Intl Selfcare Day

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1:18 Oh, good evening, good evening, and evening as always. Welcome, Welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome. I don't want to get over here and do that. Let me go there. Hey, y'all, Welcome back to another exciting opportunity of conversation, dialogue, awareness, enlightenment in the Holy Ghost Way. Thank you, thank you, thank you, good evening, good evening, and welcome to another segment of setting it Straight with mss Gray and her fab co host Ms Trade from Around the Way. Who's just a poem? All away? Hey, sunshine coming through that car there there's a lot of sun out there. Yes it is, and I'm sucking it all in as part of myself here.

2:03 Okay, okay, ain'tmen and ain't man and man? Well, before we go any further, you know, we got to take it to the throne room. Let's go, Father God. We just thank you tonight. We're just so ah wow, life, I can't even you just keep blessing and blessing and blessing. The overflow is clear that the favor is fair, and we just thank you. We thank you. We thank you for being there when we least expected, for being with us, for embracing us, for loving us unconditionally, for giving us peace that pass it all understanding. But just saying, you know, you're okay, and you're mind. She's mine, she's mine, she's mine.

2:44 We just thank you God. We don't deserve it at all, but we just humble ourselves as we bow our hands, we close our eyes, and we tap into you. Now we're gonna lean in tonight, Lord, We're gonna listen in, Father God, because our viewers are gonna be talk and tonight to us. Even the more and ever the more I rebuke the devil. Right now, I rebuke illnesses, disease, disorder, displeasure in the name of Jesus no more. We don't need you anymore. The Chosen are here. We are rising up and we're taking our place accordingly. Now, Father, as we lean in, we're gonna get behind the cross, and we listen. As we listen in to the rules and regulations, direction stops, the goes. Whatever it is that you have for us tonight, you have our undivided attention and the matchless, magnificent, mighty name of Jesus. We pray, amen and amen. Now I'm gonna do a disclaimer here. When I say matchless, mighty and magnificent. That comes from Pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell out of Atlanta. He ends his prayer with that, or begins his prayer with that. I love it, and I got it from him, So I'm not that bright. All right, We need everybody to check it in. Come on clock on the end. I know we got some a couple of eyes out there. And if you don't acknowledge, good evening, Mickey, thank you. You don't acknowledge yourself, Oh the Lord will acknowledge you. I promise you that. So first I want

4:14 to apologize. I go back and I look at the show, at the podcast, and what I'm looking for, is my tics, my movements that are unnecessary. Last week, I was trying to get things on my phone. So when you see me do this, I'm referencing my phone. I'm trying to make sure I'm giving you exactness, whether it's the title of the show, whether it's scripture, like tonight, I'm going to go with some scripture. So I'm litt You know, I did not like what I saw. And I know y'all love us so much you wouldn't dare tell us. But I'm exposing myself. You know. If i feel like I'm getting sleepy, which thank god I don't ever do to my knowledge, I'm not gonna sit up here, and you know I'm not closing my eyes because I know we're heading for another it's been raining and stuff and rain.

5:00 I can sleep standing up. Literally, I can sleep and talk to you in my sleep if you don't cut the lights on. Okay, So I apologize if it looks like I'm fidgeting, I'm moving too much. I don't mean any harm. I don't have tics. I rebuked that with myself. I just I'm looking at my phone and making sure i'm referencing things correctly, because I don't want to give you any misinformation. Okay, so please forgive me for that. If I'm scratching my scalp, if I thank god, I don't pick my nose, if I'm doing my ear, please, there's no class on the proper etiquette of doing a podcast or having FaceTime. There's no proper there's no class.

5:41 They don't tell us. We just hop on and we go and we are gone. I think one day I'm going to do that. I mentioned that once before over the last four years. I think I may take it upon myself, but I may not be a good example. So all right, now come on, I know, Knoxville, Mississippi, Washington, come on now, come on, Florida, Palm Beach, Orlando. I know you're listening. I know you're listening, and you're going to really be told some things tonight. Tonight today we are celebrating international self care, just being human. Yeah, Anastasia, I am, but you know it's just not a good look, and I didn't like it, I really like. So please forgive me again if I distracted anybody, because I know if it was me, I'd be like, what is she looking at? You know? Stuff?

6:26 She's not listening. She tells us to listen, but she's not listening. So I have a right to be called out. I come before the believers, and I always acknowledge my fault. Okay, so I pray you're all both always beautiful, all Anastasia, I bet you say that. I bet you say that, but we thank you so much for that. So, as I was studying my word, you know, every morning, as I've told you all before, I find a scripture and I recited one hundred times. Well, as I was doing that, then I go and out, I do my jigsaw puzzle on my iPad, and I have to. Now I'm finishing a whole puzzle. If it's less than ten pieces, fifteen pieces, I'm finished. I'm just getting a kick out of that, like I can, you know, do that, and stuff like that.

7:14 So I'm listening to YouTube and I'm following up a pastor or new pastor, and he can't. He was talking about the fact that you know he's the type of pastor. Now you know he's going to tell you the unadulterated truth. You don't have to like him. He's not here to be liked. And I was like, oh, that sounds kind of familiar. So you know, Ray doesn't know anything that I'm going in this direction. But God told me I need to share the scripture with you all because there's a reason why we do what we do. There's a reason why we're passionate about souls. We're passionate about the chosen. Like I said, you know, my last my my biggest thing has been my mantra has been I'm going after the chosen that don't know their chosen. Why. Well, for some reason, One reason I think is because I didn't know I was chosen. No one ever told me that.

8:05 Only God his voice said you are chosen. You're my child, and I've chosen you for such a time as this. No man, woman, nobody, prophetic, nobody ever said that to me. Everybody could look at me. I can look at people, and I can tell when you're chose, if you're chosen. This is just a gift God gave me. You can't turn it on. I can't turn it on when it's needed, it comes through. But let me tell you our mission. Because I know, you know, I've lost some people because they said that I sounded like I was, you know, being bad, and you know, you know, inciting pain or something. I can't even remember the wording. But nevertheless, let me tell you why I do what I do. And it's in the Bible, and I'm gonna lean over and read it to you, okay, so bear with me. It could be found in the book of Ezekiel, the Wheel in the middle of wheel. You know that fella Ezekiel, chapter three, and it's ezekiela speaking. So check this out. And it came to pass at the end of seven days that the word of the Lord came unto me, saying, son of Man, I have made thee a watchman unto the house of Israel. Therefore hear the word of my mouth and give them warning from me. This is God speaking to Ezekiel. When I say, unto the wicked, thou shalt surely die, and thou grievest him, not warning nor speakers to warn at the wicked from his wicked way to save his life. The same wicked man shall die in

9:35 his iniquity, But its blood will I require at Thine hand. Let me stop right there. Yes, you heard it, God is saying. From my servants who know my voice, who follow my voice. If I go it if I send you into a community or into a population, into the lion's den and with a word from the people for the people, and you fail because you're scared, because you're you know, you don't want to ruffle feathers. You don't you know, don't you want people to like you and all that that prophecy. Let me tell you real ministry is not for the popular. I'm gonna tell you that right now. You try to go for popularity. You're trying to you know, I know people are using those shares and the likes and stuff. But I'm telling you, at the end of the day, a real child of God that's walking this out, you ain't any for them. You can't be any for the for the friends and all that. No, no, unless God sends them. I've got a T shirt and my T shirt line this in the end time journey ain't for the week because of what the call is on our life and your life as well. If you are a believer, let's go to the word. Yet, if thou warned the wicked, and he turned not from his wickedness, nor from his wicked way, way, not ways way, he shall die in his iniquity, But thou hast delivered your soul, thy soul. You tell them and you walk away. Now, I've had some colleagues out there and that's all. That's the best name I could give them that. You know, they try to tickle it or whatever, and then they

11:08 always quick to come back. Well, I told you, Remember I told you, Remember I told you? Didn't I tell you? And I'm so glad that ninety nine point nine percent of any message I give to anyone, even on this podcast, God makes sure that I forget it because I cannot lay claim to it. I have several students over the years that once we became real quitted. Ms. Greg you remember ten years ago, twelve years ago, you said, And I'm like, I'm still stuck. Good evening teaching is that's the word? Thank you? Elda kay I was like, wait a minute, hold, hold on a minute. I've known you for ten years. I'm stuck right there, and no, I don't remember the message. I have a cousin I love him to death. Is he and his wife. They were traveling and the Lord had me to call them and give them a word for one of their grandkids or their future grandkids or something. The grandkids had not nobody had announced that they were pregnant. And I gave it words and it wasn't even twenty minutes later they pulled over. They called me back then and they said, what did you say? And I said, I'm so sorry.

12:09 This is the last word came out of my mouth. It left, it left. I don't have an archive unless God tells me to write it down, and he's never told me to write it down. Okay, let's go back to the word tray. You want to say something there, No, I'm just taking it all in. Oh yeah, see, yeah, this is yeah. You need to learn this for yourself because you have to give You have to tell the clients what it is. We have to tell the that's what we have to tell the client, the truth, and you know, and tell the parent or tell the loved one or the family. No, I'm sorry, I can't do the confidentiality. I can't tell you about the treatment plan, I can't tell you what. Well, I'm just a I can't talk to you. Well, I'm gonna sue you. Well, go right ahead, let's go. But I'm gonna bring the confidentiality into court with me. And the last time I checked is about this thing. Okay, good stuff to take in for sure. Yeah, thank at yours's good to see you. Here we go again. When a righteous man, Joe, do not turn from his righteousness, Oh, I'm sorry. When a righteous man do turn from his righteousness and commit iniquity, This is on us now. And I lay a stumbling block before him. He shall die because he has not given him warning. He shall die in his sin, and his righteousness, which he hath done, shall not be remembered. So those of you who are doing good deeds, you tell you think you're doing this good deed thing, but yet you're sinning, you're stealing, you're lying.

13:35 But yeah, you're good at the church, you're a good usher. I go to church every time the door is open. But you cuss and talk about people Sunday, Monday through Saturday, and you don't repent. You don't think that's that's wrong. Okay, here you go. When a righteous man do turn from his righteousness and commit iniquity, And I lay a stumbling block before him, he shall die because he is thou hast not given him warning. He shall die in his sin, and his righteousness, which he's done, should not be remembered. Heaven won't remember you your good deeds at the church. You got to ride it out for the long haul. Okay, Uh, but it's blood will I require at your hand. Now, I'm gonna use Elder K for example. But she you know, we talked all you know outside the church, everything you know.

14:23 If I if God gives me a word, I'm praying, really minding my own business. And then God interjects and say, I need you to call K. First of all, when he calls her about her government name. When they call you by your government name or it's yeah with me, if it's coming through me from he's using me, it's usually not too good. It's really not too good. If I don't pick up the phone. Now check this out. Your delay can be counted against you too. And I'll share another story I've shared with you all. But if I text Elder K, God told me to call her. He didn't tell me to email her. He didn't tell me to send a pigeon. He didn't tell me to text her. He said I said to call okay, And I'm like, oh, oh, okay. And I called. She don't have answer. I mean sitting there and tell Kay told me, and she go back out and do whatever she want to do. God's like, oh, you're good because I told you did what I told you to do, and I kind of shared with you all over the years. And I'm not bragging at all. Because this faith walk eight for the week, it is. All you want is well done daily from God. You don't want to be on your sick bed, your deathbed. You don't want to be having you watch your car get repossessed, the house be repossessed, your husband re repossessed or possessed you. You don't want to wait until then to repent. You don't want to wait until then to hear God say well done. I want him to say well done every day. Now. That's

15:54 just me. That's just me. I need to know God, and I repent it so many times that day I had to repent. I woke up with things on my mind. God, please forgive me, and I pray that I did well today even though I didn't leave my house and I talked to very few people today, I pray that I did well in your sight. Let's go through the word a little bit more. Now, a little bit more. Nevertheless, if you want, Okay has delivered my soul and the hand of the Lord was upon me, was there upon me, and he said, arise, go forth into the plane, and I will talk, and I will there talk with thee. Now, a lot of times I know people the biggest thing is going into your prayer closet. And I know people that literally use their closet as a place of prayer.

16:40 And that's fine if that works for you. But you want to make sure that your prayer, as your prayers are leaving your mouth, rising up to the ceiling in your house, that they're going beyond the ceiling and arriving in Heaven at Jesus' feet. You need to be consistently praying. I have learned so many things over the years. If I know somebody I want to get a new car, and I know somebody's got car troubles, I'm not gonna pray for me to get a new car. I'm praying for them. Lord bless them, give them the car that they desire, make sure it could get them to point from point A to point B. When the twins were in school and they had to take the f cat we took, they took a teaspoon of honey, and we pray for every kid, every classmate in their class to pass, not just them, and they were in two separate classes.

17:31 So we're praying for every classmate to pass and do well on the FCT. That's a nice little secret, nice little jewel. For what you want, Find somebody else who wants the same thing, and pray for them. Come into agreement with them. Will you pray for if you pray for me for that, I'm gonna pray. I'm a likewise pray for you for that same thing. I'm winking at you. For those of you on radio, I'm winking, yeah, God, watch what God will do. So again, Ezekiel. He just came out of praying and fasting seven days, not talking to anybody. Then the Lord's speak. Second Chronicles, Chapter one, Solomon comes out of the castle. He's walking that Some of the townspeople are walking because they're like, where's he going.

18:14 He's by himself. The soldiers are probably with it, and he's walking, walking walker. Then he stops. He considers an area. He lays down his seed, offering of ten thousand shekels. He prays, and just a few minutes later, the Lord appears. It's already evening, the sun has gone down, and all of a sudden, God said, Solomon, what can I do for you? So you heard the song. He may not come when you want him, but he's always on time because why he created this masterpiece, he created this landscape. He's the author and the finisher of our faith. You really need to stop saying all these antidotes until you understand what that means. He is the alpha and the omaker.

18:55 He's the beginning and the end. I have added he does very well with the end between. That was me. That's not scripture, because hey, God shows up and blows me away with the end between while I'm waiting for the finish. And sometimes he shows up before the beginning with his blessings, his miracles. Okay, So I just wanted to and I know next month I'm gonna go into more and some more spiritual things too. But I want you to understand the weight on us, The weight w E I G H T on us those who believe, those who are striving every minute of the day to be better for him. That weight is on us if we don't deliver the right word. If God tells me to call and I think trade could be a witness to this. There have been times I have called her say trade to the Lord, said, you know, take it to the God. Don't be mad at me. I don't know nothing that she's going and going through unless you tell me. And let me give you another hint. Most of the time, that's not what God's talking about. That's not gonna be the message my baby sister. You y'all, y'all have met her, she's been on the show. We were just talking casually. I think it was last year sometime, and I said, are y'all getting a new car? So she said listen, hold a minute. So her husband was saying something to her, and she said, okay, you need to stop talking about a car. I said, why, I don't know I see a car. I don't. I know you like a four door, but you may need to consider, you know, getting you a little suv or something like that. No, I'm not gonna do that. Stop talking because now you

20:26 just my husband just came in and said, I got a ticket off my car. I was like, oh, I we're just asking if I've seen a new car, so maybe y'all need to go get Okay, you got And now to this day she'll say, okay, don't say that. Don't start that. I said, I'm just asking a question. I don't mean any home because most of the time I don't know. Therepen times I don't know. If Trey had experienced this with me, I'll just say I'm just called to see how you doing. And next thing I know, we keep talking for a minute and boom, I'm like, oh, and I'm sitting on the other phone, on the other side of the phone like you know, amen, Amen, crossover, maybe a crossover, Yeah, do a crossover. I was thinking about those this weekend. Oh see, there I go, scratching my scalp. Sorry, guys, but yeah, I think Elda K can witness this. I was on a prayer call with them and we're beginning to pray and I'm not gonna go into personals, but Elder K knows what I'm talking about, because she later that was me. I thank God for you being his humble servant, and I'm praying to him to direct me. I'm waiting for him. There you go, here you go. Amen. See I'm not making this up.

21:36 Mixed between oh yes, I know, Charles, I had to. I have the Renegade, which is a crossover for Jeep it's the baby of the Jeeps too, But then yes, it's And all it is is that it sits a little higher than a car, and it says it's in between a car and an suv. You're off the ground a little bit. For Nissan is Morano. I don't know what it is for Toyo, but I know for Jeep is the renegade, but Nissan is the Morano. All right, So you know you don't nice for Yeah, don't feel sorry for us, because this is we've I chose to serve the Lord. And with that you lose a lot of people. You have family that talk about you like a dog, call you out of it. You go to church and you got people jealous of you, talking about you, don't even know you and put their mouth on you.

22:28 So this is not an easy journey now. If you want to go out there and make friends and be likable, ministry is not for you. Sorry, And I can have some pastors out there they come on and say I'm wrong. Ministry is not for you. If you still have those flesh. You got to be in your flesh a lot of time. You will get your feelings hurt. And God just told you if you don't deliver the word that I told you to say. The blood is on your hands? How do I know this? And this is all about self care, believe it or not, because I got to take care of myself too. If I'm going to Jesus and asking him to heal me every day, he's telling me what I need to do. And it's hard. It's hard. Some things are very very hard. Amen the time that Trade met me, I'm speaking at a women's conference. No one knows me. I think it was I know who recommended me, and I got the opportunity and I went to over Singer Island to join them. For there had no idea what this was about. I did a little bit of research, just a tiny bit, but you know, I'm just knowing so speaking engagement. I don't remember too. The day after what I said, all I know was I was voted in.

23:37 They were having voting as we're trying to eat, and I was voting president of the other women's group. But I'm like, what, wait, No, I don't know anything, and I didn't know anything about domestic violence. And I spoke that, I said, I don't know anything about domestic violence. I don't think I'm the person know you are. Everybody's like, I vote for her. I turned around, like who she talking? Who are you talking about? She'll know you me. No, no, no, no, no no no. Ladies they're like, yeah, and it's not I said no, no, no, no, no no no. I don't know anything about domestic violence. And not even three months later, my former sister in law was involved in a double shooting and was killed and her sixteen year old daughter was and I had to get up. They called me two o'clock in the morning because they lived the sister.

24:22 Her sister lived close to me, and I went over there police. I'm like, what in the world I'm looking for my nephew. Don't ever say what you have never experienced. But thank god, I worked for an agency where we just funded the Grief and Loss Children's Home Society to provide grief camps. And I think they were called Camp Good Grief. Yep, that's it, okay, yep. We provided the funding. We just funded those people, and I was able to tell the victim's advocate that showed up on the scene. I know I could refer to kids, there's a camp and they'll pay for it and it's free. Walking I'm walking human resource here. I've never attended a double funeral. That was my first, and I think that was the only one I've ever regended. It was a double funeral, and I served two years in the room because I'm trying to get out of it. I got the women in Tallahassee at the shelter up there, all trying to get all the positions, all the four caucuses and all that I was standing in their way. And I purposely wore a purple suit, royalty and gold shoe let's go, and still was voted in for another year for the state of Florida. So a lot of things we do we don't want to do. It is not fun being invited to be a guest speaker at a church and to start off by saying, there's a message from the Lord. You're not gonna like it. But my car is still running. I know how to get out, I know how to find my way home. To let them know you can't stop me, I'm gonna say it, and I'm leaving because most of the time, some of

25:55 the messages it's hard to hear. It's hard to hear. I had to tell a female pas so recently, I just don't understand, I said, because they're jealous of you, and I rarely used that word. I said, are you for real? You really think people like you? People don't like you? She said ouch. I said like you, And that's not just giving a word. I'm sitting here, I'm be an interview for my fourth position at the mental health center, and by two supervisors, the one that I would work directly under and her supervisor. And the first day she comes after me, Well, lest I heard you don't like me. I said that Sue, nobody like you. She caught me wrong. She caught me wrong. I said, suit nobody like you. But I'm not going out to lunch with you. You will never come to my house.

26:37 I don't want to come to yours. So the gossip, whatever you hear, ain't nobody like you. We will never go to lunch. But I won't disappoint you. I'm the best team leader you'll have and committed because I love my job and I love my clients. Don't have to love y'all. Second thing, she came after my reputation, Well, you know we're hearing that. You're saying that you got the job, I said, know their people, I worked at three departments. I've been here the longest. The people are congratulate and wishing me well did I get the position because they say I deserve it. I'm not in charge of gossip control. What else do you have to say. I'm waiting for you to attack my work, attack my ability to get the job done, attrack my paperwork and my processing and my progress notes, and attending meetings and being involved in the agency outside of case management.

27:26 What else? Do you know? What that woman said to me? She said, well, you laugh a lot. Do you think your coworkers will take you serious. I said, well, Sue, they take you serious, and you don't laugh at all and need to do you, Claudia, So now you know what you're getting. Because at this point I could feel the tears starting to go up the back of my neck. I said, I got to get out of here. These people are long. Statement never questioned me about my work, my integrity, my loyalty, never my relationship with our providers and everything. Never none of that, those three things. They came after me and running me down. I said, all I can promise you, I'm gonna go and talk to God who created me this way because my biological mother said, I never I never cried. I came out gump, toothless and all smiling, eyes wide open.

28:11 So I'm gonna go back at him, my creator, who created me, and I'm gonna talk to him. If he needs me to change, he'll change me. Monday morning, they're paging me, paging me. I'm like, what I'm trying. Well, did you think about what we said about me changing my personality? The fact that I can make people laugh? I make y'all laugh all the time. I said, yeah, I gave it to God. I haven't changed. Well, we'd like to offer you the position anyway. Let me get off of that. Yeah, And I served as team leader anyway. And I could go to my coworkers and tell them, you know you're not pulling your weight. Man, Amen, thank you, Mickey, you know you're not and bury true anisasa there you go. And I could go and tell my coworkers you know you're not pulling your weight. Well you know how it is. No, I don't, No, I don't. So you're on our team.

28:54 I'm the team lead on this. Let's go or there's something going on. I'll get into business. We've got an order coming up. We don't have time for personable and if they pull your files, what they're gonna what are they gonna not find? So this is who I am, guys. This is kind of giving you an idea. Now, y'all can always Hey, the fourth fifth book is out of the hoppers. It went to ebook to get e printed, so that's gonna be. I've got my ISBN number, I've got my copyright. She is going to be ready to be on the scene soon. It's my autobiography and it's all about self care because I'm not gonna lug negativity and heaviness of other folk to my place of peace.

29:37 Not gonna do. Congratulations, Thank you, Tray, and Trey knows me. Trey's known me for a while. So y'all want to call her and ask you know anything on the back end, Go right ahead, go right ahead. Now, I'm gonna say this and the I'm gonna let trade talk for the rest of the time. I need to ask yet, I've got a birthday coming up, and you all know, y'all know the rule. I celebrate the whole month of August, the whole month from the first to the thirty first, And I was minding my own business, and the Lord said to me. Ask the viewers, Ask the listeners, those who've been dedicated, those who've been there with you all through thick and things, those who have shared the show, those who've gone back to reiterate, the take notes, whatever, ask them for a birthday gift. I'm like, okay, God, what a you're talking about? He says, congratulations, Well it's getting there. Elk oh about the book? Oh sorry, yes, thank you? Have you assumed to be birth I'm like, if you all don't mind, and the next week we'll all have our engineer put my my pobox address up on the on the on the ticker there. But if you all wouldn't mind, it's a special year for me.

30:48 It's a non traditional nobody else will celebrate it because what I'm celebrating, it's a special year for me. And I'm asking everybody, if you don't mind, if you could, at some point next month go to the dollar store, family, dollar, dollar General, whatever, a dollar store and pick me out a nice cobared birthday card and don't have to have words in it. You can write something how the show, how setting it straight, the podcast has changed you? Whatever? Or just hey, just praying for you. Whatever you want, you just should write me a little note. You don't have to include no piece of money, no gift card because you got to mail it to me. And I know most of y'all don't have those forever stamps. I would always get the four ever stamps because they're the same price forever. And the post office just went up hears, so I don't know what they're doing in other states states, But if you can send me a birthday card. And I tried this a couple of years ago on Facebook and I got very few. I don't know why. And people think you got when people think you've got stuff and you don't have any worries or not. I'm human ten percent, but I'm human. Do you have a publisher or do you self published? Have you advised for us?

31:55 Have you advised on how to get a book out there? I have a publisher, but I believe because of prices and stuff, if I am to write anything else, which is gonna be some manuals on Kingdom finance and things like that, I'm gonna have to self publish them because these prices are getting really ridiculous and the support is not behind it. But we'll talk about that rebel. I mean, at the stage, I'll bring that up. Well, I'll circle back with that. But if you all would and you don't have to tell me anything now, don't say anything now now for my Mississippi, Louisiana. Good show topic, my my Louisiana. You know, you know my tribe, our tribe.

32:36 There's there's a certain amount of y'all by eighty y'all, you know, together. If you want to get it over to our engineer and she sends it in one package, that's fine. But if you want I'm gonna like I said, and my Tennessee folks, now, Elder k is only going to be you, Elder Jannis, and Elder Dorothy. No one else is. They don't, they don't, they don't care about me. You know, I'm just joking. It would just be the three of y'all, So y'all can sit it in one package. I don't want know everybody trying to scuffle for stamps and stuff like that. All right, but if y'all can send me a birthday card for the month of August this year, I would really appreciated trade. You're up self care what are we talking about? What does that look like? What do we have to do? What are the sacrifices all that good stuff. I'm gonna mute myself.

33:20 Right now, oly Sia, Well, happy birthday coming, oh Charles. That's so self care basically, it could be. It could be different things. So self care can be mentally, emotionally, spiritually, medically, physically, financially, it could It depends on what you're trying to do now. Spiritually, self care first of all is trusting and believing in the Lord that that that's just just recognized, and that God is is all that and bags of chips, not a bag of chips. But God is the go to, the provider, the.

34:13 The answer of all things. And sometimes it's gets difficult, especially when you want God to do something for you, when you're praying for something and it seems like he's not listening. Well, God is very strategic. He knows what he's doing. He set everything in motion, he knows what his plans that he has for us, and so we just have to be patient. Now. So that's the spiritual piece. The self care too is just this could be the financial piece, you know, making sure you have the means to be able to take care of yourself to be able to go to regular checkups if you need to, resources for insurance. It's good idea for show you the help people know the process of books self publishing. People get stuck in the process. He's right, Mickey, Yeah, that is a good thing. Okay, so we'll consider that. But yeah, so you you know, also financially, just making sure you have the means to be able to care for yourself jazz in case, you know, have backups for food, you know, to take care of your basic needs food, clothes, shelter, health.

35:21 Then there's also the mental piece, the mental emotional peace, which which affects it all really because you have to have go in with a positive mindset, like I said, and it all resources back to trust in God. It really goes back to trusting God. And if you're not there yet, please just talk with someone that you trust about what does that mean? Give you some scriptures, give you some feedback, give you some support. I know when I first started in this particular journey, like and I always want to preface that I always believed in God. I always knew there was a God. I knew God was, but I never I think I trust him more because I take less of me out of it, more me out of it, so I could be more of Him, whereas before I would make a split decision without even consulting God. Okay, this is how I'm feeling right now, I'm gonna do it. And I just say, well, God, what is it that you would have me do? What do you see me doing? What is my purpose? How do I talk to you God?

36:24 You know I don't have the words to say, don't I'm not eloquent in my presentation of asking for prayer. But I also learned speaking with Missus Gray and those remember Pastor Miguel and others who are in my corner that support me through this journey. Just have a conversation with God, and it takes a lot of distress away. And sometimes I don't have the words. Sometimes I could be going through something, minds jumble things going on, I said, and I would say, Lord, you know what's going on with me? I don't have the words. I don't know what to say, but I'm coming to you. And Miss Gray always said, take surrender to him. Lord, I surrender to you. I'm open. Just please allow me to hear. But you got to listen, as well, part of praying is not always talking, it's listening. And that's what I had to learn that I don't need to talk all the time to God. I need to listen to see what he's telling me. And I'm trying to get more in the habit of at night before I go to bed and just ask Lord, I want to go.

37:27 To sleep with sweet sleep, sweet rest. I want to make sure that I have good dreams, and please show me, Please reveal to me what it is you want me to do. Please reveal to me what it is you want me to do. And sometimes when I'm up in the night, maybe having to go to the restroom or something three o'clock, like I said, Okay, Lord, I'm up. What is it you will have me do? And sometimes I try not to go right back to sleep because of what my day is the next day. But I try not to go right back to sleep because I want to take that time. Okay, Lord, I'm up. I'm listening. Tell me what it is you would have me do because I don't know. And as long as I depend on him, things go better, and it is more clarity. Right now, I tell you, it's more clarity since last year, I was telling him. Miss Gray I called.

38:13 I said, you know, I'm hearing God more. And when I started on this journey, it was I was frustrated. I said, I don't know if it's me talking and it is God talking. How do I know? And his Gray had to kind of tell me how to distinguish between all of that. She said, you will learn to recognize that. And I'm thinking, now I'm recognizing that and so and I'm not so quick to jump and doing anything when I'm thinking, Okay, I need to do this, and God said, no, I want you to do this first. And it's does it Does that mean you are getting closer to you? Yes? It does. At the station, it does because you have to be vulnerable. You have to be you have to be less of yourself and more of Him because when you start taking over it, that's flash, that's feelings, that's everything.

39:02 And I'm not saying people don't have feelings. But God, you have to rely on him because sometimes we can get in our own way, you know, of thinking something is a certain way and it's really not that. It just presents it that way. You know, if you looking at the sky and so, oh boy, it's a gloomy day. But you're making it a gloomy You're speaking that in existence when it doesn't have to be. So words are powerful, there's power in the tongue, power in the thought. So you don't want to say something and have it come back on you. So I said, oh, this day's going to be a bad day. Well, why you're speaking that into existence? And even though it seems like that, try to be very positive. You know what, it's not my I don't prefer this type of day. But Lord, I know you got me and I know it's going to be a great day.

39:47 Why because first of all, you woke me up to see it. You want me to do something. And so the more you glorify him and recognize what he's doing in you, the better you become. And I'm telling you I'm at a better place. I have a testimony that I think I shared some of it, but one day it's going to come out all the day because let me tell you, there was a time a few years ago that I was in a dark space. It was after my dad, the passing of my dad, and it was a lot of changes happening, and so I had some decisions to make and I reached out to different people and I said, I just don't want to do this. I just don't want to do this. So God made some significant changes to the point, now look at me. I had to make some changes in order to get here, and some things weren't comfortable.

40:35 But God does sometimes put you in uncomfortable positions because why he wants you to come to him. You don't want you to do it on your own, he said, thank you all decay. So he doesn't want you to do it on your own. So once we start doing it on our own, he said, okay, you determined to do it your way, you'll come back and he will lay some stuff on you to you. You were forced to come to him. You're forced to come to him, and sometimes thing can seems so bad that you have to go running to him. And so even though the situation things happened and said, oh I don't want to don't want to shows you are on the right Yes, thank you, mickey. And you know I was led to Christ. I was led to Christ just to believe and trust more in him. And like I said, it's it's a different it's a different path.

41:22 Because I used to say I'm baptized. You know I got a good relationship. Well, yeah, I'm all right, but it's a total difference. And even in my spirit, I feel different and I am different. And ask the question, and. This did not occur in a church, did it? No? It did not know that actually being drawn closer to Christ. No, it did not occur in a church. And just to just to just to be more transparent, it was actually a co worker, a new coworker that I had met, and they discerned right through me. I must have been wearing it, because people say you wear your feelings, and I just was at my wits end.

42:11 I was frustrated, and they said, do you know? Do you know Christ? And all of a sudden he said no, but have you accepted Jesus Christ, your Lord and Sabor? And not him? Than I hard? Not him? Then I cried and I didn't say anything. And after a while, a couple more times I didn't come in this office for that, and I just I just let go and I said, yes I do. And it's been a it hasn't been an easy feat, but now it is. And I could say this is over a couple of years now to this point, I think within the last year, I've gotten a whole lot better. Amen. Yeah, she's used She's used as self care tips.

42:52 You know, faith, faith, self reflection, prayers. That's what we tell you. Go to the scripture. Find yourself in there. You've got a whole lot of ancestors in there. They've gone through a whole lot. You find yourself in these folks. See what they came through. Can you imagine being a Moses? Can you imagine being an esther? You minding your own business, you cleaning up? Here come the soldiers. No, you got to go to the king's court. Let's go. Don't take nothing, don't bring nothing. Let's go. Moses, you got to go. I'm supposed to go. What tell the pharaoh? What let his people go? I'm not excellent of speech, God speaking of excellence of speech, Jeremiah. God's like, why are you sitting outside the gate crying? You're supposed to be in there.

43:36 Can you imagine being some of these people? Paul, even the Disciples, even though they saw the transformation, the Disciples didn't take on Paul. Paul was on his own leading people to Christ, the same people that just weeks prior was killing. And you think you're not worthy. I challenge you on that, because if you're changing, you're changing, and you want to change. You don't like what you see. You on the right road, and this is gonna probably get you. It's been waiting for y'all along. He's been waiting on you all along. Everything you need, everything you desire, everything you want, he already put it in you. But it's been waiting. He's just waiting on you to trust him.

44:17 And with that, we're coming down to that last minute. If you all want prayer, we're praying for you. You don't like the things that you do, repent and repent quickly, find a prayer partner. I guess the God's got me back open for accepting spiritual people again. Spiritual amentees. I just released like thirty and they got to come back. But I'm going after the chosen that don't know they're chosen. You all be blessed. We're gonna see you next week, same time, same station. Assess s