor you know,

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the things that I talk to you about, and it's

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just it's just I think the joy of it.

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That's another thing.

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The joy, not only happiness, but joy. And to know

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that I have people that care so much about me.

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The fact that I'm employed, the fact that I can

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use my talents to help others, use my knowledge to

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help others. You know, people who are caregivers, you know,

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just give them some insight, encouragement, motivation, help, you know.

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Those are the things that make me happy and joys.

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Being able to do what I think some of the

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things God has purposed me to do. And I'm just

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excited to see what it's going to have me do

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that I really am.

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So that ain't matched my speed.

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I just wanted to come in on a couple of

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things you said, and Pastor, you get ready to go now.

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I when I was separated from my last husband, I

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and we didn't go to the movies that uh that much.

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But I one day I just had dropped the twins

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off the school. Donald was at college, and I said,

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I want to go to the movies. And there's certain

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movies you have to see at the theater. There's just

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certain movies of sixty inch TV. Fifty in TV is

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not going to do it. You need to go to

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that whole have that whole sharround sound, and I'm like,

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and I didn't think about God, I'm going by myself,

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and it was that was it was a big thing

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for me. But the moment I jumped out of the cars,

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I'm going to see this movie because it's more important

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than what I'm feeling, because I wanted and I could go,

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and I grab my popcorn and I got my icy

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and I went up up the rolls and stuff.

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So here it is years later. You know, I can't

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unless the kids go with me, and one of the

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kids go with me.

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Don't go past level C. And sitting in the handicap

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spot is just as nice. It's nice and nobody around

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you and stuff. And as long as I I got

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my cup holder, I'm gonna shure you this. You see

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me when I'm drinking it, but you see my cup

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over there, That's how I go.

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I've got a huge Mello Luca bag. I put my

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popcorn in.

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That and then I take my you know, my my

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icy drink and get it together and I have to

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all cried. I just ordered some brand new handles for

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my cups and because they got some nice colors out now.

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So that's that big thing for me.

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And I get excited because I was like, oh, oh

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w I'm telling myself, dond look they got this guff

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they got it. And I know my son's like, oh wow, handles.

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Cup handles excite my mom. But yeah, because I'm like

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and then somebody said, oh my god, I picked up

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my cup and the lady waitress said, oh my god,

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I've never seen it.

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Shoes.

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I need to get one of those for my dad.

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I said, Amazon is your best friend. Amazon just put

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twenty ounce of Tumblr handles.

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You'll find it. They got double ones too, so you know.

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And it's just if people see me, you know, maneuvering

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and stuff like this.

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So little things make me happy. I could go to

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the movies now by myself. I enjoy going by myself.

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The kids get mad at me because you had to

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tell you we're going to the movies. I said, yeah,

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I think you'd like the movie.

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You know, I know they would be like, you know,

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I wanted to be by myself. I want to be

478
00:24:21.440 --> 00:24:26.720
by myself, So that makes me happy, pastor take it away.

479
00:24:26.920 --> 00:24:27.279
I love.

480
00:24:27.680 --> 00:24:31.319
What makes me happy is cooking for my kids. Oh

481
00:24:33.200 --> 00:24:35.720
I can't tell you that. One of one of the

482
00:24:36.319 --> 00:24:44.880
greatest joys that I experience is on Christmas Day, making pancakes, waffles,

483
00:24:45.480 --> 00:24:52.759
making chicken and waffles, just a full blown out breakfast

484
00:24:52.880 --> 00:24:56.400
for my kids. I could care less about opening presents.

485
00:24:56.519 --> 00:24:59.720
All I just want to do is feed my kids.

486
00:25:00.119 --> 00:25:01.000
Oh wow.

487
00:25:01.599 --> 00:25:05.160
And that's just it just gives me such an amazing

488
00:25:05.359 --> 00:25:12.319
joy because I have Before I met Gina, I I

489
00:25:12.400 --> 00:25:17.440
just had two boys. Yeah. Uh, when I met Gina,

490
00:25:18.119 --> 00:25:20.519
we had two girls. So now I had two boys,

491
00:25:20.519 --> 00:25:25.200
two girls. So before I knew it, I had two boys,

492
00:25:25.240 --> 00:25:32.079
two girls, four grandkids. They were just like multiplying like bacteria.

493
00:25:32.839 --> 00:25:38.960
But you know, but it's it's it's absolutely an absolute

494
00:25:39.200 --> 00:25:45.319
joy to just watching them laugh, interact with one another.

495
00:25:46.039 --> 00:25:51.039
Then I'm just stuffing food down their throat because I

496
00:25:50.640 --> 00:25:54.000
I it's just something that that I just want them

497
00:25:54.079 --> 00:25:56.559
to be happy and it's and it just because it

498
00:25:56.559 --> 00:26:01.039
gives me the joy I do that. Then another and

499
00:26:01.079 --> 00:26:04.799
I'm gonna use the word that Trey used when to

500
00:26:04.920 --> 00:26:08.039
use the word serene. One of the things that that

501
00:26:08.200 --> 00:26:12.279
Gene and I enjoy doing is we like to go

502
00:26:12.319 --> 00:26:16.759
on cruises. Now why cruises, Well, when you're when you're

503
00:26:16.880 --> 00:26:20.880
seeing the open ocean, when you get to see the

504
00:26:21.000 --> 00:26:26.559
different colors of blues, and you do see wildlife from

505
00:26:26.559 --> 00:26:29.240
the ocean, you know, popping up. We got to see

506
00:26:30.599 --> 00:26:34.440
I heard a dolphins race against the ship. That's a

507
00:26:34.480 --> 00:26:38.519
pretty cool thing. And when we went to Alaska, we

508
00:26:38.559 --> 00:26:42.000
saw whales coming out of breaching, which is pretty pretty

509
00:26:42.000 --> 00:26:45.759
cool as well. And you really get to see God's work.

510
00:26:46.039 --> 00:26:49.839
And that's when you really have to say that wow,

511
00:26:50.599 --> 00:26:52.960
that's the only word that really can come out when

512
00:26:53.000 --> 00:26:56.000
you also are on the ship and you're seeing the

513
00:26:56.079 --> 00:26:58.119
sun set as he says.

514
00:26:57.880 --> 00:27:04.599
Its okay, okay, you enjoy creating.

515
00:27:06.000 --> 00:27:10.240
So those are those are just moments that that you

516
00:27:10.359 --> 00:27:14.400
really get to see God's work in it. And to me,

517
00:27:14.640 --> 00:27:17.920
that's what it's all about. It reveals that God is

518
00:27:17.960 --> 00:27:23.720
alive and and God is revealing his beauty in his creation.

519
00:27:24.440 --> 00:27:27.319
And and you know, we're we're going to be going

520
00:27:27.359 --> 00:27:31.119
to Europe in May and we're going to be doing uh,

521
00:27:31.160 --> 00:27:33.279
We're going to see Spain for the first time.

522
00:27:35.640 --> 00:27:40.839
We're going to have paea, which is a Spanish dish

523
00:27:41.039 --> 00:27:44.160
with rice and seafood and all that, and and we

524
00:27:44.240 --> 00:27:46.039
get to enjoy the.

525
00:27:45.960 --> 00:27:52.079
Beauties of other people creating, other people creating the meal

526
00:27:52.400 --> 00:27:55.880
and and you get to enjoy the different cultures and

527
00:27:55.880 --> 00:27:57.920
and this is where we have to kind of step

528
00:27:58.000 --> 00:28:03.079
back and just absorb it because this way you're participating

529
00:28:03.119 --> 00:28:07.839
in it, you are witnessing it, and you get to

530
00:28:07.960 --> 00:28:13.440
really see different cultures that are outside of our culture

531
00:28:13.480 --> 00:28:16.519
here in the United States. So I mean, I can

532
00:28:16.599 --> 00:28:19.200
go on and on, because there's just many different things

533
00:28:19.240 --> 00:28:25.119
that really make me feel joyful. And that's what that's

534
00:28:25.240 --> 00:28:29.480
just part of it. But mostly when you lately, I've

535
00:28:29.480 --> 00:28:33.039
been studying the Word, and as I'm studying the Word,

536
00:28:33.759 --> 00:28:37.920
my wife said something, and to this day I'm starting

537
00:28:37.960 --> 00:28:41.319
to see what she's saying. And what she said is

538
00:28:41.359 --> 00:28:44.559
that the more she reads the Word, the more that

539
00:28:44.599 --> 00:28:50.599
she studies the Word, the more in love the falls

540
00:28:50.920 --> 00:28:54.480
for God. And then I when she said that, I'm like,

541
00:28:54.720 --> 00:28:58.920
completely understand what you mean because I can't get enough.

542
00:29:01.000 --> 00:29:04.480
And the more I learn of Him, the more I'm

543
00:29:04.559 --> 00:29:07.279
just like, I don't care what's happening in the world.

544
00:29:07.880 --> 00:29:12.720
I feel joyful being in the presence of Christ, being

545
00:29:12.759 --> 00:29:15.160
in the presence of my Maker, being in the presence

546
00:29:15.559 --> 00:29:19.119
of learning Him. And that's why I can understand why Moses.

547
00:29:19.319 --> 00:29:22.960
Oh wow, Anastasia, I hear you, We hear you. We've

548
00:29:23.000 --> 00:29:26.079
been there too. Circle around.

549
00:29:26.680 --> 00:29:29.720
Yeah, there's a lot of different things. It's a hope

550
00:29:29.759 --> 00:29:34.359
for me. So you really really can't pinpoint one particular thing.

551
00:29:34.799 --> 00:29:38.079
So you know that's those are some of the things

552
00:29:38.079 --> 00:29:42.440
that that really make me joyful. And and that to

553
00:29:42.559 --> 00:29:46.920
me is what what's so important in our walk what

554
00:29:47.079 --> 00:29:51.599
brings us joy and surrounding with people that that that

555
00:29:51.759 --> 00:29:57.400
love us, that that not always agree with us, but

556
00:29:58.160 --> 00:30:02.519
the ability to have a conversation that becomes a joy

557
00:30:02.640 --> 00:30:05.680
being around them because this is what you know. They're

558
00:30:05.759 --> 00:30:09.720
not putting on a different mask. You know them are

559
00:30:10.359 --> 00:30:14.000
that I mean is a great opportunity to grow and

560
00:30:14.240 --> 00:30:16.039
know the people that you're.

561
00:30:15.880 --> 00:30:18.599
Around and stays. Here's your homework.

562
00:30:19.000 --> 00:30:21.599
I want you, between now and next week, write down

563
00:30:22.079 --> 00:30:25.599
five things when you think of happy and joy for

564
00:30:25.680 --> 00:30:29.680
you personally, even if it's birds chirping, even if it's

565
00:30:29.720 --> 00:30:32.200
the rooster in the backyard that you can never see.

566
00:30:32.359 --> 00:30:34.240
Whatever it is I want you to write down, don't

567
00:30:34.240 --> 00:30:35.359
think much about it.

568
00:30:35.480 --> 00:30:36.759
I just want you to have a piece of paper

569
00:30:36.759 --> 00:30:38.599
and have a journal in front of you and write

570
00:30:38.640 --> 00:30:42.480
down number one, this, number two, this, It doesn't matter

571
00:30:42.599 --> 00:30:45.599
what anybody thinks. I want you to say what makes

572
00:30:45.640 --> 00:30:48.759
me happy? And you're smiling automatically.

573
00:30:48.200 --> 00:30:50.359
When you're thinking about it. I want you to write.

574
00:30:50.200 --> 00:30:51.640
Down those five things, and then I want you to

575
00:30:51.640 --> 00:30:55.200
close the journal and then present it next Monday. Don't look,

576
00:30:55.319 --> 00:30:58.079
don't open it up until next Monday, and you'll be

577
00:30:58.119 --> 00:30:58.920
sharing it with us.

578
00:30:58.960 --> 00:30:59.319
Okay.

579
00:30:59.839 --> 00:31:02.720
If you need a little help in a stasia, you

580
00:31:02.799 --> 00:31:05.200
need a little help relations five twenty two.

581
00:31:05.920 --> 00:31:09.160
She's not answering and a stage where yet? Way yet?

582
00:31:09.519 --> 00:31:13.359
Come on, that's the challenge. We can see you or not.

583
00:31:13.839 --> 00:31:15.759
Thank you. I think I could do that. Thank you, madam.

584
00:31:16.160 --> 00:31:20.799
Thanks all right, Yes, that's all you have to do.

585
00:31:20.839 --> 00:31:22.200
But I can't look at it anymore.

586
00:31:22.559 --> 00:31:26.960
But I think I think people sometimes when you think

587
00:31:27.000 --> 00:31:32.079
of happy, it's almost like a reference to something like

588
00:31:32.119 --> 00:31:33.680
you ever had one to say, Oh, you got to

589
00:31:33.720 --> 00:31:34.720
try this restaurant.

590
00:31:35.000 --> 00:31:37.799
This restaurant is over the tide. You you got to

591
00:31:37.880 --> 00:31:38.319
go there.

592
00:31:38.359 --> 00:31:40.799
When you get there and you try, so what kind

593
00:31:40.799 --> 00:31:42.599
of thing that makes you happy?

594
00:31:42.920 --> 00:31:45.640
You're gonna ask your excuse me, just you're gonna ask

595
00:31:45.680 --> 00:31:47.680
your something in the stage, and you have to do

596
00:31:47.720 --> 00:31:48.480
it real fast.

597
00:31:48.680 --> 00:31:49.880
What makes me happy?

598
00:31:49.920 --> 00:31:50.079
Oh?

599
00:31:50.200 --> 00:31:52.960
I love dogs. I like dogs. I like being around dogs. Okay,

600
00:31:52.960 --> 00:31:56.880
that's number one. That's all about dogs. Okay. What makes

601
00:31:56.880 --> 00:31:58.480
me happy? Wow?

602
00:31:58.960 --> 00:32:00.680
Just five things, and then I need you to close

603
00:32:00.720 --> 00:32:04.480
that that cover, put it away somewhere and we'll pick

604
00:32:04.519 --> 00:32:06.720
it back up on Monday and we'll take it from there.

605
00:32:07.440 --> 00:32:09.240
That's all I need you to do. Just think about

606
00:32:09.759 --> 00:32:13.720
you ask yourself what makes me happy, not who, not

607
00:32:13.920 --> 00:32:16.200
how much, but what.

608
00:32:16.079 --> 00:32:18.440
Makes me happy? Land on it and just write it

609
00:32:18.480 --> 00:32:20.039
down real quick. Don't think about it long.

610
00:32:20.079 --> 00:32:22.000
I don't want you to do because then you'll talk

611
00:32:22.079 --> 00:32:22.920
yourself out of it.

612
00:32:23.119 --> 00:32:26.000
Don't think about just boomoom boom and past. I want

613
00:32:26.039 --> 00:32:28.240
to pick itback on what you said. Just being with

614
00:32:28.359 --> 00:32:31.920
the Lord today, I have been asking a question and

615
00:32:32.000 --> 00:32:34.759
I could not get anybody. God told me three people

616
00:32:34.799 --> 00:32:38.319
I could call. None of them were available. None of

617
00:32:38.359 --> 00:32:42.119
them were available, and I'm like, wow, I didn't even

618
00:32:42.119 --> 00:32:45.000
bother to call me back, didn't even bother the call.

619
00:32:45.119 --> 00:32:49.839
They don't even know what Field did do at that point.

620
00:32:50.119 --> 00:32:52.480
Okay, okay, I we'll get it done. Thank you, thank you,

621
00:32:52.519 --> 00:32:54.839
baby girl. Just do it, Just do it and don't

622
00:32:54.880 --> 00:32:58.039
think nothing about it. Just just in those moments jot

623
00:32:58.079 --> 00:33:00.599
them down, close up the book, and we'll talk about

624
00:33:00.640 --> 00:33:05.559
it Monday. And I was like, Lord, and here all

625
00:33:05.599 --> 00:33:08.960
this weekend, I'm like, I'm trying to get this answer

626
00:33:09.000 --> 00:33:12.720
because all the scriptures and everything lined up scripturally, but

627
00:33:12.799 --> 00:33:14.640
I didn't know what I'm supposed to do with it.

628
00:33:14.880 --> 00:33:16.200
I didn't know what I was supposed to do with it.

629
00:33:16.480 --> 00:33:18.319
So I'm like, Okay, I see it.

630
00:33:18.799 --> 00:33:20.240
I got it. Revelation, I got it.

631
00:33:20.279 --> 00:33:24.519
I see it, Ezekiel, I see it. And today a

632
00:33:24.559 --> 00:33:27.799
prophet a prophet. It is a lady who prophesizes pop

633
00:33:27.880 --> 00:33:30.480
I've never heard of her. Pops up in my YouTube

634
00:33:31.000 --> 00:33:33.400
and she I got a word for you, and I'm like,

635
00:33:33.839 --> 00:33:37.640
o me and boom. I sent it to my co

636
00:33:37.759 --> 00:33:40.440
host there Boom. I'm like, all I could do is

637
00:33:40.480 --> 00:33:43.160
just I say God, and I teared up. I really did,

638
00:33:43.680 --> 00:33:46.880
thank you, thank you. I knew it was something I

639
00:33:46.920 --> 00:33:49.079
could not put my finger on it. I'm not gonna

640
00:33:49.119 --> 00:33:52.079
go ahead of you. And a little commercial here. Another

641
00:33:52.160 --> 00:33:54.960
fellow popped up in my thing. And let me tell

642
00:33:54.960 --> 00:33:58.960
you and somebody y'all may disagree, and that's okay.

643
00:33:59.039 --> 00:34:01.640
You still love being wing. You all keep.

644
00:34:01.480 --> 00:34:05.519
Talking about this Zi stuff and and all of a

645
00:34:05.559 --> 00:34:09.519
sudden what those definitions were. Because before there were three

646
00:34:09.559 --> 00:34:12.199
separate words that I knew, I never put them together.

647
00:34:12.559 --> 00:34:14.519
And all of a sudden, now because of all the

648
00:34:14.599 --> 00:34:17.079
you know that what's being taken away, what's being closed out,

649
00:34:17.119 --> 00:34:19.719
people getting fired, all this stuff, then you got something

650
00:34:19.760 --> 00:34:22.239
to say. You're not trying to encourage the people at all.

651
00:34:22.480 --> 00:34:25.280
You just trying to put fear and hatred out there.

652
00:34:25.440 --> 00:34:28.280
And let me tell you guess what Section eight was

653
00:34:28.320 --> 00:34:33.719
not touched. Social Security, medicaid, medicare off the table because

654
00:34:33.760 --> 00:34:36.719
people like us, we're praying behind the scenes. We're not

655
00:34:36.840 --> 00:34:39.159
trying to incite anger and.

656
00:34:39.159 --> 00:34:42.199
Riots and fear. We know what to do. We go

657
00:34:42.360 --> 00:34:43.280
straight to got God.

658
00:34:43.920 --> 00:34:47.480
Yeah I'm not on fool stamps, but you know I

659
00:34:47.840 --> 00:34:51.280
appreciate you know. I don't want to pray property property taxes.

660
00:34:51.320 --> 00:34:52.239
I'll do inflation.

661
00:34:52.840 --> 00:34:55.119
I take it to my daddy, take it to the

662
00:34:55.199 --> 00:34:56.159
Lord and prayer.

663
00:34:56.400 --> 00:34:59.360
So I put something on Facebook and I said it

664
00:34:59.400 --> 00:35:02.239
you you all trying to incite people and make people

665
00:35:02.280 --> 00:35:04.079
want to write, and you're making people want to kill

666
00:35:04.119 --> 00:35:09.320
themselves because of your little commentary on you know what

667
00:35:09.440 --> 00:35:11.840
you think is all? This is what this is what

668
00:35:11.880 --> 00:35:13.760
they're gonna do this. No, and guess what.

669
00:35:14.320 --> 00:35:16.440
They tabled social Security.

670
00:35:16.159 --> 00:35:19.800
Medicare, and Medicaid cuts last night at seven, wiped it

671
00:35:19.840 --> 00:35:21.519
off the off the books.

672
00:35:21.760 --> 00:35:23.360
They ain't talking about it anymore.

673
00:35:23.679 --> 00:35:26.440
They're not gonna do it. That's the power of prayer.

674
00:35:26.800 --> 00:35:28.760
And I know some may be saying that, well, that's

675
00:35:28.840 --> 00:35:30.840
just for now. Yeah, you're right, it's just for that.

676
00:35:31.119 --> 00:35:33.320
And guess what it gives us a little bit more time.

677
00:35:33.639 --> 00:35:36.360
We've been warning you to save your money. We've been

678
00:35:36.400 --> 00:35:39.360
warning you to get yourself off these welfare roles.

679
00:35:39.400 --> 00:35:41.800
If you can, We're warning you go get you two

680
00:35:41.800 --> 00:35:44.079
and three jobs. It's gonna be all right. But you

681
00:35:44.239 --> 00:35:47.039
spent your money on the lottery, you went to the casino.

682
00:35:47.480 --> 00:35:48.920
You do this, You get.

683
00:35:48.800 --> 00:35:52.440
Your little advices on the side that you think nobody

684
00:35:52.480 --> 00:35:53.280
knows what you're doing.

685
00:35:53.599 --> 00:35:57.199
Come on, not cut it out, cut it out. I'm

686
00:35:57.239 --> 00:35:58.039
done with y'all.

687
00:35:58.360 --> 00:36:00.119
And I'm talking to some people who've been in my

688
00:36:00.119 --> 00:36:03.320
life for a minute, but I've lost all respect for you.

689
00:36:03.719 --> 00:36:05.280
What you're doing. Pray.

690
00:36:05.559 --> 00:36:08.400
You say you're a Christian, pray, let me see your

691
00:36:08.400 --> 00:36:10.599
prayer points, let me see you walk it out in prayer,

692
00:36:10.639 --> 00:36:12.800
because you know what, when you have that lifestyle of praying,

693
00:36:13.000 --> 00:36:15.719
when you have that lifestyle of studying God's word, reading

694
00:36:15.760 --> 00:36:17.400
God's word, if you want to put it that way

695
00:36:17.599 --> 00:36:18.320
and you pray.

696
00:36:18.320 --> 00:36:21.719
You don't look the same, you don't sound the same.

697
00:36:22.280 --> 00:36:26.760
You have to change, you want to change. Come on, now, that's.

698
00:36:26.599 --> 00:36:29.239
My host and my engineer didn't know I was gonna

699
00:36:29.360 --> 00:36:31.400
come at that, but I have to put that out there.

700
00:36:31.840 --> 00:36:35.119
You better stop it. You better stop it because all.

701
00:36:34.960 --> 00:36:38.000
You're doing is you bringing you bringing rockish and rough

702
00:36:38.119 --> 00:36:38.639
and stuff.

703
00:36:38.920 --> 00:36:40.559
No blessings in your household.

704
00:36:41.079 --> 00:36:45.159
God don't bless mess, He don't bless gossipers. He don't

705
00:36:45.199 --> 00:36:50.360
bless insiders. He don't not my God, my Lord and Savior,

706
00:36:50.599 --> 00:36:52.639
my Jesus, my Holy Spirit.

707
00:36:53.119 --> 00:36:55.840
So cut it out. You have nothing positives to do.

708
00:36:55.880 --> 00:36:57.559
What your mothers used to tell us. If you don't

709
00:36:57.599 --> 00:36:59.239
have nothing positive, state, hush up.

710
00:36:59.280 --> 00:37:02.559
Don't you say a word. We don't need the negativity

711
00:37:02.559 --> 00:37:04.519
out here right now. We watch it too.

712
00:37:05.000 --> 00:37:08.559
Trust me. I don't trust nobody. Let me make that clear.

713
00:37:08.719 --> 00:37:12.480
I trust no man, woman, boy, or girl or a dog.

714
00:37:12.880 --> 00:37:15.480
Cause my dog will leave you right now when she's

715
00:37:15.559 --> 00:37:19.719
fed up, She threw she walk around. Look back at you.

716
00:37:19.840 --> 00:37:23.760
Let not today. I trust nobody.

717
00:37:24.239 --> 00:37:26.800
I only trust God because he had I've tried him,

718
00:37:26.920 --> 00:37:28.440
and I see what he's done for me.

719
00:37:28.880 --> 00:37:31.280
And I'm not sorry. I what to say. And guess what,

720
00:37:31.360 --> 00:37:34.360
We're still on the air for another whole year. So

721
00:37:34.480 --> 00:37:37.760
let's go snap and biting. Keep your pin. If it's

722
00:37:37.800 --> 00:37:40.159
not gonna edify somebody, if it's not gonna.

723
00:37:39.840 --> 00:37:43.800
Motivate somebody, if it's not gonna influence positively, somebody's.

724
00:37:43.440 --> 00:37:45.840
Like, keep it to yourself, keep you g yourself.

725
00:37:45.880 --> 00:37:47.840
We don't need that right now. The world's already got

726
00:37:47.880 --> 00:37:50.519
us a little up uptight. We got y'all uptight, and

727
00:37:50.840 --> 00:37:53.320
I'm just watching because I stay in my house. I

728
00:37:53.320 --> 00:37:55.559
ain't got to go nowhere. Thank you, missy.

729
00:37:56.079 --> 00:37:57.880
I ain't got to go nowhere. I can stay in

730
00:37:57.920 --> 00:37:58.360
my house.

731
00:37:58.800 --> 00:38:00.559
I'll go out if I want you to go see

732
00:38:00.599 --> 00:38:02.719
my movies about what to co, what I.

733
00:38:02.760 --> 00:38:05.440
Need to do. We've got lives out there that need

734
00:38:05.480 --> 00:38:09.360
to be saved and set free. We've got people just

735
00:38:09.480 --> 00:38:11.719
wondering what to do next.

736
00:38:11.840 --> 00:38:14.960
We got people cooking their last meal right now as

737
00:38:15.119 --> 00:38:15.880
I speak.

738
00:38:16.119 --> 00:38:18.400
They can't even depend on nobody.

739
00:38:17.960 --> 00:38:20.760
That they know because they listen to your conversation and

740
00:38:20.800 --> 00:38:23.760
your gussip, and you look it down on people, scaring

741
00:38:23.840 --> 00:38:26.000
him half the jesty all could take it from me.

742
00:38:26.079 --> 00:38:27.159
We only got a few more minutes.

743
00:38:27.400 --> 00:38:29.639
Well, I was just gonna say real quickly that in

744
00:38:29.760 --> 00:38:37.039
Galatians five nineteen nineteen through twenty one, what you just

745
00:38:37.159 --> 00:38:41.400
touched on, miss Gray is bought on when you follow

746
00:38:41.440 --> 00:38:47.599
the desires of your sinful nature, your sinful nature. That

747
00:38:48.000 --> 00:38:52.480
we're sinners, right, So Paul just puts out that the

748
00:38:52.599 --> 00:38:56.440
results are very clear. So he already is letting us

749
00:38:56.519 --> 00:38:59.239
know that because of our sinful nature, the results are

750
00:38:59.360 --> 00:39:11.159
very clear. What are those desires? Sexual immorality, impurity, lustful pleasures, idolatry, sorcery, hostility, quarreling, jealousy,

751
00:39:11.400 --> 00:39:18.000
outbursts of anger, selfish ambition, uh dissension, division, envy, drunkenness,

752
00:39:18.000 --> 00:39:21.559
wild parties, and other sins like these. Let me tell

753
00:39:21.599 --> 00:39:24.800
you again as I have before, that anyone living that

754
00:39:25.000 --> 00:39:29.239
sort of life will not inherit the Kingdom of God.

755
00:39:29.639 --> 00:39:32.840
There you go, now, the Bible, the Bible is telling

756
00:39:32.920 --> 00:39:36.320
us very clearly, whether you want to accept it or not,

757
00:39:36.960 --> 00:39:38.159
this is what's going to happen.

758
00:39:38.559 --> 00:39:41.079
This is an exciting time in the spirit. I'm guilty

759
00:39:41.079 --> 00:39:44.239
of something. Do with some of those things. Okay, in Stasia,

760
00:39:44.440 --> 00:39:46.000
all you have to do when you get sick and

761
00:39:46.000 --> 00:39:48.079
tired of it. Will you get sick and tired of it.

762
00:39:48.119 --> 00:39:49.800
That's the only time we can do this. Will you

763
00:39:49.840 --> 00:39:52.000
get sick of do? Will you, at a desperate point in.

764
00:39:51.960 --> 00:39:54.480
Your life, fall down on your knees and repent first,

765
00:39:54.960 --> 00:39:58.760
just say I'm sorry, and then try to live your life, try.

766
00:39:58.559 --> 00:40:01.440
Not try not to do it again. The Lord's person,

767
00:40:01.840 --> 00:40:04.880
don't you know? Uh, God, I follow your time. I

768
00:40:05.000 --> 00:40:05.920
think I ain't anyone.

769
00:40:06.360 --> 00:40:10.159
I don't know if that's deliberat lead us not into temptation,

770
00:40:10.760 --> 00:40:13.719
it says, lead us not into temptation, but.

771
00:40:13.719 --> 00:40:17.679
Deliver us from evil. Stay right there. That's your platform,

772
00:40:18.000 --> 00:40:20.800
and that's your platform right now. Deliver me from evil.

773
00:40:20.840 --> 00:40:23.960
Don't tempt me, don't allow the temptation to come.

774
00:40:24.400 --> 00:40:27.440
You leave money out, and you really think that somebody's

775
00:40:27.519 --> 00:40:29.679
on hard times. You know, you got a co worker

776
00:40:29.719 --> 00:40:32.559
that's on hard times, and everything else is having a

777
00:40:32.639 --> 00:40:34.280
drink here or they're too bad. No, as long as

778
00:40:34.320 --> 00:40:37.840
they don't glury your faculties. If you get so wasted,

779
00:40:37.920 --> 00:40:39.760
you don't even know where you at and you drive it.

780
00:40:39.800 --> 00:40:41.679
You walking in the middle of the street to get it.

781
00:40:42.039 --> 00:40:44.920
Don't just don't be giving to into wine. Don't let

782
00:40:44.920 --> 00:40:48.000
it control you. And that's for anything, whether you smoke cigarettes,

783
00:40:48.480 --> 00:40:51.079
whether you drink sweet tea where you used to.

784
00:40:51.000 --> 00:40:52.639
Be hooked one French fries.

785
00:40:53.360 --> 00:40:59.840
Come on now about ice cream?

786
00:41:00.079 --> 00:41:05.039
Oh my god, okay, we're very good.

787
00:41:05.440 --> 00:41:09.519
I don't for me, Anastasia, this is just me. I

788
00:41:09.559 --> 00:41:12.239
don't like anything that will can take that can take

789
00:41:12.360 --> 00:41:14.440
control over my mind.

790
00:41:14.679 --> 00:41:16.079
I don't like that.

791
00:41:16.480 --> 00:41:19.159
If you be a man, it can be a child,

792
00:41:19.639 --> 00:41:23.599
it could be sisu, an associate, a coworker, a boss.

793
00:41:24.239 --> 00:41:27.480
You don't you can't run me, and don't try to

794
00:41:27.559 --> 00:41:28.079
overdo it.

795
00:41:28.119 --> 00:41:29.599
I told you by that. That time I was at

796
00:41:29.599 --> 00:41:29.920
the why.

797
00:41:29.920 --> 00:41:34.159
Take a Weightlift weight loss weightlifting for as a as

798
00:41:34.159 --> 00:41:35.719
an extra class, and.

799
00:41:36.280 --> 00:41:37.960
I went to the wire across the street.

800
00:41:37.679 --> 00:41:40.559
From school, and uh, they were having a yoga session

801
00:41:40.599 --> 00:41:42.320
and the teacher came over to me and instruct her.

802
00:41:42.360 --> 00:41:44.400
She said, hey, come joining yoga. I said, oh, okay,

803
00:41:44.400 --> 00:41:46.320
I can do that, so you don't. I mean, I

804
00:41:46.440 --> 00:41:48.039
try to get in all the positions and everything. But

805
00:41:48.079 --> 00:41:50.719
then she goes, yes, just let us open your mind

806
00:41:50.800 --> 00:41:53.920
so we could come in. I said, oh no, got up,

807
00:41:54.000 --> 00:41:57.039
took my mat and walked out. And every time since then,

808
00:41:57.039 --> 00:41:58.840
for the rest of the semester, I would see her.

809
00:41:59.159 --> 00:42:02.440
But what about the open heavy with my boyfriend? Oh

810
00:42:02.599 --> 00:42:06.519
okay and decision, okay, you get big down. I don't

811
00:42:06.599 --> 00:42:09.639
know what all that means, but you know what that means.

812
00:42:09.840 --> 00:42:12.800
And for you to ask that question, that's a question

813
00:42:12.920 --> 00:42:15.880
for you. That's a question for you. But we all

814
00:42:15.920 --> 00:42:18.440
have fallen short. I was talking to my daughter. Yes,

815
00:42:18.719 --> 00:42:20.800
we were dinner, we went out to grabbing back to

816
00:42:20.840 --> 00:42:23.280
eat and run some errands, and I was just telling her,

817
00:42:23.280 --> 00:42:25.840
I said, you know, the worst the worst thing that

818
00:42:25.920 --> 00:42:29.280
started my first marriage off was my father had died

819
00:42:29.320 --> 00:42:33.519
in January, no February. I was slated to get married

820
00:42:33.599 --> 00:42:35.960
in May of that year. I just talked to him

821
00:42:36.000 --> 00:42:39.119
that weekend, convincing him to walk me down the aist

822
00:42:39.239 --> 00:42:40.400
and he said, yes, I'll do it.

823
00:42:40.440 --> 00:42:43.719
And my daddy dies in my arms two days later.

824
00:42:44.119 --> 00:42:47.760
So my first husband, he's renting where he's staying at

825
00:42:48.119 --> 00:42:50.639
So I've got three or three bedroom house, so it

826
00:42:50.679 --> 00:42:53.079
would make sense, you know what, we can save that

827
00:42:53.119 --> 00:42:56.440
three months towards you know, whatever. This is my parents' house,

828
00:42:56.960 --> 00:42:58.719
so you know, you come on and move in, so

829
00:42:58.760 --> 00:42:59.320
of course.

830
00:42:59.079 --> 00:42:59.760
You're gonna do it.

831
00:43:00.159 --> 00:43:03.559
Well, he's staying in another room because that was my thing.

832
00:43:04.199 --> 00:43:06.320
And come to find out, he was not all that,

833
00:43:06.800 --> 00:43:10.199
you know, he was like all that just natural adult behavior,

834
00:43:10.440 --> 00:43:13.719
nothing inappropriate. We are not married. I got you.

835
00:43:14.159 --> 00:43:17.239
That's why I'm sharing this with you. First three months

836
00:43:17.440 --> 00:43:19.719
and we had financially when we married.

837
00:43:19.760 --> 00:43:22.559
It was just this. It was just off the beat.

838
00:43:22.719 --> 00:43:25.840
It was just but I stayed married because I'm committed

839
00:43:25.880 --> 00:43:29.440
to the marriage, to the word marriage, you know. But

840
00:43:29.559 --> 00:43:32.119
I thought it was a good idea move in save money.

841
00:43:32.239 --> 00:43:35.079
God's like, well, you didn't ask me right, and we're

842
00:43:35.079 --> 00:43:37.559
both believes, And it didn't make the marriage any better.

843
00:43:37.599 --> 00:43:40.119
It didn't make our finances any better. Because I lean

844
00:43:40.239 --> 00:43:42.559
to my own understanding. And we all have those stories

845
00:43:42.559 --> 00:43:43.280
in the stage.

846
00:43:43.480 --> 00:43:44.199
We all have them.

847
00:43:44.280 --> 00:43:46.480
It's just do you have to make up your mind

848
00:43:46.679 --> 00:43:49.679
where you stand. You have to make up your mind

849
00:43:49.800 --> 00:43:52.679
and have a clear conscience and stand on it, stand

850
00:43:52.719 --> 00:43:53.039
on it.

851
00:43:53.400 --> 00:43:56.320
Well, we've all been there, baby girl, We have all

852
00:43:56.440 --> 00:43:59.000
been there. We know. We made it look real nice

853
00:43:59.000 --> 00:44:00.760
and clean and smell good.

854
00:44:00.800 --> 00:44:03.920
When I broaches look good when I broaches at our accessories.

855
00:44:04.280 --> 00:44:07.719
But trust me, we till my autobiography come out. You're

856
00:44:07.719 --> 00:44:10.400
gonna say this great, Yeah he wouldn't. This little fell

857
00:44:10.440 --> 00:44:12.480
an't even date you. You got my apples and you

858
00:44:12.480 --> 00:44:13.760
want me to hear your pants and you.

859
00:44:13.719 --> 00:44:15.400
Act it up. I burt your pants.

860
00:44:15.480 --> 00:44:17.880
Yeah, well I broke your records and I burnt your

861
00:44:17.920 --> 00:44:19.159
pants and I need him them.

862
00:44:19.199 --> 00:44:21.519
So what what you gonna say?

863
00:44:22.360 --> 00:44:22.599
All that?

864
00:44:23.639 --> 00:44:27.320
And I'm gonna name names too. That's a true story anyway,

865
00:44:27.719 --> 00:44:31.760
because I love my albums. But you have to make

866
00:44:31.840 --> 00:44:33.639
up your mind and got already in the month.

867
00:44:33.719 --> 00:44:33.840
Is that?

868
00:44:33.960 --> 00:44:36.920
I mean, the time is out, but you pray about it.

869
00:44:37.079 --> 00:44:40.800
But do your homework first. Do your homework. Do your

870
00:44:40.800 --> 00:44:43.159
homework first, and we'll go from there.

871
00:44:43.280 --> 00:44:47.000
But don't judge yourself like that because you'll never want

872
00:44:47.119 --> 00:44:49.199
you'll never think you're good enough to come to God.

873
00:44:49.559 --> 00:44:51.599
And you can't make yourself holy enough.

874
00:44:51.960 --> 00:44:55.119
You can't clean, you can't bathe with a brillo pad.

875
00:44:55.519 --> 00:44:58.519
You can't, you know, lighten your skin, darken your skin.

876
00:44:58.960 --> 00:45:02.400
You can't do enough. Come to God as you are.

877
00:45:03.159 --> 00:45:07.679
He loves you just as you are. That's our time.

878
00:45:08.119 --> 00:45:10.280
We love you. We're praying for each of every one

879
00:45:10.320 --> 00:45:11.679
of you. Y'all be safe out there.

880
00:45:11.880 --> 00:45:14.679
We're gonna see you next week, last Monday of the month.

881
00:45:15.159 --> 00:45:16.400
Be blessed. We love you.

882
00:45:16.559 --> 00:45:16.599
No