Intl. Ninja Day: Self-defense

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1:18 Well, good evening, good evening, good evening. And welcome, Welcome, welcome to another night, a fabulous eye opening dialogue and intrigued this and information and just sit back and relax. And I have miss Kay here with me. I'm not sure if our other person is going to be able to show up, our other co hosts is going to show up. But what she does, she do. But we're going to do what we do in the name of Jesus. Let's take it to the throne room, Father God, we love you so much. We thank you, we praise you, we give you glory. First we have to ask for healing properties. Healing healing to go immediately to our it person. Father God, please heal her from the top of her head to the soul of her feet.

2:01 Get rid of what she's got. In the name of Jesus and only Jesus, you can do it. Unlike ever before and unlike anyone else. Now again, this is this is your show. We say it every night, every every Monday. This is your podcast. This is your medium, This is your your diist to talk to your people and to set things straight. We love you so much. We get behind the cross in Jesus name. We pray. Amen and amen, I thank you, thank you for joining us tonight and everything. How is everybody's Thanksgiving? I'm gonna give it up. Come on, roll call, Come on, guys, you know who you are. If Tennessee is in the house, let us see you say hey, and how things are going.

2:42 So please just I'll read you as you come in. But you know, God has been God is just so awesome. I had a great time. My daughter, mss kay. Just put a foot elbow, you know, all in the food. I don't know who this child is is. I don't know who this child is. It's not from well, it's kind of from my side of the DNA. But you know, but she can cook, and you know, you give her ingredients and she can put something together. Okay, So her catering so waring to people who don't support her business, her catering business, a baking business. Uh worn to you. You're missing out. And she has she's a she has a healing gift.

3:23 One of her major gifts. It's that of healing. So if she's whether she's rubbing the shampoo in your head or cooking you a three course meal, healing is in is in it. And uh, too bad you lose out because you you know, don't want us support, but yet you want us to support you. So we're going to leave that alone because I'm gonna I'm coming in on a happy note. I'm ending on a happy note. I am not in the mood. And here we go. All right, where's my audience out there somewhere? I know you're on there, even you who troll, we know you're out there. But anyway, we're going to continue to go on. Miss kay. How was your Thanksgiving? Because you was in the kitchen, poor baby? Right, yeah, it was good that you know, for all of us just to be here, right, huh, overly productive, overly productive.

4:16 She bake, she baked desserts as well, and you know it's just and she had to keep, you know, our little princess out of the kitchen because she she smells food. She thinks she's supposed to be a part of that. And so it was a day. But it was just good to have the kids, everybody's here at home. Thank you for everything. Oh you made even more special, misty my heart. God, bless you, God, bless you. That's God. But you can think good evening, looking good ladies. I thank you, But no, that's all God. That was all God. And and you know this is the reason God prompting me, allowing me and using me to do that, to be that conduit that further tells me and proves my point that no church should have a mortgage. No church, no physical building should have congregate members that are lacking and that are suffering and don't have Hey, Trey, Tray, how you doing good? Even I love Trey. Trey pauses before she speaks, even though she knows I need to say, Hey, how you doing, She's like, hang on a minute. So I love you for that, girl, I got you. You do what you got to do.

5:30 But I was just you know, talking about Missy. I think it was Missy that was thanking us for the love offering and the seat offering, and it's all God. It's not us, it's all God. I do what I'm told. But I was just saying that that. But that's another reason, just that, just that that event by itself is a. Reason to me that further proves that no physical church. Or synagogue or temple or whatever, where you've got people coming in to be set free, to be yield and they are sharing, hopefully by the leader of the Holy Spirit, the tithe and they're offering and the speed offering, and they leave the church empty, emptier than they came that.

6:15 I'm gonna let that sit for a minute. I shared with you week months ago that I had students in class that was saying, oh, missus Gray, if you had a church, I would be right there. And I said, well, no, we only meet by every three months. They're like what I said, Yeah, we only meet by three every three months. Just to make sure you have all your resources. You have all the toolkits, you have all the brochures, or you have the Bibles or you know, whatever what do you people need? You're gonna feed give me feedback all the time on what the needs are in your community or the the the sheep that you're you know, you're fostering, you're shepherding. I'm you're not gonna sit up nder me and I'm gonna sit there and preaching. We got to have us the service here we got. Oh, it's time for this, and it's time for that. I know we we we were hoodwinked. We were hoodwinked because back in the day, our people and Native American people, they weren't having all this, you know, ceremonial stuff like okay, it's eleven o'clock. Vicky, you were amazing. Thanks even it was even more fabulous. We thank you for being a part of our lives in many ways. And it was was it you, Mickey or Misty? H took that and gave it to a family that had had a need. Which one of you was it?

7:24 I think it was Nikki, Maybe it's Missy, but you. Don't let me know. But yeah, they turned around and gave it because the kids in the car who listened to us, and somehow they found the driver with somebody talking. Oh the driver said yes, they needed it, so she in turn gives it to them. I said, no, you know that was supposed to it's supposed to be for you. Because no, that's what makes me happy. That's beautiful, that's what makes me happy. We didn't create this, guys. I just followed what God tells me to do. And I'm telling you there's no physical church that need to be dependent upon what they raise every Sunday or every Bible study night or whatever the case. And the dues to be a member. And then you've got the apostles out there who's supposed to be gathering developing churches.

8:16 You got to pay a fee to be a part of that conclave. Come on, come on, This just a loan. This just a loan. As a past I'm standing at the front door. Just give me fifty dollar bills, one hundred dollar bills here here, don't ask, just go do, don't ask, don't just go do none of you. I'm gonna I'm gonna go a little further. And this is all me. This is all me. But I'm over it. I'm over people using us, I'm over people lying. I'm over people. You know, you gotta you know, you're making excuses instead of just telling the true. And that's why God told me heaven will not be crowded. We've got a church on every street, every street. He even here, God bless you even here in our life in central church. Every street. There's one area where three churches make up a cul de sac.

9:06 Three churches and they have no more than three to five cars in the perko love. I drove by there on a Sunday on purpose, and I said, I got to see how this works here. How can you be three churches and a little circle Simmon's half circle no more than three. To five cars in each park? It made no sense. It made no sense. But I say it again. Go ahead, go ahead, you can get me off of this. I'd just be curious to see if you sat down with the churches. And I know some of them have a to draw people to discipleship, to lead them to Christ. I understand that, but sometimes you have to do it non traditional way. You know, you have to do it outside of the walls. And I can. I'm sorry to keep beating this dead horse, but sometimes people will not come in the four walls. They're intimidated by that. And it's unfortunate that it's the people of faith or Christians or something like that that are pushing pushing folks away when you everybody that comes to the church needs healing for some type of way. Everybody's at a different level, So why why would you want to make someone feel differently?

10:22 That's that's a teachable moment. That that's you teach them by the the the uh not invitedness, the pleasant trees, or the friendliness, show yourself friendly or kind you know, the kindness, the fruits of the spirit. That's that's what you do. Don't criticize what they have, okay, teach them or say, let me just show you this is you know, pull them aside a little later, but you don't want to say, you know, I'm glad you came, but you know you shouldn't have worn that. Then then you know, if that's all I have, then I'm not coming back and I might not try another one because seeing one, you're seeing them all. And that's that's the unfortunate part. And sometimes we have to do non traditional ways to draw people to Christ. And that might mean from your car mission work, ministries, outside of the walls, community event resources.

11:17 Because you're showing Okay, I want to help you. So therefore I'm bringing resources. The church can do this, but let me bring some other people and partner with that to show them that we want you this to work. You know what I'm saying. So only if people hungry, they're not going to get fair. If they're not fed food wise, they're not going to be recepted to be fed spiritually. Because I'm hungry. I want to give thanks to you. Oh, we appreciate you at the stage. But I just I just want to be Okay. It's amazing to see the joy. The family is doing well and the father and the family found a job after helping someone out o the blue who had broken down. Wow. That see, that's what I'm saying. Technic is this church.

12:00 Church can't make it up, church, saint nobody can't make it up. Oh my god, see see just a glimmer of hope, Just a glimmer of hope. That's all he needed. And he saw somebody else in need, didn't have time to reflect on nothing, and oh my goodness, let me go help. You don't need a physical church. And tay Trey, you just described the Book of Acts study, the Book of Acts. That's the book of Acts. I've been telling y'all forever. We're headed to Acts chapter two, were happened. We're headed to that where they came together because Jesus what Jesus barely went into the temple. He barely and every now and then he was in somebody's home. But he was in the street. The majority of his ministry occurred in the street. And he didn't have any flyers.

12:51 He didn't have Okay, I need to send out some postcards. Ahead of me, No wherever he's stopped, and he's walking through and then he's walking You see them man by the pool of Bethesda, by the pool and the men the Bible said, the men brought him there, put him down by the pool, and they went into the church. Who does that? It's like a domino back. People helped him, He helped the person, that person offered him a job he needed. I'm gonna run run if I could run. This is my God, Jesus, Oh. You know this is this is so can I I have to share. I was, Oh, my gosh. So I had a moment over the weekend, and you know, I was all Thursday and Friday, and typically sometimes I go and work with you know, Lisa. And I got up and I said, okay, it's a beautiful day. All praise to God, yes el the kay and I went to the park and it was beautiful and I sat out there just kind of enjoyed the fresh air, the sunshine, and I just started talking to God and I and I said, what it? What is it? What am What am I supposed to be doing? And I was thinking to myself, and I said, you know what, I've done pretty much everything, with the exception of fasting and praying and I and I admit that I haven't. So Saturday night, I started fasting around nine o'clock PM, and I did not have anything to eat until nine o'clock this morning.

14:25 It was a start, and and and I was praying, and I was organizing and listening to word and sermons and so I filled my days with that and and it's a different experience. I was trying to explain him, but I felt that God was discerning a lot. You know, I saw things a little differently to this morning. And and but yeah, yeah, so I just want to I did it. It's it's crazy that this is going on because I just had a whole conversation with a friend, like literally before I got on the show today about you know, especially when you're mentioning mentioned judging in the church and everything like that, I'm like, you know, they can't judge when they're doing the same thing.

15:16 And I don't know. Why Christians want to put themselves on a pedestal when you're doing the same thing as somebody that's you know, trying to come into faith or just a center period, whether they have faith or not. And I was just expressing to him that, like, I just. Don't understand as young individuals, why aren't we taking heed? You wonder where you are in life, you wonder why you're in the place you are, but you're not seeking after God and then you're praying you're not. There's ways to pray correctly. And I tell people all the time, you think of first, How I do I think them first? For everything I rekent so forth. You know, everybody want to go to God and just ask, ask, ask, and that's not what it's about. And it's crazy, Like I had chills cause I'm like, you know, there's so many testimonies in the Bible, miraculous stuff, impossible stuff, and you wonder why you made it out of an impossible situation.

16:08 And you think you did it by yourself, but who entire time you wasn't even by yourself. And I'm just like, and you know, I mentioned like when my mom was in the hospital, every day I got emotional, and I'm like, you know, if none of my friends believe in God based off of that story alone, you should believe in God. Simple. We didn't know my mom was dying. We didn't know. They called us up there for us to pull the plug. We went out there and prayed, and then a doctor saying she's doing a whole three sixty, taking her off of every much our kid, you not else, probably over fifteen machines in that room. You cannot tell me there's not a God. You cannot. That's what faith looks like. Like people want to actually see a physical being, to be able to believe, to be able.

16:51 To guide them. And it's like, it's not about it's not about that. And I was expressing to them, I'm just like, you know, I don't understand why we're doing this to each other, Like I don't unders and what's to come is not gonna look pretty. I'm like, for all we know, majority of the people I know, I know is going to hell. Like I just had to have a real conversation because it's just like we're prideful. We're not repenting. I am, but we're not repenting. We're not reading you. All you do is pray. That's not enough and mistraining. When you mentioned fasting and everything like that, I stress how important it is because it's like when you have when you don't know where else to go, that's what you need to do. Like that's like it says it in the Bible. I forgot that.

17:32 Yeah, it'll probably come back into my head. But we have too fast to see, like to really kill our flesh because we all love food. Everybody love food. Everybody love to eat. But you gotta turn that plate. God thinks like he knows we're not gonna sacrifice that. We're not gonna sacrifice food. We're not gonna stop eating to just sit there and dwell in his place, because you know, a lot of us we don't even give him enough time. I have to repent of that. I'm not giving putting my schoolwork above God. We don't even realize how much stuff we do daily. Just putting that over just spending that time with him. So it's like, I don't know what that is, but hello, God bless you els. But yes, and it's just like, you know, the fact that you mentioned that, it's just so important. I was really trying to stress that to my friend and everything like that to understand, like everything we've gone through in life is a testimony I believe for anyone if you went through traumatic so it doesn't matter, it's a testimony you got through it. You're here so right.

18:35 But yeah, and it's just very inspirational that you shared that because it just ties in with the conversation I just had. It's more in depth. But it's crazy, she comes back, Mom, what did you do? Right? But now I was just sharing how like just inspirational that was. And then like the season we're in right now, mam, and like what we're doing, and it's just everything just ties together and it's crazy conversation with him. I'm like, who are they to judge? You're doing the same thing this persons? Who are you to judge? And I just wish people would getting off off that pedestal because it's just like, but God's gonna judge at the end of the day he's coming for the church first, so.

19:16 Take it out, take it. I just feel full, you know, I you know, but look look at this. I was listening to a sermon and a gentleman out of Atlanta, Bishop del Brauner. And when I say he I listened yesterday. I was last night, and stomach was starting to kick in, and it didn't bothered me the whole time. I said, Okay, now I'm on this stretch. I said, I'm trying to make it to nine o'clock in the morning, and my stuff, I said, okay, I got it. I'm gonna do it. And it just like I don't have my notes in front of me, but I was reading my notes to my coworker. But I'm listening to our conversations and and and the things that we've done. And one of the things he said, it's something about the path is not about money. Your purpose is not necessarily about money. It's about connections and relationships.

20:08 And I'm looking at we you know, look at the relationships and connections right now. I don't know anybody on it that's chiming in. I've never met them outside of this, but look at that, and look at what this platform has been able to do with others a blessing and they're now reaping what they've sewn in right, we want your SOLM want you Yeah so, but but but look at that in that ministries. Isn't that church? You know what I'm saying, Isn't that what it's about? About this? And this is this is great? And I and I love our audience. They they, I mean, it's I love them.

20:48 Those that we know are on, those that we don't know are on, those that see our show, those who share our show, those talk about it. And look at this, This is the blessing right here. And and so it wasn't was it? Was it easy? No? And I and I share my journey because I want people to feel comfortable with starting where you are. You know, like I said, I was always a believer of Christ, but I've just never stood still to listen and and and and now things are okay, Let me still still, Let me just learn, Let me just get hang hang surround myself with people that know it, that do it, that can guide me spiritually. Young. Oh, I don't care. And I'm learning and it's and it's feeling better and I can share and I come on here and say you don't have to be where I am. You don't have to be where Miss Gray or Miss k Is.

21:39 Just start and let it pour and be around people who are gonna pour into you, not people that you have to always pour out stuff or they dragon. Negative stuff affects you and and that's what you don't You don't want that to pull your spirit. If it's pulling your spirit back away from that, that's not what you need. And Satan is going to try to destroy what you're doing. He doesn't like this. We're just trying to get you. And so Jess, you know, I'm I'm really full. I am full, and I was pretty proud of myself. I said, how I'm gonna do this? I really love that. You know. And I said, let me just try it. Let me because when everybody. Told us, I said, well, how do you do I have to stop what I need to do. I said, you know what, Lord, I'm just gonna do it. I'm just gonna do it. And and I did and stayed away things that could trigger me to want to eat.

22:31 You know, I didn't even go downstairs, just kept my water. I didn't do my water because I needed that. But that was it and had my word and and just staying busy and organizing and processing and God just pouring into me. Okay, trade, this is what you need to be doing next, This is what you need to be moving, and just keep following stands. Sure has made different. Oh wow, I'm missing bless you. Oh you found the script. Go ahead, got to keep the book on me anyway. But just for anybody who wants to know what true fasting looks like, just read Isaiah fifty and it shows. You fifty eight fifty eight fifty eight.

23:14 Okay, it you know, tells you the purpose and the outcome, the outcome of fasting. I'm not going to share it. You got to read it for yourself. That's your homework. That's your homework starting this month off right, that's your work. Hey, that's the home work. Well, I'm gonna tell you. I got a phone call this morning and the young lady was like, Hi, is this miss Gray? And I said yes, and her name came up on the dam. It was like the name sound familiar, but anyway, she she said, you may not remember me. And I had to look look, I had to look for you. And I'm like, okay, and she said, my husband and I we were just talking and actually you you. I work with you at this agency here in Orlando. And I said I met you there. I said okay, and she said, and you did counseling for me and for my roommate. And I'm still sitting there like I'm drawing a blank. I have no idea. And she said, my husband and I were just talking. You actually came and you ministered at you know, for us. And I'm like, I don't remember at all. She said, it's at our clubhouse.

24:17 And I'm like, and it was fifteen years ago, whom I was like, okay, this was here. Go look up my age you know you were no nothing, never mind, don't And she said it was fifteen years ago. And I'm like, you got me, but I remember the agency, but you got me. And she went on to talking and it was her husband, I believe that said did we ever give her an offering? Let you sit with that for a minute. I said, I said what She said, yeah, and she said yeah. He said did we give her an offering for that? And she said I don't think we did. And I went to Tayble, like, who is talking about you? Fifteen years later and she he said, we need to send you the offering fifteen years later and preferbly we're gonna do some work. She's They both adminished they have ministry, to have the ministry at their church.

25:10 And I'm still like, who is And I looked up her website. I said, oh, I. Know who she is. And I'm like, it's been fifteen years. Who's looking for you? Who's looking for you? It stunned me the whole the rest of the day, I was I was just okay. We were on the phone by the hour, forty five minutes to an hour. Girls, you goout to cry. No, okay, we ain't doing that anybody. It's just being my dog. I'm just gonna come and just just me in the backyard, just bring my arm Lioneer yesterday. But but no, but but but miss Gray. You have that impact on others. And I told you the first time that I met you, me and my coworker, and we were out of women of Caucaus, Florida. I think of color, women of color, right, And I hurt you and you left me speechless that day. It was your delivery.

26:18 The camaraderie was something that I think I never experienced before, and you left the impact in my life. And I know when I left there, and I know we crossed paths with different things, but when I left Florida lost kind of connection. You know, there was more connections when I did, and I just had to. I think. I looked you up and had genumba and I said, let me. Reach out that. That's what I'm saying is the connections. And then my co workers remembered you, and I think you but you have that impact on people and people who have met you and have come to know you are truly blessed because you are a blessing. You have the anointing spirit.

27:02 You you you, you definitely can see Christ in you. And I appreciated you, and I love you, and you know I trust all that you say and all that you do. And you look at the followers, Look look at the followers. Look what God had you do and that was because you were obedient and I and I just love you. I tell you I do. And I got a chance to meet your you know, your kids more Miska. Who I'm looking at y'all, y'all really look alike. I'm sorry, I'm looking like like Okay, but I'm telling you, I just feel blessed and overjoyed to have you in my life.

27:45 I really really really am and and and I really appreciate you guiding me, being one of the most instrumental people in guiding me through this journey. And like I said, I knew God as a young age, knew about God, always believe, but never took this walk. And it's definitely making a difference. It's not easy, but I just want people to get it, and I really want people to be able to see God. I want to see him. I don't want to see I don't want to see the devil. I never want to see the devil. And I'm really working hard and I just want my family, my loved ones, my friends and all to get it.

28:25 But it's so good. I'm thinking for our past connected. Thank your Elder k You're gonna have to do a run for me, you and Elder Jane's on Sunday. Amen. Then you do I learn God. You won't realize how much I need Him. The more humble I become and want to serve Him forever. All glory to God for all you all do. Thank you, And it's it's this God Zion a place is mentioned in Isaiah in fifty nine to thirty. Did I read too far? It's Isaiah fifty eight, yeah, fifty eight, yeah, fifty eight in a station. I've got something else pulled up here. But let me go over there right quick, because I don't want to. I'm not gonna leave you hanging. Hang on a minute. And Zion, it's a place that it was a place biblically, and that could be part of your whole work too, because we're not gonna give it. Uh, oh what is that?

29:09 What's what does that mean? What what you're put in a comment? Oh? Hamark? Yeah, Oh, prevent you from you know, getting emotional. Treat me, treat. Yeh see that. I'm just gonna I'm moving in. I'm bringing my emotional tears come out her eyes. No I didn't, I didn't. She's a okay. Yeah, here's the fasting, all right? Yeah, Zion, Yeah, look that up and Sag you take a look at it. And if you need some more, just you know, holler at me. You all know how to get in touch with me.

29:52 But but it's important. Yeah, Isaiah fifty Yeah, it's gonna take you. And this is that was during consecration days where they bathe their animals. They bathed every and you know there's nothing but saying and rocks. Thank you. I started at fifty. Go ahead and the stage. That's what the God's word do it just you gotta have more and more and more. That's what he does. It's interesting, it's very interesting. But they are They clean their cop their animals, and you know it's nothing. But dirt and rock. You're cleaning your you're cleaning the camels, you're cleaning the mules. What are you cleaning the winds?

30:33 But that that. Was conson crazy. You put the bleach on the walls. You hear me on the caves. How do you clean the cave? But they cleaned. And that's why you need a stage. You need a stage. The one man show. Just go for it, go forward. Great. I'm just I'm just asking the questions. Is in your mind? How did they clean it? You know? I mean, but that was. Consecration to them, That was consecration. This fast thing that we do, even though it's very critical, it is important. You're supposed to be cleaning up the house before you get started. You're supposed to go I've. Cleaned my car I've gone to clean my car. I didn't do it this time, but I've gone to clean my car, had to detail everything. Yeah, everybody gets you know, the dog goes to the grooming. You know, everybody gets cleaned up. So it's really serious. It's really serious.

31:25 But thank you, Trey. I needed to hear this today because there's some people, one or two people that just it's just like they're trying to wear my nerve and I'm like, I'm really not the one you want to push into a corner here. I'm not the one that you need to talk about. I really not. Because God loves his people, but he really loved me. He really loves me, and he already knows who my enemies are. He's already knowing who is talking about me and all this kind of stuff, and this is not the day. This is not the day. But you know, I'm mainly trying to get information and everything else, and then you push it back, not responding all that kind of you know, I'm just asking for information. I don't bother you. And if I'm texting you, if I'm calling you, there's a reason because I need an answer and I need it now.

32:11 And I know you're busy. I know you know you got things to do. I get that, but I'm just putting it out there so you you know, but you don't have to you know, come back, you don't. I didn't send for you. I'm sending for you. I didn't send for you. And now here's the love over half of strangers. Love coming from people who we don't physically know. We wouldn't know them if we walked into their city, giving love and appreciation, just a little acknowledgement, just a little. And I love it that God brought us back Tray. Only God can do that. Only God and you agreed, and God's like, no, ask Trey, have Tray come on the show, on the podcast. This is what obedience looks like. Guys, how could anyone have an ill war towards it? I could, I couldn't see a reason. Anastasia, you be surprised. Jealousy make you look stupid. Jealousy and I don't know what you're jealous of. You you don't want to walk in my shoes. You don't want to try to obtain that which God has given me. You don't want to do that.

33:09 You don't want to do that. I don't know what that is. I just stay on your lane. Don't talk to me anymore, delete me, block me, whatever, or come out and say, you know, you're really getting on my nerves. Tell me that, Tell me that. But don't go lying to your daughter telling about you know, I'm a it's a form of harassment. And I'm giving you scripture. And you don't think God not gonna comet. Come come deal with that. I don't bother anybody. I really don't. And I'm at a place now I don't bother people. Don't. Numbers ain't saved anyway. You don't talk about numbers not being saved in your directory. I don't even know how you know all those people ain't.

33:51 Nobody got to know. All you gotta do is memorize a certain few numbers. And you know who call him? Just don't pick a call her. They lean on her. That hurt leading on them. Who's gonna who does she lean on? Thank God? She know Jesus Christ, we ain't gonna go there. But not go go there because one of your folks may just look at the ship. I see you, but you know, just just come on. But yeah, they're out there at a stage and you'll be surprised who don't like you right there in the family, who don't like you for what? You're the first. Born, for what? I can't help who I look like I got? People hate once already deceased, hated me, hates me because I'm the oldest. So yeah, and guess what, you will take it to your grave because I'm not here to minister to you. I'm not here to disciphle you, and even the folks, the viewers are.

34:45 All we do is get We're setting it straight. I want you to understand what the difference between religion and servanthood. There's a difference. What's the difference between denomination and serving and living a christ like life's out? It's a whole difference. We've been bamboozled because because of where we've come from and who took us from the native land and all this kind of stuff. They fed us a whole lot so they could do control. They could control us, just like twenty twenty, You're gonna release a viral fungus chilling millions of people from the globe, just so you could see if you could control people, and we did, or we can't go outside, they say, we can't go all the stores are closed. Oh boy, you better get the food. We've been warning you. We've been warning you for years. You better store up your food, know how to store. Then get the stores a clothes.

35:37 They did it, so now we got all these funguses, these viral things out there. They ain't even try to find a back singing for it anymore because they know that the liars out. Get your natural herbs and things like that. Find somebody who knows that. Get and cure yourself and stop being around people who got coals and flus and everything. I know sometimes you can't help it, but we're a mask wearing family. I know you don't like it. I don't like it. Times I have to pull it down because I'm sweating and everything I get it. I get it for circling back. This is what lifestyle looks like. You're supposed to get, you know, get your learning, learn your scriptures, and meditate on his word day and like study his word to show yourself approved, so that you could rightly divide the truth people. Stop at study to show your self approved, approve to do what There's a rest. There's another part of the sentence. It's another part then meditate on that word.

36:28 You don't have to memorize the Bible, you don't have to memorize scripture. But if you keep meditating on it, guess what you remember it? You just happen to remember it. And you're to watch and pray. I know many of you don't like to watch the news because it's all bad. Yeah, well we're here, so you but you got to. Peek in and see what's going on. You don't know if your full street. Is shut down because a pipe bursts somewhere. You're going to drive out to go to work and you can't even get out your driveway. It was all the news last night. So every day I did, you got to peak at the news. So you're the watch and pray fast and pray fast. Thing is, there's a lot of little pieces. Now. You need to have your word around you. You need to be listening to your gospel music or your Christian music. You know, you need to be praying.

37:12 You need to just have your mind. And every commercial came on that come on, will be a dessert, will be food? Every commercial, all of a sudden, everybody got to talk about food. Everybody, and you said, there, like for real, but you laugh at the devil said, for real, you tell your flesh no, I command you. My flip. The scripture said, my flesh shall bless your holding name. When you become closer, the enemy makes them jealous. When I, oh, yeah, when I started getting closer and started walking with God, they talked about me. It hurt. But God takes the pain. Yes, it does. And if you're looking for purpose, it comes with pain. If you look at what's my purpose? What's my read? From the moment you go to the right to look more into that, there's pain.

37:54 Somebody talking, what's she doing? What's she? Always the most hurtful thing. I'm an early adult. My mom was still alive, my dad was still alive, and I bought an answering machine, and I told my mom, now, if the phone rings more than three times, because the phone was always right beside her, even though it was an extension with the coil old and all that, I said, Mommy, don't let it if it rings. If it goes to ring the fourth time, just my answering machine's gonna pick it up. Oh okay, I come home. I'm tired, and my light blinking, I said, okay, So somebody I can you know anyway save phone number where you have different numbers and if you die that number, it's going after four rings, just going to my answering machine, all my answerments.

38:37 So I'm sitting down taking my shoes off. I'm sitting on my bed, I'm taking off my shoes, and all of a sudden, I hear my mom's sister in Mary say, yeah, I don't know what she thinks she doing, who she thinks she's talking to. So I'm saying, oh, no, is she talking about Yeah, I don't know. She going to church and looking more like Geraldine, and I just don't know. I don't know what to. Do with her. Well, what are you talking about me? Yeah? She thinks she know all about God now and all that, and now she wanted my mother got a upset because I want to take over my car insurance bill and pay for it. But here I'm listening to my mother and her sister, who don't have children, don't have a husband, can't even drive, talking about me, and she just went all into it, and I'm just all I could do is cry. I said, God, dog, you can't even celebrate the fact that your mother, your sister, who could not have children, was giving a baby, and she grew up to be pretty decent, didn't bring no shame to the family. It was a straight age student suffered in silence. I can't help fool. I looked like, and you gonna sit there and talk about me? And then all of a sudden, my mother must have heard it.

39:45 And she's knocking on my door. And I got myself together, said, yes, ma'am, what you're doing listening to the voice messages? Yes, yes, said thank God for light of Jesus, Satan's God, We're gonna beat you down, yep, amen, amen. And I said, I'm just listening to the messages. I'll be out in a minute. What messages say anything? Change my clothes. And I came out. She's standing at my door and Alice, the other sister who lives with us, no children, no husband, They standing there like what you're gonna do? And my mother was like, here on me. So I'm like, what you're doing? What we're doing? Well? I made dinner, I said, Mommy, I'm not hungry. I ate something on the job. I'm good. So I'm like, okay, Well, I got to get past y'all to go to the TV. Room. So why YouTube ooper loops are standing in front of me. What we're doing.

40:32 I ain't gonna lay my hands or what we're doing. Yeah, you're feeling guilty because I heard you talking about me to your other sister. But I still took care of you. I still did my best because I'm your child and I have no regrets. So this is the lifestyle. And again going back to the steps of the righteous, Fast and pray. Give up your first fruit. You're tied your offering, give it, give it service and time, but money answered a thing and you're into His course of thanksgiving and praise. You don't wait till you get the church on Sunday to start praising God. You should be all prayed up from frid from Monday to Saturday, you should all be praised up, ready to go. And you the moment the congregation opens up at the church opens the doors, I mean that it should be a fault.

41:18 Have you all ever had the physical inside building be so foggy you can't even see each other because of the anainting of God? Been there? You seem to have done more good will even Yeah, Mickey, don't tell nobody because people be looking for me, I don't want to look well, okay, uh, but fog. We had six am prayer at the church the fall. We just praising, got on our knees, praying, rock and just praying and crying, praying and cry. And I opened my eyes. I couldn't it was fag inside the church. Couldn't see it, couldn't see the person sitting next to Jesus was always outside most of the time during his ministry, teaching and preaching, feeding, I would be outside. Now I'm glad I'm outside. I'm attached to the church in Tennessee. And that' says about as far as it goes. Why crying because we were just overfitted. We're filled when you're and crying helps you to purge. Also, you're so full you can't even talk.

42:18 All you could do is cry and just think, Oh Jesus, thank you. And if you want to do this and in your prayer time, here's another piece of homework. I want you to sit in your favorite chair and I just want you to start rocking. I want you to start rocking. I want you to say Lord, thank you. Just just that, Lord, thank you, thank you. Don't say nothing else, just Lord, thank you. Keep doing that. Stay right there, stay right there, and you can't. Tell me you you won't be transformed. You won't be We got two more minutes, guys, y'all, y'all'll be from here. I mean. And God has a way of doing things. Because he was supposed to talk about self defense, y'all. Well we kind of did. We kind of in a way. It's an almighty defender, our shield. We high behind him.

42:59 So there we go. We tied it. Then, like I said, we tied. We always come back around. Definitely back around. Yeah, And it's about self care. And the best self care is to get yourself in tune and in touch with Jesus Christ. You can heal all. He can give you the confidence you're missing, the piece you miss, and feel every void in your heart from heartbreak, anybody broke your heart, He'll feel it. I guarantee you Just asks, just asks. You defend yourself with the grace of God and you will be okay, Thank you, missy. Just know his grace, it's sufficient, His mercy is ever lasting, its peace that lasts, you know, beyond his unconditional love. He has favor anyway.

43:42 All right, well we'll try to talk about international Ninja day. Next week maybe, yeah, I don't want you all flipping and going to get the little mask. But don't don't. Don't, don't start throwing the stars and stuff. Mom, be for real, you don't have. Yes, put on that armor God, put on the armor guy. That's what we did. That's it done. That that amen, armor of God. That's it all right. Next week at the same time, same station. You better be blessed. Night night It is