May 12, 2025

Labor & Loyalty; What Does that Mean

Labor & Loyalty; What Does that Mean

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Well, good evening, good evening, good evening, and welcome to

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an awesome segment of Setting It Straight with Miss Gray

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and I have the most awesome co host on tonight,

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and we're gonna get right into things, but we're gonna

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have to pray. First, Father God, we just thank you,

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We praise you for this day, Thank you for this

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new week. Thank you for this new opportunity to shine

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and to be in you, to prove of you that

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of our loyalty and that our labor, our laboring will

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not be in vain. We just thank you, Father God,

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for everything that you've done for us, that you're going

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to do for us.

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That even if.

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It's a quiet time. We just thank you for safety,

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We thank you for we thank you for wisdom, we

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thank you for health, we thank you for unconditional love.

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We just thank you, Lord, and we give you praise. Now,

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of course we all get behind the cross as you

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do what you do best, and that set your captives free.

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In the name of Jesus, we pray a man and

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a man.

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Well.

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Good evening, good evening, Good evening again. Hey Tray from

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around the way. And Jane, how's the weather up there?

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It's overcast. It's actually overcast. It was a little warmer today.

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So I'm doing the show outside because I just wanted

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to be, you know, just getting some natural vitamin D.

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I've been in a building all day, so I'm just

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doing something a little different.

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Yeah.

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Nice, nice, Well, good for you, Good for you. Yeah,

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we had, we got our rain. We're getting our rain

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and everything. You know, I'm just asking God to a

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moderation how we need it, you know, minus the thunderstorms.

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And you know on what my power going out you

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have to you have not because you asked not. So

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I'm asking and pleading and saying, please Lord, you know

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we need the rain the grass. But animals need the rain.

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The flowers need the rain, and we thank you, you

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know want we need the pollen to go away, so

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that needs rain so it could be removed and dispersed

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and released and all that kind of stuff. So we're

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just thankful for that. I pray that those of you

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who are mothers out there that you all had an

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awesome weekend. I was just sharing with my co hosts

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and with our producer engineer. My kids tricked me, going

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to get me in the car and I've been celebrating,

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been celebrating since Thursday, and it was really something, and

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they convinced me. They were taking me horseback riding, and

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I freaked out in the car and I'm like, no,

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I can't do this. You can't do this to me. Mom.

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It's on your vision board. No, it's not on my

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vision board. I can tell you that right now. It's not.

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I just talked about, you know that I had this picture.

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I have this picture be full color. I had to

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be about three, maybe four years old. I'm on to

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back up a horse. I'm on a horse. Nobody told

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me about the picture in his story of that, so

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I just happened to commonly mention it, and all of

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a sudden, my kids that gave them this bright idea

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that I need to be on them. I need to

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go horseback right. No I don't, No, I really don't,

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you know. And so we get there and then fooling

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me all the way and they're like, okay, mom, you

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got to close your eyes like a little bit. I

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take my glasses off because I really can't say I

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closed my eyes. And they're like, oh, look at the

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prow Look at the horses.

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Oh they look so good.

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Oh mom, I think that's gonna be your horse over

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you know, it's brown and it's got this white stripe.

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And no, it's not gonna be my horse because I'm

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not getting on it, you know. And I'm like my

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daughter's like, well, mom, we've already paid for us. Oh,

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I'll give your money back. What you need. How much

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was I'll give it to you right now. So we

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pull it up and they're like, okay, they come Oh

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they're coming over to the car. I said, they coming

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over to the car for what yank me out of here?

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And you know, oh I was I panicked. I panicked

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because I believe them. So we get out of They

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get me out of the car and they walk me around.

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I still got my eyes closed and they say, okay, mine,

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you could look. I said, give him my glasses so

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I can see. And it was Top Golf. I said, really, really, guys, really, well, Mom,

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you said you want to this is another thing you

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said you would like to try to golf. And I'm like,

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I said, I'm not talking to none of y'all again.

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This is gonna definitely impact your future Christmas and birthday gifts. Okay,

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just want you to know that. And we get there

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and it's on this top thing. And I don't know

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if anybody's ever been to Top Golf. I don't want

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to ruin anything if you're going to plan on going.

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But whoever idea it was to create this event this

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amusement was spot on because the other people that were

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there were so intense that one lady, an elderly couple,

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she had her glove on. She and they had to

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be there for at least an hour before we got there.

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They were there once we left. They take this really.

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Another guy comes in and he's got shorts on, he's

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put his glove on, he's got his own clubs like

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he really take this serious. And I'm like, wow, so great.

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You know, kudos to whoever created this idea of an amusement,

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because there are people who are And then I said,

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I'm sure it's because they can't membership at a golf club.

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So stuff like that. And you know, going through that house,

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all you have to do is rs VP and show up,

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just show up. And it was nice. The food was nice,

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hand heels, all kinds of stuff. So we you know,

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I just I sprung for the food. I said, okay,

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let's you know, my daughter's sprung for the food. Do

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themm what are you gonna want? I'm looking at the menu.

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We had a great server. The name was Zach. It

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was it was really nice. So I bet I get

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up to take a to choose a club. Never been

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golfing in my life, so I said, well this says

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about my height. Okay, so I'm gonna take this one.

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And as I'm standing there trying to adjust the club

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and I could only do that on my right because

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I only got my right hand, I'm like, okay, this

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is not I don't know why I'm feeling. And I

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froze because all of a sudden, my unforgiving, unrelentless, subconscious

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took me back to the sixth grade. Sixth grade, we

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were playing softball for PE, and I have had the

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bad habit. I developed it out of nowhere. When I

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would swing the bat, I would throw it behind me. So, okay,

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hey Mickey, yes it was. But I would throw the

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back and my coach, my PE teacher would yell at me,

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I told you how to be throwing that, and I

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would freeze up. So softball, baseball, you will never see

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me do. I won't even go to a game because

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I didn't even know that that. I was technically traumatized

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because I don't know why I would throw the back.

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It's just so that brought that sensation, that memory, because

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I'm like, if I, if I hit the ball, I'm

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gonna let the club go too. And I'm like, I

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froze somebody. We all three of my kids got up.

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I was like, Mom, what's wrong. What's wrong? I said,

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I'm just having a minute, give me a minute, and

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I'm talking to Jesus. I'm really like, okay, okay, this

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is not a baseball and I could drop. All I

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need to do is hold on. Let me just put

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it and let it just get off of here, and

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I'm gonna sit down. I gotta sit down. I'm telling you.

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The nerves and the anxiety and the panic came rushing back.

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So before I hit the ball, I said, Father God,

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right now, I forgive mister Jones. I forgive my classmates

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for laughing at me and yelling at me. I forgive

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them all. I forgive them all my body, calm down,

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calm down in Jesus' name. And all I did was

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just hit it a little bit and that was it.

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I put I got off the little thing, and I

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took and my son, my oldest SidD he took the

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club by my and put the club and I was

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writ and sat down and they're looking at me like

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I said, no, y'all, go play. You know, I had

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to play it all. You know, I didn't want to

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make that a down moment. But I'm sitting there like,

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oh my god, oh wow. So those those that that

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That's why I've told you the subconscious is the most

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nastiest of our and ego. It's nasty because I mean

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I literally froze, and thank god, nobody was really you know,

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looking at me or anything. But you know, the kids

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kind of panicked because they were like, mom, what's wrong.

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And I had to talk talk to them, said oh okay,

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I'm okay, give me a minute. Just give me a minute.

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And later in the car, I told him what happened

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and why they had happened. But I had to forgive

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all of those people. So you know, there's still forgiveness

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out there. You got to forgive. I've forgotten about it

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until that moment. Literally, anytime I've talked about my elementary

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school years of going from a predominantly black school to

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a predominantly white school, going into the religion of Catholicism

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and all that, I never talk about that softball situation.

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And anytime we had to go out and replace It's

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like he picked at me play the softball, so all

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I would do is blunt and just run and drop

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the bat in front of me on purpose. But I'm

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not even thinking about hitting the ball. I'm thinking about

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dropping the bat. So we you know, so we have

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some little nooks and crannies that stay stuck. The underneath

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behind the pancrea is underneath the spleen, and we don't

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know about it until you're in a moment that it

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comes rushing back when it really freezes you because you're like, oh,

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what if I throw this club? What if I throw

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this club, you know, and try to get my handles.

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So it took that. It was fun watching everyone at

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Father's Day for Top Golf, Okay, say he said, Okay,

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do you feel that you have come to a better

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place with that memory? Yes? I didn't realize it was hidden, Misty,

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it was still there. I had no idea, you know.

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And then you know, again I had to forgive the people.

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Once I forgave, I was like, Okay, I took the power.

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I took that sting of anxiety and panic and being frozen.

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I took the thing out of it. And I'm aware.

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I'm aware, you know, I'm aware. I'm not I won't

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go to Top Gold. I will go with the kids,

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you know, and just have fun. I'll spring for all

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the food so we could just you know, be laughing

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and stuff. And they were so kind at the end.

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They said, well, we're gonna do this for mom, so

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Mom will take your chance, your turn every time. So

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they I ended up with. They ended up getting sixty

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seven points for me, you know, because they were hitting

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it and doing really good. So you know it's I said,

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oh wait till Monday night and I got to share

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this thing. Boy Jesus, oh Lord, it's hard out here,

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you know, but you know, I'm just thankful. I'm just

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thankful that I could I had. It had to come up,

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it had to come up, and I'm very honored with that.

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So yeah, and then that spurred another thing. My publisher.

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I'm thinking that I'm good to go, and any day

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now they're going to be sending me the original, my

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first original copy of the new book. And the Lord

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told me on Thursday, I think you need to call them.

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I said, oh okay, And I said, so I called,

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and I'm getting this other person and she goes, oh, no,

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well that person she's off. But let me look up

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your account. She says, no, we are handing you. You're

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in the production stage. You're in the editing, the final

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editing stage. And I'm like, well, I thought I did that.

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you have to respond to the email, and you didn't respond.

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And I'm like, no, I died, I'm rushing. I'm going

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through my email. I said, I didn't get it. She said, well,

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that person. This is the new person, and I'm going

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to handle her off to you. I'm already sending her

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an email now to send that back to you, and

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blah blah blah. The young lady a few hours later

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called me. And that's why I love Zulan, my publishing company,

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because they are hands on, They are right there, and

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that team locks in. Everybody knows every stage of where

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your project is, your manuscript is, and anybody can answer

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the question, but they don't step on toes. No, no, no,

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this is you know, you know, uh, Person number D

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has to take it. Take it will take you from here,

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and I've always loved that. Now there are other ways

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you can publish your material through Amazon and all that

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good stuff, which will be less, less expensive and all that,

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but I don't know how much hands on you'll get

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with a human person on the phone with you, willing

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to do a zoom with you, willing to walk you

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through whatever you need to. And I've always had that

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with these folks, so I'm thankful. But we took my

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father in law the Top Golf a Father's Day one year.

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and yeah, I mean it's great. Everybody was laughing and

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nobody was fussing, and nobody was picking at each other

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and people, you know, I was watching everybody else balls

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go and I'm looking at the thing. You know, you

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have to learn everything, and I'm like, wow, you know,

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it's a fun it's the greatest amusement opportunity. And people,

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like I said, people take it real serious and it's

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a good thing, you know about it. Yeah, it's height

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so it's up there, and that you you on the

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bottom flour you know, and stuff, so it's protected and

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it's nice and it's cozy, you know. And and uh,

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I was like, okay, yeah, this is it was an idea.

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children because I don't know what they will plan for

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me next year. So here we go. But you know,

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but getting back to the book, the young lady said,

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I'm going to send you an email, and what you

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need to do is this is your this is the

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last revision. We're gonna ask from your editing. We're gonna

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ask from you once we do this. And then I asked,

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what the next steps you go? Next steps you go

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right to printing. So it's already in the Library of Congress.

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all of that, so that's kind of cute.

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And it was just like, okay, And what started off

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was Wednesday, we went to do our photo shoot for

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the FA our family photo shoot. That was my Mother's

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Day gift to myself. I wanted a photo shoot of

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all of us, including my dog, and they came out

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really nice. We were in jeans and a white blouse

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and a white T shirt or white shirts and it

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was really nice. So that's gonna be Christmas card stuff. Okay,

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there we go. Text you that and the picture Merry Christmas,

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Happy New Year, be safe. This I saw you getting

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for me, and I said the photo. I got about

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fifty of them, so hallelujah, thank you Jesus that you

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didn't even notice the dog laying Now, I'm like, there's

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a dog laying there, you know, But that was funny.

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But yeah, So now even though I've got all this attention,

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even though I've got all of this, okay, now I

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got to do this, I was still hesitant. And then

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I had to put in my mind, Okay, I've got

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the schedule because I've got to sit normally. Even when

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I used to review grants, or if you have a

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manuscript you wanted me to take a look at, or

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a paper or whatever, I have to print it. I

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would have to print it even before this happened to

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me and highlighted and stuff like that. That's how I

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review stuff. But this time was with me. I said,

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you know what I'm gonna flesh, I'm gonna do something

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a little different because I blame my flesh. My flesh

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wanted to put up barriers. Oh, we don't have to

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do that. You could do that, you know, but I

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promised the young lady. I said, no, you have my word.

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When you come in to work Monday, you will have

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my revisions in your email. I've got to stay on

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track with this, you know. So and my flesh was like, no,

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I just you know, you got a couple of hours.

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to storm. And so I got up my gospel music

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and I went there and they sent you on a

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form where you can make a correction. So one column

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is the page number, second column is the line that

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the bird. The comments are on the wording is on

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what's the incorrect way? What's the correct way? And then

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you also have a little bar for a miscellaneous additional comment.

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So I have to go through. I had to read,

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and I did it on my I did it, and

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to get back at my flesh, I said, no, I'm

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gonna do this a different way. And there are times

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you've got to use reverse psychology on yourself because you

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could talk yourself by the stuff. You really could, and

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you'll come up and you'll sound very reasonable. That's why

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when you're listening for the voice of God, one of

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those voices is yours. One of those voices is yours.

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So that's what I did. And then I'm going through

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and I'm like, oh my god, why did I put

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that in there? I took like three sentences out, you know,

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and I'm like, oh my god, what was I trying to?

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I speak, as I come up in my head, I speak,

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and then I noted as I come up in my head,

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I write that. So when I was dictating the book,

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I'm just going not not revising nothing anything, because I

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will do the revisions later. But I'm looking Saturday, why

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did I put that in there like, oh my God,

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and I said, these people are gonna be like, oh,

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here should go taking out all this, I mean three

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sentences this is you know, and corrected it and everything

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and hoping that they you know, and I was I

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did it all online and I used to correct and

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I went back to the sheet the form, and I

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was able to, you know, put the line I made.

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I made a manual copy and then I put it

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the information. And once I went back, I said, Lord

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and my family. She said, you are feelished one hundred

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over about one hundred pages in this book. And I said,

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thank you God, because I really it's a book that

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the chapters are going to take you almost day by

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day of what I experienced, not nearly ninety seven days

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of it. Well, it's funny because it's one hundred pages.

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But I was in the hot, you know, beat at

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the house. But there were things I didn't leave out,

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you know, because it wasn't necessary. It wasn't necessary, and

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I didn't want it to take away from the whole

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essence of the book and things. So I feel that

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you're going to feel it. The publishing team have already

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who've gone through it or already, like we can't even imagine,

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we can't a man that. So God is good. But

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you gotta check yourself. You gotta check your flesh. You

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gotta There are times you don't want to do stuff,

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you don't want to be. You know, you just you don't,

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you know, and you're human and it's okay, but you

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gotta if it's important, you got the course correct, they've

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got to jump back on, knock it right out, call

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it a day, change things up, whatever you have to

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do so that you get it done, So that you

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get it done. Tonight, we're talking about labor and loyalty.

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And loyalty took a totally different term from me because

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you know, well, of course we're thinking about people who

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are loyal to you, people relationships, promises, And I looked

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up the words another other words that symbolizes loyalty, adhesion, allegiance, attachment, commitment, constancy, dedication, devotedness, faith, faith, faithfulness, vastness, fidelity, hiet, steadfastness,

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and troth. And the opposite of that is faith lessness, disloyalty, falseness, falsity, inconsistency, infidelity, treachery, unfaithfulness.

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So that is going to be your homework. I want

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you to look up those other words that define define yeah,

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define loyalty, and buy some scriptures. Buy some scriptures, because

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even as I'm I I was looking back at the

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title over the weekend, all I could do was stop

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and just say, God, you have always been loyal, You've

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always been faithful. He'll never let you down. And if

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he has to correct you, trust me, it's for your

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good because you come out better, you come out feeling better.

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You don't realize he knows everything. It's like, why did

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you know that he knows everything even though you're still

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working on your relationship ship with him. So but anything, Trey,

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you want to come in on this for a minute

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before I go to loyalty, I mean labor.

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Yeah, but with the loyalty, and I just find him

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just loyal, you know. The closer I get to him

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and he.

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Just shows me different things.

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It's still some things that I need to be more

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in tune too. But I tell you, just just trusting

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and believing in him, and you know, praying to him

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that he knows exactly what you.

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Need when you need it. Can you share the assignment?

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I can? Please?

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Yeah, look up loyalty and look at synonyms for other

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words that identify loyalty, and look, you know, find a

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couple of verses in the Bible about loyalty, dedication, faithfulness,

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and uh, just use that's just for your own study

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so that you can understand and you could grasp Okay,

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I am loyal in a sense. Notice how loyalty did

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not include obligations. Did say one word about it that

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you're obliged. They did talk.

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About if people need to learn that a lot of

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people need to learn that a lot of people need

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to learn that. The difference between that, you know, I

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think that's where people get caught up in it and.

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You get stuck. You get stuck because you're doing the

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right thing. No, And it made me, It helped me

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to think also this weekend, like you know, those who

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have been loyal to me have been honorable, they've been honest,

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they've been truthful. Also, there people who gave their word

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or said something to try to encourage you or whatever,

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and it was a lie. It was just to tell

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you just to get themselves. They could back out of something.

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You know, well, I'm gonna call you want to know

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I get I didn't get calls on on Mother's Day

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like that. I got nice you know, text messages and

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thank you all for that. But those who said, oh,

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you know, I'm gonna keep in touch and all that nothing,

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And I don't have to hold my breath to anything

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people say, I don't. I won't even give it a

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thought until it comes and it goes. They comes and

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it goes, and oh wow, Okay, well they didn't call

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me good. They're out of my life. Now we're good.

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You're done, and it's a rap and it's open. I'm

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not mad. So you can stop lying because that's being

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held against you if you say you're a Christian person.

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You know, let me go to labor for a minute

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and just see what that has to tell us here.

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Let's see, Well, it's got several definitions, but to labor

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expenditure of physical or mental effort, especially when difficult on

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compulsor compulsory. It's like, okay, you have to do hard labor?

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Is that the one is the services performed by workers

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for wages blah blah. That's that's working and human activity

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that provides the goods of services in the economy. That's labor.

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Physical activities involved in giving birth. Labor you know nine months,

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we know about that workers group considered. Okay, so let

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me see if I can get down to some synonyms

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here to exert one's power of body or mind, especially

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with painful or strenuous effort. So that's work, to move

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with great effort, to suffer some from some disadvantages or distress,

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and of course giving birth and all this synonyms affair, fruit, handiwork, output, produce,

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produce product, product, product production, thing, work and yield. Indulge

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some people if some of it says hustle plow, you know,

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to strive, to struggle in some cases into work. The

456
00:25:00.279 --> 00:25:06.720
opposite of that is fun and play. You're not doing

457
00:25:06.720 --> 00:25:12.279
any labor. You're enjoying yourself too, That's all it said.

458
00:25:12.359 --> 00:25:18.319
So when anyway, God is good and you don't want

459
00:25:18.440 --> 00:25:22.400
your laboring, you're trying to you know, you're taking the

460
00:25:22.480 --> 00:25:25.240
hit because of your belief and you're trying to believe

461
00:25:25.279 --> 00:25:28.160
in God and you're trying to you know, you you know,

462
00:25:28.359 --> 00:25:31.880
it's a struggle sometimes that's real. It is a struggle

463
00:25:32.160 --> 00:25:35.359
because you've got to discipline yourself. You've got to study

464
00:25:35.440 --> 00:25:39.319
your word. And I ran across the song in my

465
00:25:39.440 --> 00:25:45.279
memory section on Facebook with this choir, the single layers,

466
00:25:45.319 --> 00:25:49.519
everything is mine. And he was talking about everything he got, promised,

467
00:25:50.000 --> 00:25:53.519
everything he wrote in the word, everything he's ever spoken,

468
00:25:54.039 --> 00:25:56.759
it's mine. And as I'm listening to the song, I said,

469
00:25:56.799 --> 00:25:59.240
the saddest thing is people don't know the Bible. They

470
00:25:59.240 --> 00:26:02.559
don't know the problems, they don't know nothing about covenant,

471
00:26:02.960 --> 00:26:06.079
so they don't know what they're missing. But it's mine.

472
00:26:06.519 --> 00:26:09.640
God said, I've got this all for you all. Ye

473
00:26:09.680 --> 00:26:13.960
that what labor, all, Ye that labor, all, ye that

474
00:26:14.079 --> 00:26:17.759
put effort in, got this for you and you can't

475
00:26:17.799 --> 00:26:22.079
earn it. No better way than to make sure that

476
00:26:22.359 --> 00:26:25.640
you are doing everything in your power to get to

477
00:26:25.680 --> 00:26:29.079
know God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. And the only

478
00:26:29.160 --> 00:26:31.079
best way you could do it is through his word.

479
00:26:31.640 --> 00:26:34.440
A lot of songs that you hear singing came out

480
00:26:34.480 --> 00:26:38.960
of the Bible. You know, this little light of mind, God,

481
00:26:39.079 --> 00:26:42.839
I feel no ways tired. It's all mine, you know,

482
00:26:43.160 --> 00:26:47.160
just they came out of the Bible, Our Father, hel Mary,

483
00:26:47.640 --> 00:26:51.079
you know it came out of that. So I want

484
00:26:51.119 --> 00:26:53.200
to encourage you. We want to encourage you all. Just

485
00:26:53.279 --> 00:26:56.440
don't give up, and you never stop. That's the beautiful

486
00:26:56.480 --> 00:27:02.079
thing about it. You never stop yearn for God. Get

487
00:27:02.160 --> 00:27:05.440
up with the expectation that I know I don't need anything.

488
00:27:05.720 --> 00:27:08.119
I don't need anything, but I know today He's going

489
00:27:08.160 --> 00:27:10.279
to give me enough the opportunity to do and make

490
00:27:10.319 --> 00:27:13.799
a difference. It was a phone call today to check

491
00:27:13.839 --> 00:27:16.640
on something else, and here we go. I'm on the

492
00:27:16.680 --> 00:27:18.920
phone with this person and they're like, what are you doing?

493
00:27:19.359 --> 00:27:22.079
I know social work, I know what social workers do,

494
00:27:22.160 --> 00:27:25.759
but how do you separate when you're meeting with a client.

495
00:27:25.839 --> 00:27:27.839
And then I went into all of that and what

496
00:27:27.920 --> 00:27:30.519
I explained in my experience and then what I've been through,

497
00:27:31.240 --> 00:27:33.839
and I said, and this person asked me, what's been

498
00:27:33.920 --> 00:27:37.400
your greatest achievement in social work? I said, to advocate

499
00:27:37.440 --> 00:27:41.640
for myself. Here for myself and teach along the way.

500
00:27:41.839 --> 00:27:45.960
Social work teaches along the way as well to the recipient,

501
00:27:46.440 --> 00:27:50.440
to the client, to the audience, to the supervisor, to

502
00:27:50.480 --> 00:27:54.119
the team. We teach along the way as well.

503
00:27:54.319 --> 00:27:54.599
You know.

504
00:27:55.559 --> 00:27:57.839
But I thought about I talked about God, and I

505
00:27:57.920 --> 00:28:00.079
was free to talk about God to this person that

506
00:28:00.079 --> 00:28:02.519
saif they were a person of faith or anything. They

507
00:28:02.720 --> 00:28:05.200
allowed that door to come open and we went on

508
00:28:05.279 --> 00:28:07.240
in and they could say I could tell you a

509
00:28:07.319 --> 00:28:09.759
woman of faith, and I said, yeah, that's all. That's

510
00:28:09.880 --> 00:28:12.319
that's all I need to be remembered as one day,

511
00:28:12.480 --> 00:28:14.599
one time, and Trey, you had to get on in here.

512
00:28:16.160 --> 00:28:21.960
I was driving and I just dropped the twins off

513
00:28:21.960 --> 00:28:25.200
to daycare. And as I'm coming back, this car came

514
00:28:25.200 --> 00:28:27.039
out of this lane. And I think I've shared this

515
00:28:27.119 --> 00:28:29.720
on the on the show before this car came and

516
00:28:29.759 --> 00:28:32.119
he was coming. He jumped out of the turning lane

517
00:28:32.440 --> 00:28:35.359
opposite turning lane, and he said, my lane coming at me.

518
00:28:35.960 --> 00:28:37.720
And all I can say is for God I live,

519
00:28:37.759 --> 00:28:40.799
and for God I died. And he actually just went

520
00:28:40.839 --> 00:28:43.279
over the bumper and stuff and went into another thing,

521
00:28:43.640 --> 00:28:45.640
so I know it was an angel's pushing the car.

522
00:28:46.160 --> 00:28:49.480
And so I got home and I only knew about

523
00:28:49.480 --> 00:28:51.079
three or four people that were at home during the

524
00:28:51.119 --> 00:28:53.200
day during that time. So I called him. I said,

525
00:28:53.200 --> 00:28:55.640
if I were to die tomorrow, if I was to

526
00:28:55.680 --> 00:28:59.440
die today, what would be your memory of me? They're like, what? What?

527
00:28:59.440 --> 00:28:59.920
What? Everything?

528
00:29:00.039 --> 00:29:02.640
All right, everything's fine. Just answer the question what would

529
00:29:02.680 --> 00:29:04.440
be your memory? And don't think about it too long?

530
00:29:04.480 --> 00:29:06.319
But what would be your memory of me? And I

531
00:29:06.400 --> 00:29:09.839
wasn't as deep as I am now. Wasn't as deep spiritually.

532
00:29:09.880 --> 00:29:12.039
But I was on my journey and I was running.

533
00:29:12.359 --> 00:29:16.000
And that person said, well, of course your belief in God,

534
00:29:16.400 --> 00:29:18.920
you know your relationship with God. Call another person. I said,

535
00:29:18.960 --> 00:29:21.680
what would be your memory of me? Oh? My god,

536
00:29:21.920 --> 00:29:24.759
I'm just just knowing that you you know, you are

537
00:29:24.839 --> 00:29:29.359
living epistol for God. Your faith is just it exudes.

538
00:29:31.039 --> 00:29:33.000
Called the third person, and they said the same thing.

539
00:29:33.440 --> 00:29:36.119
So I said, okay, see Satan, I said, for God

540
00:29:36.119 --> 00:29:38.319
I live and for God I die. So let me

541
00:29:38.359 --> 00:29:39.720
tell you the next time you want to get your

542
00:29:39.759 --> 00:29:42.400
little fools to try to come for me, even if

543
00:29:42.400 --> 00:29:45.599
I die, my legacy is in place, and the legacy

544
00:29:45.680 --> 00:29:48.559
is the Lord is God. And I tell people, don't

545
00:29:48.599 --> 00:29:50.680
if something happens to me, don't you be mad at God.

546
00:29:50.799 --> 00:29:53.039
Just be happy for me. I made it in because

547
00:29:53.079 --> 00:29:55.559
you know I'm heaven boy. But there are times You've

548
00:29:55.559 --> 00:29:57.799
got to talk to the atmosphere and say, no, I'm

549
00:29:57.799 --> 00:29:59.920
not gonna be moved like this. I'm not gonna be

550
00:30:00.079 --> 00:30:03.519
swayed like this. I'm not going there like this. You

551
00:30:03.559 --> 00:30:07.519
can't move me. He took. When Jesus died on the cross,

552
00:30:08.400 --> 00:30:10.720
he hung his head and he said his last thing

553
00:30:10.799 --> 00:30:13.240
he said, Father, forgive them, for they know not what

554
00:30:13.279 --> 00:30:14.680
they do. And the second to that, and the last

555
00:30:14.680 --> 00:30:17.400
thing he said, into your hands, I commend my spirit.

556
00:30:17.920 --> 00:30:21.119
And but on his way in between he went to

557
00:30:21.160 --> 00:30:24.480
hell and grabbed the keys of death, and he took

558
00:30:24.519 --> 00:30:27.799
the sting out of death and the pain out of

559
00:30:27.839 --> 00:30:31.799
hell or dying, death and dying, and then he went

560
00:30:31.839 --> 00:30:34.519
on to heaven. Then he came back and showed himself

561
00:30:34.519 --> 00:30:38.319
to some of his disciples. He took the sting out

562
00:30:38.319 --> 00:30:41.279
of death. So that's why when death do come now,

563
00:30:41.279 --> 00:30:42.880
I don't talk about a lot of people right now

564
00:30:42.960 --> 00:30:45.680
talking about going to heaven and dying because they are

565
00:30:45.680 --> 00:30:48.079
tired of this world. And I get it, they are tired.

566
00:30:48.160 --> 00:30:50.880
I mean it can make you like, oh, how much more?

567
00:30:51.319 --> 00:30:53.599
But there's some other promises out there that I want

568
00:30:53.720 --> 00:30:56.759
to live and be a part of. Even after despite

569
00:30:56.799 --> 00:31:00.480
the darkness that's on the earth, despite the turbula, it's

570
00:31:00.759 --> 00:31:05.000
despite the hate, despite everything, all the negativism, the inflation,

571
00:31:05.200 --> 00:31:08.000
all this stuff coming out, there's still there's something on

572
00:31:08.039 --> 00:31:10.279
the other side of that. I will always remember you

573
00:31:10.359 --> 00:31:12.599
teaching us how it feels to do and look out

574
00:31:12.640 --> 00:31:15.079
for others. You made a change in us. Thank you, missy,

575
00:31:16.160 --> 00:31:20.000
thank you, thank you and see us. That's why I say,

576
00:31:20.039 --> 00:31:22.359
how did it feel when you did it? When you

577
00:31:22.400 --> 00:31:25.519
did it? Did it feel? And that stage of feelings

578
00:31:25.519 --> 00:31:28.359
will stay with you longer, just as long as a memory.

579
00:31:28.599 --> 00:31:31.599
And just to show that you can do it, go ahead.

580
00:31:31.599 --> 00:31:34.640
One thing that it stands out, you know what one

581
00:31:34.759 --> 00:31:37.000
one phrase made the work I've done speak for me.

582
00:31:37.599 --> 00:31:40.319
So you know, I know when I leave this.

583
00:31:40.359 --> 00:31:44.880
Earth that hopefully I have made a difference, made a

584
00:31:44.920 --> 00:31:45.880
difference somewhere.

585
00:31:46.079 --> 00:31:48.200
You know, I believe I have. But you sometimes you

586
00:31:48.240 --> 00:31:50.720
never know how you impact people.

587
00:31:51.240 --> 00:31:52.839
But you know, I know there have a lot of

588
00:31:52.839 --> 00:31:56.960
people that have impacted me or or influenced me. And

589
00:31:57.400 --> 00:32:00.680
I'm not saying all of it was positive. It was

590
00:32:00.720 --> 00:32:03.240
a lot of positive, but there was some negative too

591
00:32:03.359 --> 00:32:07.079
that helped to help me to grow and to discern

592
00:32:07.200 --> 00:32:09.519
what types of persons that I'm dealing with.

593
00:32:09.960 --> 00:32:11.640
And so people will show you who they are. They

594
00:32:11.640 --> 00:32:16.440
don't have to tell you. You around the s they'll definitely

595
00:32:17.279 --> 00:32:19.039
yeah I know, and they'll show you who they are.

596
00:32:19.200 --> 00:32:22.559
So but I'm very fortunate and I feel very blessed

597
00:32:22.720 --> 00:32:27.720
to have a strong support, a circle of support.

598
00:32:27.440 --> 00:32:28.000
In my life.

599
00:32:28.039 --> 00:32:32.519
That's by blood with you know, without blood. You know,

600
00:32:33.359 --> 00:32:36.519
the relationships that have built, you know, the show.

601
00:32:36.759 --> 00:32:39.400
You know, look look at what you know, rebel.

602
00:32:39.240 --> 00:32:39.319
You.

603
00:32:41.200 --> 00:32:44.440
Pastor you know the followers that are.

604
00:32:44.680 --> 00:32:47.240
Aren't they're part of our you know, our life on

605
00:32:47.240 --> 00:32:51.599
on on life, you know, the streaming, and so it's

606
00:32:51.720 --> 00:32:52.119
just great.

607
00:32:52.160 --> 00:32:56.000
It's just a great feeling to me to be able to.

608
00:32:56.000 --> 00:32:59.359
Get the feedback on you know, how we're doing and

609
00:32:59.759 --> 00:33:01.759
what we have done, because I think that's what God

610
00:33:01.839 --> 00:33:04.440
wants us to do. I don't think He's purposed us

611
00:33:04.440 --> 00:33:07.480
to just sit here and do nothing and only think

612
00:33:07.519 --> 00:33:11.079
about ourselves. And sometimes when you take yourself out of it,

613
00:33:11.200 --> 00:33:13.640
or when I take myself out of it and say

614
00:33:13.759 --> 00:33:16.680
what can I do for others? That is one of

615
00:33:16.720 --> 00:33:19.759
the biggest joys that I get, because if I'm doing

616
00:33:19.839 --> 00:33:25.119
for someone else, it's telling me to recognize my capabilities,

617
00:33:25.720 --> 00:33:26.519
my passion.

618
00:33:27.160 --> 00:33:30.559
You know. It's just it's a good feeling. I tell you,

619
00:33:30.599 --> 00:33:33.119
it's like a natural high off with me.

620
00:33:33.680 --> 00:33:36.880
And you know, something happened today, you know, got a

621
00:33:36.920 --> 00:33:39.960
new client, new family, and it was just great to

622
00:33:40.039 --> 00:33:44.160
see how the parent felt leaving their loved one with

623
00:33:44.799 --> 00:33:49.359
you know, with me, and so you know small to me,

624
00:33:49.559 --> 00:33:52.599
it might be small, but to the families and people

625
00:33:52.599 --> 00:33:56.240
that it could be branded field grandiose. But I love

626
00:33:56.400 --> 00:34:00.359
this this field of human services feel with which is

627
00:34:00.480 --> 00:34:01.000
very broad.

628
00:34:01.039 --> 00:34:04.079
It could be anything. And I think I've been across

629
00:34:04.160 --> 00:34:04.599
the board.

630
00:34:04.720 --> 00:34:08.159
You know homeless women, you know women of master violence,

631
00:34:08.280 --> 00:34:12.880
you know youth groups, you know mental health. It's just

632
00:34:13.000 --> 00:34:16.920
so many things that you can do in this particular feeling,

633
00:34:16.920 --> 00:34:18.000
and I just love it.

634
00:34:18.039 --> 00:34:20.880
And I you know, thank God that I.

635
00:34:20.360 --> 00:34:23.159
Have found my way or find my niche or found

636
00:34:23.159 --> 00:34:24.880
my one of the purposes.

637
00:34:24.920 --> 00:34:26.920
And I know God may have some other stuff for

638
00:34:26.960 --> 00:34:27.360
me to do.

639
00:34:27.400 --> 00:34:31.320
So I'm trying to learn to listen and to understand

640
00:34:31.639 --> 00:34:32.960
who is talking, you know.

641
00:34:32.960 --> 00:34:36.079
As in me, was it him or something else?

642
00:34:36.280 --> 00:34:38.000
And you know, and I know he's not going to

643
00:34:38.079 --> 00:34:40.400
push me to do something that's going to be harmful

644
00:34:40.440 --> 00:34:43.920
to myself or not better man for him, for me,

645
00:34:44.559 --> 00:34:47.639
and not in what he would have me do. So

646
00:34:48.119 --> 00:34:52.400
it's a learning process. But you know, I'm loving to learn.

647
00:34:52.599 --> 00:34:56.480
And it's definitely a different feeling. It's definitely a different feeling,

648
00:34:56.840 --> 00:34:57.159
and you.

649
00:34:57.199 --> 00:35:01.320
Got to want to change. Guys. I'm not We're not

650
00:35:01.360 --> 00:35:03.440
gonna keep talking about it over and over and over again.

651
00:35:03.480 --> 00:35:06.360
You gotta want the change. You got to be fed up,

652
00:35:06.360 --> 00:35:09.079
and that's usually when you've hit that bottom, whatever your

653
00:35:09.119 --> 00:35:11.280
bottom is. I was watching his sister wise. I know,

654
00:35:11.360 --> 00:35:14.079
y'all gonna freak out like you watch that. I don't

655
00:35:14.119 --> 00:35:15.679
know why God had me to watch it. I'm like,

656
00:35:15.719 --> 00:35:18.639
oh God, another here we go, you know, And I'm

657
00:35:18.679 --> 00:35:21.039
watching this, this whole thing. You know, I'm not about

658
00:35:21.039 --> 00:35:23.800
a polygamy and all that kind of nonsense. And I

659
00:35:24.159 --> 00:35:26.800
don't know if anybody watches the show, but one of

660
00:35:26.840 --> 00:35:31.360
the children take their life. And so I'm sitting there watching.

661
00:35:31.440 --> 00:35:35.679
They're doing cameos of everybody, and you. They admit it.

662
00:35:35.880 --> 00:35:37.119
They knew he had a problem.

663
00:35:37.400 --> 00:35:38.360
They admit it.

664
00:35:38.440 --> 00:35:41.039
They thought he had a handle on it. They okay,

665
00:35:41.079 --> 00:35:43.320
in a stage, you know what you're talking about. They

666
00:35:43.400 --> 00:35:46.039
admitted all this. And I'm still waiting. Why did you

667
00:35:46.079 --> 00:35:48.920
leave him alone? Why did you leave him alone? He

668
00:35:49.039 --> 00:35:51.559
started back on stuff? Why did you leave him alone?

669
00:35:52.079 --> 00:35:54.519
One then you say, okay, all of us, we got you. Okay,

670
00:35:54.559 --> 00:35:56.719
you're going there for help, and you have to stay here,

671
00:35:57.039 --> 00:35:59.159
and we're gonna monitor you. We're gonna make sure, because

672
00:35:59.199 --> 00:36:00.960
we love you that much. Oh, you could tell me

673
00:36:01.000 --> 00:36:03.400
it was a great person. But why didn't you stay

674
00:36:03.400 --> 00:36:07.480
on him? He cried loud enough. I didn't watch it serious,

675
00:36:07.480 --> 00:36:09.119
you know, every every day and all that, every time

676
00:36:09.159 --> 00:36:11.480
you air, But it was just crucial times that he

677
00:36:11.480 --> 00:36:13.239
would let me. It just happened to be on it.

678
00:36:13.360 --> 00:36:21.280
Nothing else is on but the news. Oh and I'm like, what, Yeah.

679
00:36:20.920 --> 00:36:24.119
I think too, Maybe from your standpoint, he says, it's

680
00:36:24.119 --> 00:36:27.880
the social work side, because let's, let's face it, in

681
00:36:28.320 --> 00:36:30.960
the work that more so, maybe in the work that

682
00:36:31.079 --> 00:36:34.400
you do, the therapy pieces.

683
00:36:34.400 --> 00:36:36.079
You said, well, we watched the show.

684
00:36:36.280 --> 00:36:39.440
Half behind him he passed twenty three four. Okay, all right, Charles,

685
00:36:39.440 --> 00:36:40.880
thank you.

686
00:36:41.760 --> 00:36:46.199
But I think the social work piece because you're always

687
00:36:46.239 --> 00:36:49.920
working with people and they're you're likely to and you're

688
00:36:50.079 --> 00:36:54.760
likely to encounter someone in similar situations. So I think too,

689
00:36:54.880 --> 00:36:59.440
it's a learning try to grasp some of it. Reality TV,

690
00:37:00.840 --> 00:37:05.599
you know, some stuff is probably real, some stuff has probably.

691
00:37:05.239 --> 00:37:07.639
Make sure you know the ratings, and there's so many

692
00:37:07.760 --> 00:37:08.360
out there.

693
00:37:09.039 --> 00:37:11.639
That's like even with Facebook sometimes I just follow stuff

694
00:37:11.760 --> 00:37:12.760
just to see where people.

695
00:37:13.239 --> 00:37:15.719
What are they thinking, what are they doing, what's going on?

696
00:37:15.800 --> 00:37:19.519
In life because who knows, God might purpose me to

697
00:37:20.000 --> 00:37:22.920
make a difference or impact in that particular area.

698
00:37:23.480 --> 00:37:23.639
Now.

699
00:37:23.639 --> 00:37:26.599
I don't do a whole lot of reality shows.

700
00:37:26.519 --> 00:37:26.960
You know how.

701
00:37:27.920 --> 00:37:29.360
You know they're out there.

702
00:37:29.480 --> 00:37:31.960
But when it gets the fussing and the fighting and

703
00:37:32.039 --> 00:37:36.760
the I can't take my mind there. It's too much

704
00:37:37.639 --> 00:37:41.000
and I don't want it to be bogged on my

705
00:37:41.079 --> 00:37:45.400
mind to be bogged down with stuff that. Yeah, I

706
00:37:45.480 --> 00:37:48.000
just can't there. And I know it's a lot of entertainment.

707
00:37:48.039 --> 00:37:51.199
I've seen it, said why are they doing this?

708
00:37:51.639 --> 00:37:53.079
You know what? Why?

709
00:37:53.239 --> 00:37:56.920
But unfortunately a lot of that happens right there in

710
00:37:57.000 --> 00:37:59.599
real life. And I think when people see that, they

711
00:37:59.679 --> 00:38:01.960
are soociate their lives with that.

712
00:38:02.159 --> 00:38:03.320
This is what it's supposed to.

713
00:38:03.320 --> 00:38:07.000
Be to be, uh, a person in business or a

714
00:38:07.039 --> 00:38:10.280
person in color of business, or a person that's doing this.

715
00:38:10.400 --> 00:38:12.920
You're supposed to look this way, you're supposed to act

716
00:38:12.960 --> 00:38:15.960
that way. And you know, and I'm thinking, oh my gosh,

717
00:38:16.000 --> 00:38:19.079
really it's just too much for me. I can't do

718
00:38:19.119 --> 00:38:22.679
all that yelling, fussing, fighting. When I see reels and

719
00:38:22.719 --> 00:38:25.199
I see people taping, I said, oh, why are they

720
00:38:25.280 --> 00:38:28.159
doing that? Because there's so much stuff behind that people

721
00:38:28.239 --> 00:38:31.280
now think you you actually become a witness when you

722
00:38:31.320 --> 00:38:34.800
start taping things. And and I just want to kind

723
00:38:34.800 --> 00:38:37.480
of put this when you when when I start putting

724
00:38:37.519 --> 00:38:42.199
things out like this, when someone is fighting and you're you're, you're,

725
00:38:42.239 --> 00:38:46.800
you're just wailing when they're doing people are taping stuff

726
00:38:46.880 --> 00:38:51.199
happens blows, you can you can bleed internally, you can

727
00:38:51.280 --> 00:38:53.960
hear someone in the head where they develop a swelling,

728
00:38:54.559 --> 00:38:56.960
and and and then you want to say, well, if

729
00:38:57.000 --> 00:39:00.599
something should happen, God forbid, something happens that person that

730
00:39:00.760 --> 00:39:03.800
go to the hospital, it's an assault when they go

731
00:39:03.880 --> 00:39:07.440
to the hospital, but if they pass away, it becomes manslaughter.

732
00:39:08.480 --> 00:39:09.079
Think about that.

733
00:39:09.280 --> 00:39:12.280
You you have to be you have to be very

734
00:39:12.320 --> 00:39:14.599
mindful and and so just to think that you're just

735
00:39:14.639 --> 00:39:18.079
gonna fight and this is gonna happen and.

736
00:39:17.920 --> 00:39:18.960
You're gonna walk it out.

737
00:39:19.280 --> 00:39:23.119
You can do internal damage doing this stuff. And people

738
00:39:23.119 --> 00:39:25.119
that are taping it, they can subpoena.

739
00:39:25.480 --> 00:39:31.079
They can subpoena because of your witness to it.

740
00:39:31.159 --> 00:39:34.599
And so when you're hyping it up, and let's face it,

741
00:39:34.960 --> 00:39:37.159
when people are hyped up, just like when.

742
00:39:36.960 --> 00:39:37.440
You're in a.

743
00:39:37.880 --> 00:39:40.639
Race and you're running or you're in it and people

744
00:39:40.679 --> 00:39:43.559
are calling your name and you're hyped up. You go stronger,

745
00:39:43.800 --> 00:39:45.599
right because you want to win this race, and you

746
00:39:45.679 --> 00:39:46.599
got people.

747
00:39:46.280 --> 00:39:46.880
Back in your up.

748
00:39:47.159 --> 00:39:50.639
It's the same mentality with fighting. You're hearing people are

749
00:39:50.719 --> 00:39:52.840
hyping you up. Come on, you can do this, and

750
00:39:53.480 --> 00:39:57.280
the more they yell to do that, the more intense

751
00:39:57.320 --> 00:39:57.679
to fight.

752
00:39:58.360 --> 00:40:01.639
You know, I'm not trying to families. I've spoken to him.

753
00:40:01.800 --> 00:40:04.719
When you are arguing, When you're arguing with this person,

754
00:40:05.000 --> 00:40:07.039
they raise your voice, yours goes a little higher. And

755
00:40:07.039 --> 00:40:09.039
then when yours goes higher, what do you think the

756
00:40:09.079 --> 00:40:10.880
other person is going to go higher?

757
00:40:10.920 --> 00:40:13.199
So it intensifies, and.

758
00:40:13.199 --> 00:40:17.360
So people don't people don't under understand their thought and

759
00:40:17.400 --> 00:40:21.920
the concept of the consequences for some things like that,

760
00:40:22.280 --> 00:40:23.039
and you get.

761
00:40:23.920 --> 00:40:26.440
Too much all it back, you get so riled up,

762
00:40:26.639 --> 00:40:28.719
and that adrenaline gets to going. I ain't mean to

763
00:40:28.800 --> 00:40:33.159
cut you off, but yeah, I'm not. I've watched people

764
00:40:33.360 --> 00:40:36.440
just go straight up and I'm like, you don't even

765
00:40:36.480 --> 00:40:39.880
and they can't. They can't even here, they can't even hear.

766
00:40:40.360 --> 00:40:44.280
They can't. But going back to the show, one thing

767
00:40:44.360 --> 00:40:48.079
that just really surprised me and made me have to

768
00:40:48.119 --> 00:40:51.480
go back and think apparently he was having issues from

769
00:40:51.519 --> 00:40:54.719
twenty twenty when the world shut down, and that's when

770
00:40:54.719 --> 00:40:57.679
they noticed some things. The bay that pass served in

771
00:40:57.719 --> 00:41:00.840
the US military. It was sad to hear happened. He

772
00:41:00.920 --> 00:41:04.079
was young. Yeah, oh yeah, yes, right, he did serve

773
00:41:04.159 --> 00:41:06.159
in the military. That got me. I was like, wait

774
00:41:06.159 --> 00:41:09.679
a minute. But the fact that they related went back

775
00:41:09.719 --> 00:41:11.679
to said that you know, he's been having this, you know,

776
00:41:11.840 --> 00:41:14.719
since twenty twenty. And I'm like, since the world shut down.

777
00:41:15.079 --> 00:41:17.440
Then I started thinking about the people who did hurt

778
00:41:17.480 --> 00:41:20.800
themselves during that time and since that time, and people

779
00:41:20.840 --> 00:41:24.280
are still reeling from that. We're in twenty twenty down.

780
00:41:24.760 --> 00:41:27.880
Yeah, people that just don't know how to and plus

781
00:41:28.119 --> 00:41:32.119
what to look for. It's almost like something creeping on

782
00:41:32.320 --> 00:41:33.079
up on you.

783
00:41:33.440 --> 00:41:36.280
It's almost like eating and I use me.

784
00:41:36.800 --> 00:41:39.440
Sometimes you can just get to the point where how

785
00:41:39.480 --> 00:41:40.199
do I get this big?

786
00:41:40.239 --> 00:41:41.760
Well, when you keep doing this.

787
00:41:41.639 --> 00:41:45.280
And doing it's subtle because you don't recognize it, and

788
00:41:45.320 --> 00:41:48.000
then when it's there, it's like, Wow, how did I

789
00:41:48.039 --> 00:41:50.639
get to this point? With the mental health, some people

790
00:41:50.679 --> 00:41:53.360
don't know what to look for, you know, some people

791
00:41:53.360 --> 00:41:59.199
don't understand it. And so the more you educate yourself

792
00:41:59.199 --> 00:42:02.239
on and ironically we're talking about it because there's Mental

793
00:42:02.239 --> 00:42:05.639
Health Awareness Month. Look up some information for you, not

794
00:42:05.760 --> 00:42:09.280
if nothing for anybody else, for yourself recognizing triggers. And

795
00:42:09.360 --> 00:42:13.199
if you're feeling a certain way and it's lasting longer

796
00:42:13.400 --> 00:42:15.400
or you never felt that way.

797
00:42:15.360 --> 00:42:18.719
Please just get some help. Just talk to somebody.

798
00:42:18.760 --> 00:42:21.960
Just get some help, trusted person, something like that, you know,

799
00:42:22.159 --> 00:42:23.480
because it can't.

800
00:42:23.199 --> 00:42:23.960
Sneak up on you.

801
00:42:24.480 --> 00:42:28.840
And the thing about with with with depression or whatever

802
00:42:29.000 --> 00:42:30.519
it can you can do.

803
00:42:30.559 --> 00:42:32.920
It can just do the snap at one point you

804
00:42:33.079 --> 00:42:34.679
just you know, I'm just tired of I'm just tired.

805
00:42:34.719 --> 00:42:38.079
I'm just gonna go. Yeah, there's no way out, and

806
00:42:38.159 --> 00:42:39.159
it's the only way I see.

807
00:42:39.840 --> 00:42:44.000
And again, people don't hurt themselves when they're at their lowest,

808
00:42:44.000 --> 00:42:46.239
and when they're really depressed and they don't cry and

809
00:42:46.280 --> 00:42:50.079
they crying and they don't hurt themselves. Then it's when

810
00:42:50.119 --> 00:42:53.679
they're on an upbeat when they will be friendly with you.

811
00:42:53.840 --> 00:42:56.280
They'll be on the phone with you. And and you know,

812
00:42:56.360 --> 00:43:00.519
look at Anthony Bourdain, the famous food critic, just got

813
00:43:00.559 --> 00:43:04.039
the contract with Netflix, you know, just got the and

814
00:43:04.079 --> 00:43:06.360
he's in the in the room and he goes in

815
00:43:06.400 --> 00:43:09.559
his room with the family there, the lady who in

816
00:43:09.639 --> 00:43:12.840
New York, the handbag designer goes in the room, the

817
00:43:12.920 --> 00:43:16.599
family's there, and then so they they it's not when

818
00:43:16.599 --> 00:43:19.639
they're really sad and cry and no, those are not

819
00:43:19.760 --> 00:43:22.800
the times. The time is when okay, wait a minute now,

820
00:43:23.079 --> 00:43:25.360
they're pushing you off. Oh I'm okay, I'm gonna go

821
00:43:25.400 --> 00:43:26.800
do this and do this, and you know, I'm gonna

822
00:43:26.800 --> 00:43:28.400
call you back. I'll call you back a little later. No,

823
00:43:28.400 --> 00:43:30.360
I'm gonna be on the phone where you at, where

824
00:43:30.360 --> 00:43:32.880
you at, you know, what's going on, Just check in,

825
00:43:33.719 --> 00:43:36.599
you know, because those those are those signs. And it's

826
00:43:36.639 --> 00:43:39.440
hard to call it. But going back, circling back to

827
00:43:39.719 --> 00:43:43.760
labor and and and and loyalty again, it's not obligation.

828
00:43:44.320 --> 00:43:48.239
It's not because just because it's not that. It's because I.

829
00:43:48.639 --> 00:43:49.360
Care for you.

830
00:43:49.840 --> 00:43:53.960
I want to do this. I believe this is my passion.

831
00:43:54.440 --> 00:43:56.599
This is what I'm going to do. I enjoy, like

832
00:43:57.039 --> 00:44:00.159
like Trey said, I enjoy doing this. I enjoy what

833
00:44:00.239 --> 00:44:03.400
we enjoy. Our field of choice. It wasn't our choice.

834
00:44:03.440 --> 00:44:07.599
Social work found me, you know, you know, I had

835
00:44:07.599 --> 00:44:09.159
never heard of it. And then all of a sudden

836
00:44:09.199 --> 00:44:11.039
I'm here, you know, I'm hearing about it, and I'm like, oh,

837
00:44:11.199 --> 00:44:13.760
that makes sense. I psyched, you know, major in psych

838
00:44:13.840 --> 00:44:15.880
and so that's the study of the brain and the

839
00:44:15.960 --> 00:44:19.880
human mind. And then his social work, which is you know, sociology,

840
00:44:20.000 --> 00:44:24.840
social welfare, you know, societal issues and ills all combined

841
00:44:24.880 --> 00:44:27.679
in one. So I've got the holistic approach, you know.

842
00:44:28.840 --> 00:44:32.480
But still you got to find yourself in this. Let's

843
00:44:32.599 --> 00:44:35.639
let go of anything else. All that Uncle Joe used

844
00:44:35.679 --> 00:44:38.320
to say to you on or and Kren used to say,

845
00:44:38.440 --> 00:44:40.519
or cousin so on, all of that, You've got to

846
00:44:40.599 --> 00:44:43.840
let that go. You forgive and forget those people. And

847
00:44:43.920 --> 00:44:47.679
now today, let's take today. Let's take today and let

848
00:44:47.760 --> 00:44:50.199
me I'm going forward to be the best person I am.

849
00:44:50.679 --> 00:44:53.400
I am not I'm loyal to God. And with my

850
00:44:53.519 --> 00:44:57.159
loyalty to God, to Jesus Christ, and to the Holy Spirit,

851
00:44:57.400 --> 00:45:01.239
he allows me to be loyal and faithful to those

852
00:45:01.280 --> 00:45:04.800
who He's entrusted me to pray over or to be

853
00:45:04.840 --> 00:45:06.599
a part of their life, or them to be a

854
00:45:06.639 --> 00:45:09.559
part of my life. It's not me. I ain't looking

855
00:45:09.559 --> 00:45:11.840
for friends. Don't mean to let you down, but I

856
00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:15.039
ain't looking for him, I'm not. But if he tells me,

857
00:45:15.159 --> 00:45:17.199
I need you to this, Okay, I need you to

858
00:45:17.599 --> 00:45:19.679
This is the role you'll be, you'll be, This is

859
00:45:19.679 --> 00:45:22.000
what I need you to be doing this season. Okay,

860
00:45:22.079 --> 00:45:25.199
I'm to listen. I'm to listen. I'm to calm down

861
00:45:25.239 --> 00:45:28.239
because my daughter has to lead. We're starting training with

862
00:45:28.599 --> 00:45:32.000
our baby and some intense training. So that means people

863
00:45:32.519 --> 00:45:35.079
and they are all for all walks of life, and

864
00:45:35.119 --> 00:45:38.280
so I wear my mask, but you can see my eyes. Okay,

865
00:45:38.599 --> 00:45:40.719
I'm like, you know, I have to calm it down

866
00:45:41.719 --> 00:45:47.039
that this is for jazz, not for me. Oh no, no, no,

867
00:45:47.679 --> 00:45:51.559
no no. Anyway, We're gonna let you go on that note,

868
00:45:51.920 --> 00:45:55.119
do some homework, look up those scriptures because you know

869
00:45:55.199 --> 00:45:59.280
that define loyalty. That that's just for yourself. We're gonna

870
00:45:59.280 --> 00:46:02.159
see you next week. Pasta should be with us, I'm

871
00:46:02.199 --> 00:46:04.559
not sure, but I know he's having a fun time

872
00:46:04.800 --> 00:46:08.039
with his wife. But anyway, you all be blessed, be safe,

873
00:46:08.519 --> 00:46:12.480
be intentional. Amen. We'll see you next week, same time,

874
00:46:12.960 --> 00:47:02.960
same stay shine right Na