Suicide & Literacy Education Awareness Month

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FORCY Radio. Well, good evening, Good evening, and welcome to another

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segment of Setting It Straight with Miss
Gray. Thank you all for joining us.

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I do know that one of my
co hosts will be joining us shortly,

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but in the meantime we have to
do what we do. Let's take

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it to the Lord in prayer.
Father God, we just thank you and

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we praise you. We give you
glory. God. You are so awesome.

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You are beyond what mankind can even
describe. And I thank you that

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every day, every moment of the
day, every second throughout the day,

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you are present, you are ready, you are available, and you love

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me unconditionally. We love you.
Lord. Now this is your show.

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We are your people. I'm one
of your prize daughters here along with Rebel,

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and we just thank you, Father
God. So we're gonna get behind

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the cross and let you do what
you do best, set your captives free.

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In Jesus name, we pray,
Amen and amen. So I pray

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that everybody has had a RESTful week
here us here in Florida. Have hey

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couz Betty's on. Oh my God, this is an awesome day, awesome

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day, Praise God. But I
know that we've had a challenging week since

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last week, especially those of us
in the state of Florida and those also

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in the other neighboring states with these
hurricanes, you know, going to and

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fro and I understand we have two
more sitting out there. We're not sure

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where everything's going. I also want
to bring to the attention I was just

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I'm just happy to I don't go
looking for news. It finds me.

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And I see in Libya there was
a mass flooding, a mass flooding.

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At old were two hundred people,
two to three hundred. They know we're

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dead, and they're they're already estimating
that another two up to two thousand,

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possibly three thousand people are dead.
There was a mass flooding. I'm not

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sure what triggered it. I don't
know where it came from. But we

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need to just have a moment of
silence of loss. Today marks a day

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of loss, and as of today, there was lost and it continues to

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be lost. So let's have a
word of silence. Please, We're thankful

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to God. We're thankful to God. I'm thankful for you all being here.

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And just it's a heavy day.
It's a heavy day, and yes,

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a natural cleaning, cleansing of the
earth. You're right, we can't

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stop it. And those of us
who've been raised in the church know that

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this is not unusual. But as
God always gently reminds me, he said,

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you've read it, you've studied it. You know for years, you

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just didn't know what it was gonna
look like. You didn't know what the

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rollout was gonna be. You don't
know what the statement the scripture in those

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days was going to look like and
feel like. And that also helps me

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to segue into today. As nine
to eleven, September eleventh, and well

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over twenty some years ago, everybody, anybody that was I would say,

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over the age of twelve when that
event, when the event occurred a natural,

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I mean not natural, a major
major catastrophe, onslaught, murder of

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thousands of people, and people are
still dying from that today because of the

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smoke inhalation and just the hopelessness that
they have felt. I remember it.

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If you're over twelve years old,
I know you remembered, you remembered something.

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You remember somebody talking about it.
I did not have any family or

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friends or anybody that I knew that
was physically there. But I'm telling you

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I will not forget that day.
And then last week, as you all

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know, I'm in school getting my
doctorate, and and uh, we had

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to report about we had to watch
a documentary. And once we watched the

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documentary, it could be a mass
flooding, it could be a hurricane,

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natural disaster. Nine to eleven,
and I chose nine to eleven. And

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I'm not gonna stay on it long
as my cousin today on her show was,

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you know, not wanting to deal
with it, you know, not

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to stay on it too long,
because it's one that could just bring you

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to a place and and you we
don't want you to stay there. We

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open it up, but we're gonna
close it, so bear with me here.

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But I just wanted I feel the
Lord wanted me to share that that

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day for me, I had just
dropped off my son, my oldest son,

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believe he was a third grader at
that point, and I came back

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home to change because I taught on
the college level. So I taught at

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the local junior college in Lake Worth, Florida, and I was getting ready

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for my class. So I was
coming out of the bathroom and I'm fascinating

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my button on my sleeve and I'm
looking at and the TV was on,

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so I'm listening and I happen to
catch it when the first plane flew into

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the building, the first building,
the first tower, and I was like,

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oh wow, what kind of movie
is this? I really thought it

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was a movie and a preview.
I said, I gotta go see this.

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So I sat that on the bed
and then the news anchor is screaming,

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and then all of a sudden,
I saw with the second plane flew

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and I'm like, this is real. So I immediately like, Okay,

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what do I do. I'm here
in Florida. I'm here in Florida,

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and I'm like Okay, what do
we do? And I immediately the spirit

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told me to go to the college. So I went to the college and

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as I'm getting out of the car, here's my class standing outside. I

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running towards me. What do we
do? What do we do? And

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as they were running towards me,
Air Force one was flying over. George

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Bush was heading back to the DC, and I told him, you go

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home, you rest, just rest. I'll see y'all next week. I

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went in to make sure that,
you know, we were supposed to be

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dismissed basically, and that the room
was vacant and stuff. And I ran

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into the janitor and he was locking
up the classrooms. And then I went

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to my son's school and I got
my baby. That's why he can't remember

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anything, because we didn't talk about
it. He didn't even realize my mom's

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coming back to get me. I
ain't been in school for about two hours

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because I didn't want him to feel
anything, you know, I cause I

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didn't know what to do. And
that was a day. Yeah, he

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was here that day. He was
over in Farm Beach, I believe doing

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I don't. That's when the ballots, you know, the ballots was lost

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all kinds of stuff was going on, but yes he was here because I

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saw Air Force one fly over and
I'm like, whoa, it's really real.

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But what brought it back to me
even more was that my assignment I

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had to do last week, I
chose nine to eleven, so I had

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to watch a documentary and I watched
one that was a narrated from a fire

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department, the battalion chiefs perspective,
and they were being filmed because a documentary

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was being made on them that day
by some local NYU students. So that

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particular video is through National Geographic is
the realest one because they were out in

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the street a few miles away from
the towers, but they could look up

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and see the towers. But they
were there to check on an alleged gas

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leak, and they found that it
was leaking on the ground, and so

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all of a sudden, when the
first plane flew over them, they all

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looked up like that's kind of low, and then they went back to,

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you know, trying to figure out
the gas leak, and then that's when

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they heard the explosion. So watching
that and one of my spiritual daughters had

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called to check on me, and
she said, hey, what you're doing.

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I said, I got an assign
I got to watch a documentary on

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not eleven. She said, oh, that's gonna be Oh Monday, I

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said Monday, And I kid you
not. I lost a breath. I

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was like Monday today. And then
on top of that, we've got a

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shooting not too many miles I mean, well a few a couple of hours

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away from he called in a city
called Davenport, at a baby's birthday party

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at an Airbnb. And then we've
got in another country, you know,

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mass flooding where lives have been lost. So my heart and our prayers go

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out to anybody and everybody who has
separate loss. We're gonna take a slow

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turn. And the Lord was talking
dealing with me today, talking to me

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today about the format of the show, and I got to I got to

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share with you all. This may
be the only way I'd be able to

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about trauma informed care, and that's
what my degree is gonna be in.

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But it's it's deep because everybody's gone
through trauma. I don't care who you

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are, if you got a divorce, if you had lost a child,

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if you lost a relative, whether
it was natural loss or or a disaster

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or you know, catastrophic, a
loss of a limb, you've had some

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sort of trauma in your life.
And also tonight we are going to be

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talking about you know, suicide awareness
and literacy. And I thought it was

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so great to combine these two awarenesses
because you do have to be careful how

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you talk to people because you don't
know the backstory. You don't know what

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they're going through. And yes,
right now, unfortunately with high inflation,

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people are not working at these jobs, are not able to hold on to

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their jobs. They're losing their moneys
out of there four on one k they

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you know, they had plans at
their health got of bed, is deteriorating

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all kinds of chaos and havoc on
every hand. So yeah, we don't

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know what you're going through. And
unfortunately you go, you step out of

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your house and you bring all of
that with you. You don't know to

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leave it and say, look,
I gotta go to the grocery store.

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I can't be the aggressive driver out
here. I got to keep I got

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to try to declutter my mind as
long as I'm driving this car. But

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you don't think about that. Several
times this week I could I was almost

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hit and these people are dragging and
drag racing, and and one lady was

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fussing. She had her window but
you could see her moving and she's on

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the phone. She's got the phone
in her hand and she's trying to drive

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with the hand. And I'm looking
at it light. Do you see we're

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at a stop stop, We're to
stop. Like, but you you're so

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involved in this phone. Why can't
you just say let me call you back

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when I get someplace, well,
I can talk to you. I'm so

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sorry that the world has come to
this, but we cannot say that we

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weren't warned. We just didn't know
what it was gonna look like. We

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still one of my prayer points is
those is suicidal ideations and suicidal attempts.

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It still continues to this day,
years later, even after I've gone through

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what I've gone through, it still
continues to be one of my prayer points.

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And everybody, I'm gonna say,
look commercial here, everybody needs prayer

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points. Okay, you need to
be praying about something somebody somewhere else in

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the world, or an issue,
or whether there's plenty to go around.

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There's plenty to go around. You
need. People are suffering somewhere, could

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be your neighbor, could be two
streets over. I also pray for neighborhoods

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because a lot of my work.
Once I'm out of school with my nonprofit,

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I'll be in the neighborhoods. I'm
gonna be out in campusing and doing

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and taking care of my elder looking
in on my elderly people. But everybody

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needs a prayer. Point now,
getting back to people who are having thoughts

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that not being here on this earth
is the best thing for them, I'm

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gonna beg to differ with you.
You are needed in some way, shape

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or form. You are needed,
or you wouldn't have been created. You

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wouldn't be created. So what you
need to do is take a moment as

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you see below. Thank you,
Rebel. You have the suite the National

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Suicide Prevention Hotline. We also have
our care circle. No one's try try

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about. I've got flyers everywhere at
my foot surgeons lobbies around here in Orange

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County. I've talked about it on
the air, I've talked about it on

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all my social media. This is
an opportunity. If this is the care

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circles are for people who just feel
that they don't have anybody to talk to.

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I am governed by law and by
my ethics and morals to be confidential

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and everything that I do. So
this is a place where you could just

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say your name, make up a
name, I don't care. Come on,

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let's talk this through because I'm sure
we can problem solve it. I

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am sure we can problem solve it. You just may not like the answers

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some of the solutions, but trust
me, you cannot be going through something

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that is so horrific where you feel
that just taking my life will end it

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all. You're leaving. You're gonna
leave us in a wonderment, gonna leave

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us like what making us? As
at asking us, making us or having

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us ask ourselves? What could I
have done? What did I miss?

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So here's that opportunity as a as
a confidential anonymous zoom call will be on

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for an hour, a week or
so, or however however long it takes,

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because I'm sure we can whatever the
problem is, let's talk it through.

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If you're ready. If you're ready, because I need one hundred percent

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of your energy or what portion of
energy or percentage of energy you have left,

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give it to us. Get on
you know, contact me vias uh

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my email address, and because keep
it as simple as that, So I

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can have your email address and I'll
send you the zoom link. We'll say,

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I don't care if it's just one
person today, Yes, it's a

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sad day. However, we got
up this morning. If you're watching this

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program, you made it through the
day. You made it regardless of what

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the weather was, regardless of the
news that you heard, regardless is the

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eleventh a few days. Some of
you will get paid on the fifteenth or

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by Friday. You know where that
check is going. You know where those

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bills, what bills have to be
paid. At least you can make a

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decision. If we were to go
to the local hospital, I will find

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I'm sure we will find somebody who
was in a coma who can't make decisions.

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Only speculations are being made in the
best of care. Hopefully is being

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determined and displayed. But you've got
breath in your body. The old saints,

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she used to say, Oh Lord, I thank you. I rose

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up in my right mind this morning. I got activities on my limbs.

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Well, I used to laugh at
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a young adult, and I was
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days, I thought about activity of
my limbs and I couldn't move. So

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you have to be thankful. You
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good somewhere. You've made a difference, and you may not know how or

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when, but you've made a difference. And now it's thundering out there and

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we will build upon that. What
have you done? What is it that

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is needed to be done? God
is separating the weak from the tear,

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whether it's family, friend or so
see, it's co workers, colleagues or

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neighbors. He's separating us right down
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are on and who's on your side. Amen, this is where we're at

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right now. And the strong will
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I just was listening to one of
my one of the comedians, Shula

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King, and he was talking about
Bill Gates has purchased ninety five million dollars

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worth of stock with Budweiser, and
he said, well, there it goes

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to be it for you beer drinkers, there it goes. There's no there's

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no fizz, there's not gonna be
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And you know he's right because once
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don't know what you're gonna be drinking. Now they've got the actual live meat

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grown in the labs now, and
that now I understand that trying to get

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things, our vaccines ready for this
coming Friday. So for those who need

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to run and go do that,
it's gonna be available. But it doesn't.

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Let's let's solve some problems. Can
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issues. Let's forgive one another,
because I can promise you, whoever you're

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concerned about, or whoever's whatever's keeping
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on the other side of that,
they're not losing any sleep. So why

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should you. Let's go back to
the serenity prayer. Amen, Let's go

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back to the serenity prayer. Give
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to change the things that I can, courage to accept that which I cannot

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change, and the wisdom to know
the difference everybody under this signing, my

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boys, go to Google, look
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two to it. I never knew
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client last week, a court order
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doing my zoom call and I looked
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was two parts to it. Never
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So everybody that's your homework, look
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kinds of floral designs and everything.
If you got to go to Marshall's or

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someplace and get it, or you
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over your house. Courage, strength
and wisdom to know what I can,

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where I can make a difference,
or where I cannot. What has helped

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me over time is I look at
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of myself and I look at it
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and if I can see, wait
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have nothing to do with that?
Where'd that come from? Just because chic

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don't like me because I was the
first born in the family, had enemies

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because I was the firstborn. They
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the first girls in their family.
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I still own that that position.
I still own that status. I'm

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the oldest of grandchildren on one side
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away from me. I happen to
look like somebody. It's not my fault,

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not my fault, but you're losing
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to try to make my life a
living whatever, and you can don't touch

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me. You can't touch me because
it bounces off of me and goes straight

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to the throne room. It don't
even come nigh. The Bible say those

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fly fiery darts won't come nigh unto
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pestilence flieth by night. But it
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nigh unto you. And then and
and if you're if you're you're hopeless feelings

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and your power and you're feeling powerless
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Talk to me, because what's the
saying in order to uh, if

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you're successful, that makes your enemies
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look like fools. I know I
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I can't remember what it says,
but basically, you want to be you

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want to really, you know,
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be the best that you can be. And that don't mean you be making

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all kinds of money, because you
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who are billionaires are are miserable with
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do, they don't know what to
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you got Warren Buffet giving away millions
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keep it. It doesn't make them
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They They've tried to buy every trink
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them what. It makes it more
miserable, and then your health begins to

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deteriorate. So it's not of my
money. We're not gonna find money and

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happiness or happiness and money. Now
you have your get what you need to

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get, do what you need to
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you know what, I can't afford
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car. I know that looks really
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car passed by me loaded and I
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guys, I said, oh my
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Lord be with them, keep them
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see that they don't have a choice, but they keep getting up, they

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go to work, they go wherever
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and they get clean and they get
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and we keep it moving. So
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it because we've got a major high
holidays to start it off coming up.

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This is the Jewish New Year Rashiashana, and it starts the fifteenth through the

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seventeenth. I have my show Far. I'm gonna be blowing my show Far.

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We're gonna get our apples and honey, and it's a symbolic. It's

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symbolic for you to have apples and
eat apples and honey because it's supposed to

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commemorate a happy new year. Most
of you will start your new year January

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first. You'll go to watch night
service December thirty. First, we will

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have already started our new year and
this was gonna be really something special.

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So that's the second piece of homework. Look up Rashashana or the Jewish High

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Holy Days if you're not sure how
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Kapoor coming right behind it. On
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twenty five hours of prey and fasting
from sundown to sundown, and it can

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be done. I when this was
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God over ten twelve years ago,
thirteen years, fifteen years ago, I

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you know, my student stood up
and she go, miss Craig, oh

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my goodness. This month. It
was in September, They're gonna all five

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high holy days are gonna happen.
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okay, and she said, no, no, no, it's not happening

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over a thousand years. So you
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that's God speaking. Okay, you
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you know, double dribbling or you
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And I did my research and I
went all me. I went went into

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Jewish teachings and everything just about the
Torah, just to find out everything I

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could about that. And from that
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I celebrate these holidays and they are
worth it. It changes your life.

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That's another thing I wanna suggest.
If you're feeling not so good about some

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things, do it fast. Turn
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it with scripture or praise and worship
music Now okay, am I gonna leave

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your open like that. You got
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You got to fill it with something. So may I suggest that you

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fill it with the Holy Word.
Download the Bible app a King James version

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or the True Tree, Tree of
Life Bible, just a Bible and just

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go to the Book of Psalms or
the Book of Proverbs and stay right there

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and study those chapters. Now I'm
not saying read them. There's a difference

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between reading and studying. The Bible
says to study to show yourselves approved,

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meditate on his word day and night. So if you're studying something, it's

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auto automatically in your head. Nowhere
does the Bible say you are to commit

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things to memory, scriptures to memory. No, that's not what I'm talking

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about. It's just to study it
and this You know what, for those

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of you who are still like,
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That's the Wisdom book thirty one chapters. You could read the Proverbs a

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day. I read two chapter two
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I said my kids, my adult
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every morning. Ever since I've been
home. I did it before I went

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into hospital. When I came back
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maneuver my phone and everything before my
computations. I did it because God's word

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will set you free. I'll share
it with you over time that when I

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was in the hospital, I asked, somebody, can you please write down

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a certain scriptures for me? It
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when I opened my eyes, I
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like, when I opened my eyes, I want to be able to see

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scripture around me because I could not
hold my phone at that time. Anyway,

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I'm gonna go through that. And
ever since then, every time they

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changed my room, those signs came
down very carefully. The nurses handled them

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with care because they realized it was
a scripture. It was the word of

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God, and it was promises God
made to me. And to this day,

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it's his scripture. It's his words, his promises, his covenant.

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It's what we need. It's what
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trauma, it's not just PTSD.
We've already got literature out there separating the

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two. Trauma is anything that has
upset the course of your livelihood that where

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you experience something so emotional soul in
mental neurobo that your even neurobiologically, your

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body is just becoming unglued. The
hairs stand up on your on your arms

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when you think about something and the
tragedy and the loss, and in your

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mind you keep having reoccurring dreams.
All of a sudden, you've got anxiety.

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You become paranoia. You think you're
seeing things, you think you're hearing

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things. That's because you've gone through
some sort of trauma. And we're gonna

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start. I'm gonna roll out as
the Lord allows me, because I'm I'm

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about to create my own trauma informed
kit tool kit. One would be faith

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based and one would be secular,
and it's gonna be for the fire departments

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and the police first. Yeah see, thank you, thank you, kuz.

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Yes, my first marriage that I
ended in divorce, my second marriage

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that ended in death. But going
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But it's how you come out,
it's how you look at is when

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you make that determination, it's that
little piece of strength. Give God that

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little piece of strength. I promise
you he will just make you. He

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will take One of my favorite scriptures
is Psalm's eighty one and six. I

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remove your shoulder from the burden and
free your hands from the pots. You've

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got to understand burdens. Burdens are
gonna be here. I'm trying to tell

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my classmates. They're like, you
know, they're just, oh, we

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gotta end this, We gotta end
it. We don't end nothing until the

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last man, woman, boy,
girl, two legged friends, feathered friend,

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four legged friend cease to exist.
Poverty goes nowhere. We could decrease

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it though, we could put a
debt in it. There's there's there's a

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problem. That's there's a solution.
We're gonna put it den in it in

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this area of central Florida. Already
conquered Palm Beach County. We're gonna conquer

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Central Florida before I leave here.
And am I talking about through deaths?

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Got my passport ready to go?
Amen? So yeah, there's a solution.

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I just I doubly motivate you and
encourage you. Give me a call,

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Give us a call, get sense
of the email, reach out to

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me on all the social media's.
We're on a hundred platforms. You will

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find me. You give me your
your situation. I can promise you with

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it. As the woman of God
that I am and everything that's in me,

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I promise you there's a solution again. You may not like it.

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You need to go work two jobs, two part time jobs. You may

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not like it. How do I
get out of debt? Well? Are

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you working? What are you doing? Because one paycheck is not gonna do

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it. If you got yourself in
debt, if you're ending up in debt

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because you're helping to take care of
your relatives, your loved ones and things

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like that, you gotta cut some
people off and say, you know what,

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it's been real. But you're heavyweight. I'm not a usual therapist.

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You're ready to be here, Let's
go. You want somebody to talk to

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you and keep you, keep talking
to you for ten years. I have

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some colleagues I can refer you to, but it's not me as a professor

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college professor. No, are you
here to learn? Are you here because

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you're still You've got to remain on
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I asked that at the junior college. One year, there's a group of

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students they would little buddies, and
they come in and sit in the back

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of the room. I said,
let me. I said, what am

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I supposed to? Who's asked them
this question? And I asked, I

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said, how many of you all
are in college because you have to stay

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on your parents' insurance. That group
in the corner raised their hand. I

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said, okay. One of two
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I said, okay, well,
how many of you are here because you

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want a degree, because you want
to make changes? And the bulk of

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a class sitting in front of me
on one side of the room all raised

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their hands. So I shifted,
I walked up, I moved a podium,

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and I stood in front of them. I said, I'm gonna give

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you my cell phone number. I'm
gonna give you my email. I'll teach

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you. Y'all get it on your
own. Set it right there in class.

409
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We don't have time. And that
was well over twenty years ago.

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Those students in the back came to
me at the end of the semester with

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a gift and I said that I
cannot accept anything from you all, but

412
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they maintained a great GPA and they
apologize for their behavior. There are solutions

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00:34:14.880 --> 00:34:19.559
out here. Again, I can't
say it enough. When I first separated

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from my second husband. I you
know, child support is not an income.

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Child support is for the children.
And I have twins. Okay,

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00:34:27.320 --> 00:34:30.000
I have twins, so that you
know. And he didn't like the fact

417
00:34:30.079 --> 00:34:35.000
that, you know, I manipulated
and gotten the child support going to their

418
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savings accounts. Love dumb, I
may love God, but I ain't dumb.

419
00:34:39.840 --> 00:34:44.320
And he thought I was very innocent
looking. Dad at it because I

420
00:34:44.519 --> 00:34:45.960
take but I had to say,
you know what I gotta. I mean,

421
00:34:46.039 --> 00:34:50.000
I had my office, I was
doing therapy, I was doing my

422
00:34:50.119 --> 00:34:52.480
acting and doing commercials. But it
was not enough money. It wasn't steady

423
00:34:52.519 --> 00:34:54.840
money. So I had to I
asked the lord. I said, Lord,

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I need a full time job.
But check this out, y'all.

425
00:34:58.920 --> 00:35:02.679
I said, I need a job. I'll work thirty five hours a week.

426
00:35:05.039 --> 00:35:09.039
I know it's gonna include a weekend, and I work the first shift,

427
00:35:09.639 --> 00:35:13.440
so I work in the mornings after
I dropped the kids off to school.

428
00:35:14.599 --> 00:35:16.360
I need the first paycheck. Check
this out, y'all. Because I

429
00:35:16.440 --> 00:35:21.440
have the art model then and I
had my condo rent. I need the

430
00:35:21.559 --> 00:35:27.159
first paycheck to come in at over
fifteen hundred dollars after taxes and some change.

431
00:35:28.960 --> 00:35:32.920
So when I talked about praying strategically
and specifically, you don't say,

432
00:35:34.360 --> 00:35:38.039
Lord, I just want everything to
be great and just help everything and let

433
00:35:38.119 --> 00:35:42.519
the grass grow. No, Lord, do I need to put fertilizer on

434
00:35:42.599 --> 00:35:45.639
it? Do I need to change
my lawn? Guy? What do I

435
00:35:45.760 --> 00:35:47.159
need to do? Or do I
need to take the grass up? Or

436
00:35:47.199 --> 00:35:52.320
just put rocks out there? Strategically, if you look back, Jesus,

437
00:35:52.519 --> 00:35:58.239
praise strategically the Our Father, which
are in heaven, Hollywood, be thy

438
00:35:58.360 --> 00:36:04.880
name? Specific can you get?
So I went back and this is what

439
00:36:05.079 --> 00:36:09.920
I'm still in alignment with our topic
tonight. Will you feel like you're feeling

440
00:36:09.960 --> 00:36:13.760
hopeless, you feel like there's no
answer. No, you've got to pick

441
00:36:13.840 --> 00:36:17.119
yourself up and let's go. Let's
go. You don't not. This is

442
00:36:17.199 --> 00:36:21.039
not the time to give up.
My cousin talking about that on our show

443
00:36:21.079 --> 00:36:23.599
this morning. This is not don't
give up and don't give in. This

444
00:36:23.800 --> 00:36:30.760
is not the time to do this. Joy is coming. You can weep

445
00:36:30.000 --> 00:36:36.840
overnight, but joy will come in
the morning. So I'm in parent pick

446
00:36:36.920 --> 00:36:38.960
up. I ran by the Holy
Spirit said come by your po box.

447
00:36:39.159 --> 00:36:44.679
I went by my po box and
while I'm in parent pick up, I'm

448
00:36:44.760 --> 00:36:50.400
looking at my National Association of Social
Workers bro sure and then very back it

449
00:36:50.920 --> 00:36:58.320
lists any job available for social workers
from here to Hawaii. And that's when

450
00:36:58.360 --> 00:37:04.239
I saw that ORMC Orlando Regional Hospital
was looking for discharged planners with masters and

451
00:37:04.280 --> 00:37:07.199
they have to have a ms W
Masters in Social Work, ms A Master's

452
00:37:07.239 --> 00:37:13.679
in Health and Administration. And I
said, okay. I called the number

453
00:37:13.800 --> 00:37:17.440
on there and the lady that would
pick up it was Julie, who would

454
00:37:17.440 --> 00:37:23.440
be my supervisor's supervisor. She said, get your your resume to me as

455
00:37:23.480 --> 00:37:27.800
soon as you can. That number
you see there, that's my personal facts.

456
00:37:28.719 --> 00:37:31.320
I did it overnight. She called
me the next day. That was

457
00:37:31.400 --> 00:37:37.920
a Tuesday. She said what I
needed? We got orientation coming up next

458
00:37:37.960 --> 00:37:40.320
week. I got, you'll be
interviewed. Can you come in from an

459
00:37:40.320 --> 00:37:44.599
interview on Thursday? I said,
I certainly can. Just like that,

460
00:37:45.639 --> 00:37:49.639
I'm I'm in being interviewed by two
supervisors. They said, what can you

461
00:37:50.000 --> 00:37:53.280
would you mind? Hey, Tommy, keep it stay on muted now,

462
00:37:55.800 --> 00:37:59.519
and they said, can you come
in? I said, And they talked.

463
00:38:00.239 --> 00:38:02.880
They interviewed me. They told me
they were just getting ready to change

464
00:38:02.960 --> 00:38:07.280
over some ways. They do things. We were gonna swap with the nurses,

465
00:38:07.559 --> 00:38:09.119
which is home health and do that, and I was thinking to myself,

466
00:38:09.159 --> 00:38:13.679
I'm not gonna do that. And
I became pool, which means met

467
00:38:13.800 --> 00:38:17.679
that I substituted, but all the
full time folks there, and I asked

468
00:38:17.760 --> 00:38:20.360
that. They said, you have
any questions. I said, yes,

469
00:38:20.719 --> 00:38:22.920
Can you guarantee me thirty five hours
a week? They said, no,

470
00:38:23.039 --> 00:38:28.000
we can't, but we're sure we'll
come close to it. I was like,

471
00:38:28.119 --> 00:38:30.440
oh, okay, well guess what, guys. I never I was

472
00:38:30.519 --> 00:38:37.000
there for two whole years full time
and never went below thirty five hours because

473
00:38:37.039 --> 00:38:43.119
they forgot that their full timers hadn't
been on vacation because they couldn't swap out.

474
00:38:43.119 --> 00:38:45.679
They couldn't They couldn't do unless somebody
was sick or whatever, and they

475
00:38:45.719 --> 00:38:49.840
would do emergency stuff and the supervisors
had to go to the floor, but

476
00:38:49.960 --> 00:38:55.039
they forgot, and since I was
a substitute, I was on the floor

477
00:38:57.239 --> 00:39:00.599
and I met. I got thirty
five hours every week. First paycheck was

478
00:39:00.719 --> 00:39:06.360
fifteen hundred after taxes, fifteen hundred
and forty six dollars and some change.

479
00:39:06.800 --> 00:39:13.239
I promise you that took care of
the two main bills I had, and

480
00:39:13.320 --> 00:39:16.639
that's why you'll look on if anybody
follows me on Facebook, I post every

481
00:39:16.719 --> 00:39:22.440
thirty days. I have not because
you asked not vision board, and I

482
00:39:22.559 --> 00:39:27.199
have a vision board of all these
things. And when God blesses I make

483
00:39:27.280 --> 00:39:32.159
sure I give him all the glory
and honor. Amen. So, Lady

484
00:39:32.239 --> 00:39:39.119
T I didn't realize until later that
today was nine eleven. I also brought

485
00:39:39.239 --> 00:39:46.239
up the fact that there was a
massive flooding in Libya today this morning,

486
00:39:46.280 --> 00:39:52.480
I believe it was. It was
today, and they expect as of this

487
00:39:52.599 --> 00:39:55.119
morning was over two to three hundred
people that were dead. But they're speculate,

488
00:39:55.199 --> 00:40:00.480
they know that the number's gonna go
up. So we talking about suicide

489
00:40:01.199 --> 00:40:07.840
awareness and literacy awareness because it's how
you talk to people. You can't just

490
00:40:08.000 --> 00:40:12.760
predict because you look at somebody and
you think that you know where they're coming

491
00:40:12.840 --> 00:40:15.000
from, you know what they've been, you don't know that. You don't

492
00:40:15.039 --> 00:40:22.920
know people's backs a person's backstory,
You don't have a clue. And that's

493
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:24.559
one thing I'm gonna tell you.
I have to be honest with it,

494
00:40:24.559 --> 00:40:27.920
and then I'm tell me you gotta
Oh Timmy, Oh God, we only

495
00:40:27.960 --> 00:40:30.079
got five more minutes, ten more
minutes. Okay, what time are you

496
00:40:30.199 --> 00:40:37.920
talk? I'm gonna be quiet.
You talk. I don't know how well

497
00:40:38.079 --> 00:40:45.239
my connection because as I was listening
to you, it was very choppy,

498
00:40:45.159 --> 00:40:55.079
So I don't know how good you
can hear me. But it the weather

499
00:40:55.320 --> 00:41:00.519
is bad here, and I think
that has something to do with my connection.

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00:41:01.360 --> 00:41:07.519
So that's okay. We get we
get picking up. You just come

501
00:41:07.559 --> 00:41:10.639
in and out as often as you
need to, and I will stop talking.

502
00:41:12.599 --> 00:41:15.719
That's the one thing about being a
social worker. I can literally probably

503
00:41:15.719 --> 00:41:20.400
I talk to everybody. I you
know, I haven't died. Nobody's tried

504
00:41:20.440 --> 00:41:23.760
me yet. But anyway, there
she goes, But God is good.

505
00:41:23.840 --> 00:41:29.400
Talk to me telling me what you
what anybody talk about today at your job?

506
00:41:30.599 --> 00:41:37.880
Nine to eleven September eleventh, No, nothing that I have. I

507
00:41:38.079 --> 00:41:50.000
haven't seen anything in reference to nine
to eleven today. And I was.

508
00:41:50.159 --> 00:41:55.039
I was in the school and no
one spoke of anything. They're too young,

509
00:41:57.440 --> 00:42:01.719
not anything about nine eleven. And
I happened to recognize it, and

510
00:42:01.840 --> 00:42:08.639
I didn't say anything, but I'm
like, wow, yeah, and yes,

511
00:42:08.679 --> 00:42:12.119
because I probably could out talk you. I mean, if we have

512
00:42:12.199 --> 00:42:15.440
a good day. But you're doing
very well all by yourself. Kudos to

513
00:42:15.519 --> 00:42:19.440
you. I'm proud of you,
and I know Aunt Jean would she would

514
00:42:19.440 --> 00:42:24.760
probably be shocked that you would be
uh showing yourself on screen there, but

515
00:42:24.880 --> 00:42:28.639
she would be so proud of you. Uncle Oscar would be so proud of

516
00:42:28.719 --> 00:42:34.360
you. I know it so yes
because oh my cousin's on also from Saint

517
00:42:34.440 --> 00:42:37.760
Pete. But yeah, it's it's
thundering out here too, so you know,

518
00:42:37.920 --> 00:42:44.000
well, I love you, but
we're gonna press through. We press

519
00:42:44.079 --> 00:42:47.639
through. And that's another thing too. Thank you Lord from reminding me there

520
00:42:47.679 --> 00:42:52.320
are times that you need to just
press through when you're going through things.

521
00:42:52.400 --> 00:42:55.599
And I know times a heart,
trust me, been there, done that.

522
00:42:57.320 --> 00:43:00.840
I've written a couple of books about
it. My one that's behind me

523
00:43:00.960 --> 00:43:04.559
here propis in the projects. You
know, it's about not judging people from

524
00:43:04.599 --> 00:43:08.559
how they look or what they look
like or anything, you know, because

525
00:43:08.599 --> 00:43:15.960
you may need them on your journey. So don't be judging people, don't

526
00:43:15.960 --> 00:43:19.000
be counting them out unless God tells
you to count them out. Amen.

527
00:43:19.800 --> 00:43:23.840
Amen, So you all just you
know, I please be encouraged. And

528
00:43:23.960 --> 00:43:34.320
like I said, it's okay.
Tommy, there is hope. There are

529
00:43:34.519 --> 00:43:39.039
answers. You may not like to
hear them. You may not like it.

530
00:43:39.400 --> 00:43:43.159
I didn't like working at the hospital. Let me go back there real

531
00:43:43.280 --> 00:43:46.239
quick. I did not like it, but I was ahead of my household.

532
00:43:46.280 --> 00:43:51.360
At this point, my husband and
I were separated, and there was

533
00:43:51.440 --> 00:43:57.079
no choice. There was no choice. I had to work, no choice.

534
00:43:58.039 --> 00:44:00.039
And next thing I knew two years
was up. I didn't even know

535
00:44:00.119 --> 00:44:04.159
I had been with them a year
until I got a certificate saying congratulations,

536
00:44:04.239 --> 00:44:06.840
you've been with that's a year.
Has I been up with y'all a year?

537
00:44:07.320 --> 00:44:10.360
Oh? My god? But I
lost weight because everybody took the stairs.

538
00:44:13.199 --> 00:44:15.760
Folks that were training me for the
week, they took the stairs,

539
00:44:16.079 --> 00:44:23.119
So I lost weight. It's not
gonna be all bad as long as that

540
00:44:23.239 --> 00:44:28.400
first paycheck hit the mark I was. I was more than five because everything

541
00:44:28.480 --> 00:44:31.079
else I did took care of the
rest of the bills. And that's how

542
00:44:31.159 --> 00:44:38.280
I am today. That's how I
am today. So please hold on,

543
00:44:40.280 --> 00:44:47.079
please hold on. Let's talk it
out. My co hosts are great listeners.

544
00:44:47.679 --> 00:44:53.559
They practice active listening. Tommy is
one of my former students, great

545
00:44:53.639 --> 00:45:00.280
listener because she listened to me.
She was there when I needed her and

546
00:45:00.400 --> 00:45:06.679
during some dark times, yes a
student. After she graduated, I still

547
00:45:06.760 --> 00:45:09.920
come. I found her number and
I needed her to be the facilitator the

548
00:45:10.079 --> 00:45:21.360
MC at my second husband's few with
nobody being there because I allowed his body

549
00:45:21.400 --> 00:45:23.880
to go to his hometown, but
it had to come back to me cremated

550
00:45:25.159 --> 00:45:30.880
and I need to have awake for
his co workers and his other adult kids

551
00:45:30.039 --> 00:45:35.440
who lived in Florida. And we
did and I called tell me, I

552
00:45:35.480 --> 00:45:40.400
said I need you, and she
was there and she's been with me ever

553
00:45:40.559 --> 00:45:49.400
since, ever since, so there
is hope. I will throw you the

554
00:45:49.519 --> 00:45:57.199
lifeline. The care circles are the
lifeline. Amen, if you want help,

555
00:45:57.480 --> 00:46:04.360
now here's a disclaimer. Not everybody
wants help. If we look in

556
00:46:04.440 --> 00:46:08.239
the camera, not everybody wants help. You've got to know the difference.

557
00:46:08.639 --> 00:46:14.719
That's why God is dividing the weak
from the terror. You got to know

558
00:46:14.840 --> 00:46:19.239
the difference. You don't need to
waste your energy, don't waste your time,

559
00:46:20.199 --> 00:46:25.760
because there there are the evil forces
out there that are just as determined

560
00:46:27.360 --> 00:46:35.519
to serve the devil, to distract
you, to delay you, to still

561
00:46:36.000 --> 00:46:39.960
kill and destroy you. They're out
there. Some were born at the same

562
00:46:40.079 --> 00:46:45.000
time you were. Some are in
your family and they're just waiting for the

563
00:46:45.119 --> 00:46:49.400
moment that you're not looking, that
they catch you off guard. And here

564
00:46:49.519 --> 00:46:52.920
they come, here they come.
I got scriptures to back it up,

565
00:46:53.079 --> 00:46:55.440
so you'd have to call me so
we can talk about it. But I

566
00:46:55.519 --> 00:47:00.320
got scriptures to back up everything that
I'm saying, and not only that.

567
00:47:00.559 --> 00:47:04.760
I'm a living epistle. Tommy's a
living epistle. We've lived through this trade.

568
00:47:04.840 --> 00:47:07.360
It's a living epistle. Rebel is
a living epistle. We've lived through

569
00:47:07.440 --> 00:47:13.280
it. So we're quick to tell
you because we're here. If you want

570
00:47:13.320 --> 00:47:17.440
to hear it. Oh, I
feel the annoyingte I feel the annoyingting.

571
00:47:19.760 --> 00:47:22.480
Let's pray, Father God, I
hear you. I hear you loud and

572
00:47:22.559 --> 00:47:25.880
clear. Be with your people today, tonight, tomorrow, later, this

573
00:47:27.039 --> 00:47:30.920
evening, later tonight, be with
your people. And I sense that one

574
00:47:30.039 --> 00:47:36.639
will come to you on their knees, repenting and just saying I can't do

575
00:47:36.840 --> 00:47:40.000
this any I don't know what to
do. Now, guide them, have

576
00:47:40.159 --> 00:47:46.559
a visitation with them, show them
who you are and how you see them

577
00:47:46.679 --> 00:47:52.119
through your eyes. Lord. We
love you so much. I've just today

578
00:47:52.239 --> 00:47:59.360
you just you just held me.
You held me, and I can feel

579
00:47:59.440 --> 00:48:09.320
your present. We thank you,
we praise you. Be with those who

580
00:48:09.480 --> 00:48:15.440
listening to who are listening tonight and
those who will listen tomorrow. We love

581
00:48:15.519 --> 00:48:21.079
you so much. In Jesus Name, we pray, Amen and amen.

582
00:48:22.519 --> 00:48:31.760
Let us know what your thoughts are. There is always there is always a

583
00:48:31.920 --> 00:48:39.800
green light. There's always another way
that you didn't think of, maybe because

584
00:48:39.840 --> 00:48:45.880
you were held bound by how you
were raised, by how you were taught,

585
00:48:45.199 --> 00:48:49.599
by all the education your God,
and whatever the case may be,

586
00:48:50.079 --> 00:48:55.239
there is a solution out there.
He will make. We serve a God

587
00:48:55.679 --> 00:49:00.519
that will make a way out of
no way. You all be blessed.

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00:49:00.880 --> 00:49:06.559
That's our time. We're gonna see
you next week, same time, same

589
00:49:06.639 --> 00:49:09.079
station. Do your homework, look
up Rosha Shanna, get some apples and

590
00:49:09.159 --> 00:49:13.400
honey, and we will be blowing
the show far on this end. You

591
00:49:13.519 --> 00:49:15.039
all be blessed. We love you
so much. Give us a call if

592
00:49:15.039 --> 00:49:19.599
you need us in Jesus Name,
Bye bye, right, I see you next week