PTSD Awareness

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1:18 Yes, yes, yes, big boy over there, dipping boy. Good evening, Good evening, and welcome to another segment of setting it Straight with Miss Gray and her feel Let's co hosts give him a wave, give him a shout. Tray, go ahead from all the wave of Virginia. Let's pray. Oh I'm sorry, Lord, let's pray. Father God, we just thank you today. You are just overwhelming me with goodness and gladness and surprises and mery, new mercies and grace and mercies. I just I'm almost tongue tied today. I just thank you God. You are showing up and showing out. Thank you God for your love. Thank you God for unforgiveness.

2:04 Thank you Father, God for forgiving and forgetting. Thank you God for ideas. Thank you God for putting us in check when we don't even check ourselves. Thank you for everything. I just I can go on and on and on. Just thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you. And yeah, this us said unforgiveness because people live lives unforgiving, and it's a sad day. We're gonna talk about that. We're gonna conquer that tonight. We just thank you. Now we're gonna get behind the cross, Lord, and we're gonna let you do what you do best many things. You do, everything the best, but for one set your captives free tonight. Give them what they need. Let them lean in and listen closely. In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray, Amen, Amen, ammen.

2:50 And the church said amen. Anyway, how y'all doing, How y'all doing? All right? Roll call, let's go. I need Mississippi, I need Tennessee, I need Louisiana. I need one Washington d C. I need Palm Beach County. I need Orlando. Come on, come on in, don't don't come on in and try the water. It's cool in the eave. Come on now, come on now, So trade, How was your weekend? How's the week been for you so far? Well, weekend was nice, weather was great, Sonny, got a whole lot of natural vitamin D and just. Kind of relaxed a little bit. Yeah, and weeks so far as okay, long, but it's not bad. Amen heard. I'm thankful, Amen, ain't man. Yeah, I felt a little coolness throughout the weekend. Every now and then it's no rain, no, but I felt the coolness, and I say thank you Jesus. I know that's you check it in, letting us know you were right here in the midst and we're just forever giving you the praise and the glory. A couple of things. Congratulations, shout out to Talk for Media. That's that's the umbrella talk for TV dot talkfor TV dot com. That's that whole set of letters and numbers. We are under that tutelage. And they have been nominated for the Marketing Firms category for twenty twenty six Best of Florida Awards. So congratulations, because the Grand Pooball, he does his best to recruit and get shows in and you know, make sure that you know that he Yeah, okay, hang on, guys, yeah, yes,

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5:55 my mind, like, okay, what we're doing when you think we're gonna go forward on this and everything? And again out apologize for getting caught up in the web of monetizing and shares and likes. Please forgive me for that, because I'm thinking that that's the traditional way of thought. You know, you want to keep you want somebody to pay, You want a sponsor to come along and pay for your program so it doesn't have to come out of pocket. But the testimonies, the conversations, even the questions just it just covers that. It just blots it out for me, and then I have to feel bad and I feel guilty and I feel sorry. You know, I'm not feel sorry, but I'm sorry for that, and I have to apologize publicly because you know, you just have to know what we go through at times and things like that. So I'm just thankful that I'm in a position that I'm able to do it. God blesses me with your testimonies.

6:48 It doesn't matter. I mean, I appreciate the shares and likes, and hang on, I can give you that number in a minute too, because I did get that from I trusted poohbah okay, he says, I asked him, what's our number? Now? Why are you always this phone? Boy? You're messing with my phone. You've got our rebuke you in the name of Jesus. Well, yeah, one hundred and ninety one listenable episode, So one hundred and ninety one times people listen to the episode and no, I'm sorry, Yeah, listen to episodes and total downloads. Get ready for this, people have downloaded our show ready, nine thousand, eight hundred and two. Make that up. I still keep it as unread because I have to look at that like what what the what you know? And I'm just thankful it's only gone. It's only God, And I thank you all for sharing and just allowing us to come into your radio on your TV or you're through your computer on your phone, and you stick around long enough to listen in and to to peek in. So earlier today I received the text for by honorable the honorable engineer, producer, you name it, execute executive, that's who she is to us, and okay, I didn't, all right, and they go to this other thing, okay, and she said. I was out in Beton Rouge wearing

8:19 my yellow Setting It Straight T shirt and someone said Sprouts and I looked up and saw it was a food store and I asked if we could stop by, and they said why. He said, well, I told everyone about you. I'm sure about the show. For those who didn't know, I explained they need to tune in to the show. As I showed them the shirt. We all got out and went in. Everyone was so happy and said thank you for the advice to try Sprouts, Lott said. Then they said that they were going to tune in for more advice. So we welcome it. We've got some new folks out there. We welcome you most definitely. And this is what we do. This is what's setting it straight is all about. We set it straight. And what that means is if it's the myths, even some lies that are out there, and we align everything up with scripture, we back it up with Bible, and we also encourage you to write your script you know, write script do your own Bible study. I've said that like four times this week since the weekend, telling people have your own family Bible study because you need to know what the Word says for yourself and what those scriptures would mean to you. They're personal. It gives it energizes you, It reveals you, It exposes you to yourself. It lets you know exactly where you're at. And then you look at your personality and you're like, oh, forget about it. I look like Auntie and uncle. I look like Joshua. Wow.

9:42 I act like Abraham sometimes, boy, I act like Moses a lot of times. You know, come on, let my people go, let's go, you know, and stuff, and you'll be abstounded as to the likes and the similarities of the biblical people that live before us and help set the foundation. So and please, I implore you to, you know, pray, Have you have your own Bible study for the family. Of course, you go to church. If you go to church, you participate in the Bible study at church as there's no doubt take notes. But at home, have your own Bible study, take notes. Uh, you know, have that discussion. You'd be surprised as to what and then switch it up. Let let the younger person say, uh, you know, younger member of the family say well, I want to learn about love. Oh, I want to learn about being forgotten and and and being looked over. There's scriptures for that.

10:32 And then y'all, and you'd be surprised when the other people in the family come up with the theme what they're really saying. You learn a whole lot what they're thinking. So I implore you to do that. So thank you, and hopefully I knew folks will come on, the Sprouts people, the Sprouts family, uh, and new beginnings. For that, we thank you. And tonight we're going to talk about PTSD post traumatic stress disorder, and I want to go I want to go back to his here to see where that came from. But I know it's also in the Bible, and we're going to talk about that here we go. Post Traumatic is a psychiatric thank you. Anastasia is a psychiatric mental health condition triggered keep that word in mind, triggered by experiencing or witnessing a terrifying, life threatening or deeply shocking shocking event. While most people experience temporary distress over trauma, individuals with PTSD continue to experience severe life disrupting stress along long after the danger has passed. Okay, so we have to be very careful of number one on how we're labeling ourselves. You know, you know, over what thirty years ago add and ADHD hit the world. No, over forty years ago hit the world. That was the biggest all My childh has ADHD. And you're putting them on retland, You're putting them on all kinds of stuff.

11:55 And now, I mean, I said this at a church function one time. The only reason why you're your child can't sit still and don't listen to you because you drank too much pepsi while you carried them. You ate ice and you hate the daddy. That's why they got they can't sit down. The church went just they exploded. They're like, oh my god, No, no, she didn't say that. I said, yeah, you drank pepsi, you ate ice. The child's got a nervous condition because of you and because you hate the daddy. But that's a whole different story with you know. Yeah, but yeah, many people so a few people came up to me after the workshop and said, you know, you're right. I did drink a lot of PEPSI I said, yeah, so you know. And I'm not saying the diagnosises world is not relevant and it's not at times true. But sometimes I know folks who have gone in I've been a therapist myself. They come in, they want to tell me what I should be telling them.

12:49 They want, they don't want to hear my they don't want to wait for the assessment. They'll come in. I'm not an angry person. I said, well, can I have your name please? I just want to make sure you're at the right office. And they're like, but yeah, my name is you know, Happy Smith. But I'm here to tell you I'm not angry. Okay. Can I have your phone number and your Social Security number? Just want to make sure you in the right office. Okay. I mean they want to so busily, you know, they want to tell me what's wrong with them, what's not wrong with them? And I'm like, I'm not for that. You were court ordered, not me, Okay, So let's go all right. So going back to triggering, going back to triggering, that is a big key word because a lot of times when people were court ordered for anger management, even though they would come in, eighty percent would come in trying to tell me that they're not angry. Everyone gets angry at times, yes, Mickey, all the time. At times. Some of us can control it, while others cannot. They can't take the edge off, they can't dial it back, they can't rewind they did, and these things, these thoughts in their heads keep playing over and over and over again, you know, but triggering. And many times out of the eighty percent that would come in that were court ordered poor and your management classes or evaluation, I'm gonna say at least forty percent are triggered.

14:07 They're not angry people, but they could be triggered, and they need to get in touch with the triggering part of their emotions. So can you be triggered? Can you be angered? And you know, people say this little oh he knows how to push my buttons, and they laugh about it. That's not funny because first of all, that tells next, that's telling me, you're giving you love, giving people power over you. Nobody knows how to push my buttons. That's living nobody. So it's not funny, we don't and now we chuckle at it. Oh, yes, that's cute. It's not because that tells me you've given He knows the power. He knows your enemy, just like your enemy knows the devil, knows how to power overpower you. He knows what gets you will get you hot. He knows what it would take for you to go from zero zero to one hundred.

14:53 He knows he says, the right people on the job. He says, you're right into the lions, then into a family situation. You marry into a family they can't stand you, and for ten years they just put up with you. But the moment your husband died, it all comes out. How you pretend that long I don't know. But when somebody says to you, oh, she knows how to she how to push my buttons right there, I'm stopping the whole session and say, oh, so you allow people to have power and control over you. Know I'm not saying that, yes you do, because if you said that that person knows how to get you angry, take you out of yourself, You've given them. They got power over you. They have authority, and they have authority. Look at doctor Phil's episodes. They'll tell you how many parents going, oh, I can't do nothing with them. I said, huh, okay you can't. Oh yeah, you can. You pray first, go ahead, MS, yeah, I just went.

15:47 When you were talking, I just wanted to kind of say this too, because it hit home with you know, the background that we both have with the domestic violence, and so when people say it, sometimes people want to use that the past, especially when the intent is to be abusive or to excuse some abusive situations. So when that's kind of scary at time when people say that they know what makes me mad or I did that, because that is true what you speak exactly of the case, so are so you know, they just want to kind of preface that. You know, anger is is in emotion and people get angry, but it's what you do with it once you get angry. And I think what you said, miss Gray is recognizing your triggers so you will be prepared to handle it appropriately.

16:45 So lashing out. Hitting people, neglect, you know, those things are not excuses. And it's a whole array of things that you know, maybe at a later time will get into. But someone saying they know how to push my buttons. A lot of people who are people categorize as users will use that in order to justify their behaviors to want towards someone else. And so I just want to preface the thank you so much, and you're so right. But check this out. Now, here's some symptoms. They generally fall into four main categories. Check this out. I was surprised that which will last more for more than one month to meet diagnostic That's another thing. These symptoms have to last for more than one month in order to put you to get that diagnosis.

17:34 And that's another thing with add and ADHD, you have to their behaviors have to occur in two separate places. So you can't come to me and say, Jimmy has a d D attention deficit disorder. His attention span is shot. When you could get he has total control in the classroom, it's only when he gets home. He's got to be in two separate places. It could be at church in Sunday school and it could be at the school or could be at home. And it's gonna be a Sunday school, but it's got to be two separate places. It can't be just one place. And if it's in your home. That speaks volumes right there, and I'm not gonna get onto parenting. Okay. ADHD attention deficit hyperactive disorder. That's the person that can't sit still. They sway back and forth. Yeah, but it's got to occur not only when they're out in public, but it's got to occur when they're at home.

18:23 It's got to occur two separate places. And here for PTSD, it's got to be symptomatic for a whole month, not skipping weeks, not skipping days, from the first to the thirty first, for the first of the twenty eight, from the first to the thirtieth. Okay, check this out. Intrusive memories. These are flashbacks reliving the event, upsetting nightmares and uncontrollable distressful, distressing thoughts about the trauma. Okay, listen to this now. Avoidance actively dodging people, places, and activities or conversations that act as reminders of the event. I had a soldier young man was on a medically discharge. He had his baby boy and Kmart and a car was backfiring outside.

19:09 He thought it was gunshots and he hit the floor. Haymart trespassed him from the store because it brought so much attention to him. I'm pretty sure he probably hollowed out gun, you know, rifle gun, but it was it was just a car backfire, and he had to live with that. And we got to the we got to the we got to the cause, we got to the trigger. And I used to do this. I'm gonna do this with this. I used to do this where people would come into therapy. I would I would have a piece of paper and I would lay on your anger, I would lay on your divorce symptoms, other issues, and I'm gonna lay on top of the paper. I said what I need to get to, and I would. I would drop everything I said, I need to get to this because this is the foundation. All of that stuff lays on.

19:52 This is the this is the level right here, it lays on. It found its own on, it's settled on. And all these other symptomologies or activities or just that activities, but that's not the trigger what started this thing. And see we talking about triggers. So avoidance again another thing. Negative changes in thinking and mood. If you can't get out of it, the negative, let me do, let me define it. Feelings of hopelessness, emotional numbness, memory gaps, or a distorted sense of blame. Okay, negative changes in thinking and mood. Now, I used to be a person that liked to think of the negative first if I had to had to talk to somebody about it or have my super you know, to go. My supervisor calls me in unexpectedly for a chat. I don't know. I'm already thinking like, okay, what could it be? What could it be?

20:41 What did I do? I'm already thinking that what could it be? What can it do? You know? It's all okay, it's something I've undone something that now they gonna call me out on something. Now they gonna blame me. Yeah, I used to do that, believe it me. Then I got more in my Bible and studying my Bible and knowing who I am in Jesus Christ. And he called me in the office. I stayed up and said, well, no, you come to my off what you want you gonna take to me? We have nothing to talk about. Well, no, I need your opinion or something. Oh okay, well don't send an email like that. Say hey, Lisha, you got some time I need your opinion on something. Let me know, I know, I don't like him. When people say, oh, I got something to table, I'm gonna call you back, don't call me back because I don't want to talk to you. I don't like those kind of surprises, you know. I don't so negative changes in your thinking, in your mood, lastly, physical and emotional reactions, being easily startled, hyper vigilant, being constantly on guard, angry outbursts or trouble sleeping, and concentrating.

21:36 Now I just talk about concentrating. Had a little fellow come to me for therapy. I did home visits. The mother couldn't understand that she could sit there and tell him, Okay, we getting ready to leave in ten minutes. Get your shoes on and go get your cloth, your shorts on. We getting ready to leave. Next thing, she know. Not even ten minutes later, he's still sitting in front of the TV, and she said, why are you not listening to me? Get up, She'll go cut the TV. Get up and go check. She had follow him in the room, so I was I was like, Lord, something else is going on here. So I went and observed him in his classroom. He's sitting in the front row. All of a sudden. You can see him. He's writing, he's looking up at the teacher. He's writing, and then all of a sudden, he what maybe eight minutes, eight minutes, he'll raise his hand and he'll say, ask the teacher, where are you? I don't know where you are? Because he wasn't looking in the book, he was writing his notes.

22:24 He got distracted just like that. That easily. I said, no, this is that's not that's not AD, that's not add, that's not a tenth, that's not no, it's something else going on. And I'm praying to God. I'm listening to God in my right ear. And the Lord said, have her go to a E in t ear, nose and throat doctor. Take him to a specialist, an E and T specialist. So I said, I said, if you don't mind, have you taken him. I know he goes to his pediatrician, but have you taken him to an E and T he knows some throat. She goes no, I said, I'm just feeling in my spirit. And I said it like that, I'm feeling in my spirit. Take him to a doctor. See if you could get a referral. And back in those days you had to get a referral. See if you can get a referral for him to go to an E and T. She called me a week later before before I was scheduled to go back out there.

23:07 She said, oh my god. As she was crying. He said, oh my god, thank you, thank you, thank you. What she found out through the ent was that the boy was having silent seizures every ten minutes, every eight to ten minutes, and you couldn't look at him. It wasn't a physical thing, but it was shut down. They put him on seizure medicine. Boy, it was fine, and I say, you don't need to come back to me. He don't have attention deficit. He's having a seizure that's blotting out his ability to hear and to think, and so it distracts him, so it shuts him down. He don't even know it. Poor baby been experiencing that since he was a baby, and the mommy didn't know it. Listen, gotta pray amen. So that sounds scary for those who have this PtD, Yes, it is, because you got to make sure that you really have it. Now it could be experiences.

24:00 Listen to these buzzwords flashbacks reliving the event. Upsetting nightmares are actively dodging people or activities in places, conversations that act as a reminder of the event, feelings of hopelessness, emotional numbness. That's why I would say to you, guys, if you go down that hole, everybody needs to go to their valley. Everybody needs a ballet experience and a mountain, and many mountain experiences, highs and low. Sometimes you've got to go low to self assess, to take a look at the man in the mirror. You can't do that on a mountain. Got to go low in the valley. But I tell you don't stay there too long because it'll become comfortable, it'll become confusing, it'll become distracting, and it'll start to drain you. It'll actually just take away your energy and your strength because you're like, there's no way of getting out of here. Oh my god. And then you start thinking about things I've also shared with you.

24:55 Your subconscious is not your best friend. It holds all the men, all the terror, all the trauma, all the negativeness. All you can remember in second grade when that teacher said something to you. You are fifty eight years old, and you remember what a teacher in the second grade said to you. That's a problem. Why are you holding onto that? Why are you allowing your mind to hold onto that. You've got to tell your mind. I speak to you, flesh, I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Lord. Make me hold, make me over, revive me, regene me, renew me, repurpose me. He'll do it, He'll do it. How many people will you find that like to be angry? Many will say I don't like it.

25:44 I don't like being this way, but I can't help it. Why can't you help it? If you don't like it, change, Well, I don't know. I can't change. Oh, you can't change. So you've convinced yourself that you can't change. You convince yourself you have to have that drink to bring you off the edge. Anvince yourself you got to go get high. You get now you're vaping and all this kind of that make you feel better. You've convinced yourself, Hey, who who did that to you? Your flesh, the humanness of you said, you know what, we don't have to take that. Go get something to drink, Go get something, go binge, eat, go eat a lot of go eat half a gallon of ice cream. You'll feel better. You you'll have cavities, and then you got to go to the dentist, and then you gon be bad because you don't have the insurance for it. It's a on your arm. You have to put your armor. You have to put your armor God on in the morning.

26:30 You know that's something that's yourself, Yes, exactly itself. Go ahead, go ahead, because you can talk. You can talk yourself into something and talk yourself out of something. And so what I was just being transparent half half a go to or go to that you can kind of get yourself when you find yourself and that that thought process, and it's not healthy because when you stay there, it becomes very unhealthy. And you don't want to get to that point where you can't see yourself lifted up. And so I would suggest that you identify the go to s, which excuse me, people that you can talk to, people who are gonna uplift you.

27:13 It could be friends, somebody. Trusted person, your clergy, your therapist, someone that you can talk to to get you out of that. And then also reading the Bible and then maybe putting in scriptures audiobook or audio scriptures, so it can drown out what's going on in here. Because a lot of times when you have that thought all this and you need something that that's gonna drown that sound out to relieve it some and then just be mindful of that. You know, if it's coming too often, if you notice this, if you find yourself not wanting to do stuff and stuck in a position that that's not healthy mentally or emotionally, you need to really seek help.

27:59 You need to see you really do And here's some common causes. Check this out. Combat or military exposure. Now we know that's the number one you've been in the military. It is going to be rare. I know of one young man that was in military and went into law enforcement and has come out unscathed. But he is deep, deep, deep into God. He is deep into God and Jesus in the Holy Spirit. So if he had and he's been on the show once we were honoring Fathers and he was on one time. But that's the only person I know they ever put on two sets of uniform and didn't act out. He was not angry, he didn't I mean, he rarely raised his voice when he was out of uniform. So that takes a lot of work on yourself and realize it. But let me go back to this list of common causes, combat or military exposure, violent personal assault or abuse. There's a domestic violence as that abuse as a child, serious accidents, car crashes, natural disasters, God help us out, and much prayer to the Philippines.

29:02 They just had a seven point eight earthquake. Please, and the kids were out and look like they're in the courtyard and buildings was just falling. So you know, our hearts go out to them, and please have prayed that. And I think they had found thirty two. But this is this morning when I saw it, about thirty two people that were injured or may have passed. It may be a fatality. I'm not sure what the current numbers are. But anyway, but natural disaster, I can't even imagine. I would love to go to Hawaii, but I really don't want to go because I don't know when they gonna have a tsunami. I know that sounds ridiculous, Like you know, miss Gray, they don't have been all the islands on Hawaii. I don't know that. I don't know that, so I don't want to go near the ocean when we especially this summertime. I just I'm not scared. I just don't want to go, you know. But talking about that, because I can't imagine living in those countries have that have an earth they're known for earthquakes, or they're known for tsunamis, they're known for a volcano explosion, you know. I can't even imagine that, or the sudden unexpected death of a love.

30:00 So those are some basic common causes. That's one, two, three, four or five. Okay, So where do we go from here? Now? Now that we've identified what PTSD means, and I'm not belittling it. I'm not taking its power, its influence, its effects from it. I'm not doing that. Even if you've never been in the military, if you don't meet that criteria, but something's happened to where you are traumatized, I should be traumatized. I don't have toes either. I shouldn't be on here talking to y'all after this happened to me. And that's why the Lord allowed me to go back to some of my practitioners and they keep in touch with them so they could see, Okay, that was the traumatic mean, this is the renewed me. This, this is the meat that people know. And even better, I should be traumatized. When I tell people the story, they'll be like, oh, I'm so sorry. I said, no, no, no, I give God all glory out of this. You wouldn't believe my testimonies.

30:55 You wouldn't believe my testimonies. And you too can have a testimony that you you conquered, you overroaded. Can anyone find renewal? Yes, yes, but you gotta want it bad. You got to want it. I'm sorry, my way to it come up over here because I've got it. Let me take it off for comments here. I'm sorry, guys, but yeah, you gotta want it bad enough. When I realized when God spoke to me in the hospital and said, what I need you to do is sit up extra an extra fifteen minutes in that chair. Once pt and Ot gets you up, I say, oh, I'm going home. He said, yeah, you going home. I really thought I was going to die in the hospital. I didn't know I had died already twice. I hadn't read my progress notes, so I thought I was not going to be coming home, or I'll be going to a nursing home, and that's why I would die there. And then I realized, oh, so I am going home. God, yeah, God, it's so funny.

31:45 He said, yeah, because you got to finish your book. Oh I ain't going home and make everybody happy, going home to finish your book, he said, if you don't mind, And that was why am I so angry? That was that book for teenagers and tweens. So I know. I know I've lost my parents. My father died in my arms three months before I was get married the first time. My mom had Alzheimer's, didn't know my didn't call me by name for four you. Oh, I know about trauma. I know about trauma. Divorced the first you know, my first divorce, didn't get married to get divorced. Then I marry a second time, the marriage YU yuck. But he dies so I didn't have to get a divorce. So I know about trauma, but it's what you do with it.

32:27 And once I realized that I am living, and God is getting sending me home to finish this book, and I don't know what else he's gonna have me do. And I know my limbs are probably gonna go at some point. But I'm going home and that was enough renewal for me. That was enough purpose and reason for me. Was it hard to get past the anger related to the trauma? Yeah, because I mean there was another piece that was related to this besides the sepsis, And yeah, I was mad. I was like, are you serious? You targeting me? You know, are you serious? And then I'm like, wait a minute, oh oh, And then you know, of course, God you searched that and said what you're doing? Who you talking to? And I'm like, oh, I was talking to myself. What you're telling yourself? And then God had to remind me you went through this because of me.

33:15 I chose you. Ah, y'all, y'all don't know nothing until God tells you. I choose you for such a time as this, And it's not based on your education and whether you could flex your muscles or whatever. It's based on what He already downloaded in you before your mother's womb knew you were coming. I'll say it till I take my last breath again. But when your daddy tells you, it's because of me, and he warned me. Remember, guys, those of you who've been on long enough, you heard it. I've told you. I told you about the part of the Testimy was in August, two months before this happened to me. God is speaking to me. He's talking to me. He said, oh, by the way, I need you to do something for the kingdom. And I'm like, okay, because I'm a daddy's girl, bring it. What more go ask that unless you're ready to hear the answer or live out the answer. I'm like, yeah, sure, And I forgot all about it so much so I'm in the hospital coming out of a coma. I'm all wrapped up, can't move or anything, and I'm like and then God, month weeks later, I was at the hospital for ninety seven days a week from October to January. The week weeks later months it had to be after Thanksgiving even maybe he found say you remember the conversation we had in August, and I'm crying. This is one of those moments. I'm in the hospital and I'm crying and I'm like, oh God, now, this don't know what's gonna happen, and you know, these people are pushing me to be amputated now, and I'm like, oh, you know, he said, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, do you remember the conversation we had in August? I said, a conversation we had you had in August? What? Oh?

34:45 The one where you oh? Oh? But this though, this is the way, God, this is the way you're gonna get glory. The kicker was gonna get gold. I'm gonna break people more people to you this way. He said, who are you talking to? I said, oh, all right? He said, I know. He said, I get you some rest. I woke up after that rest, and I said, okay. He set me straight, he gently, but you know, like a parent would. I'm gonna set you straight. He's like, who are you talking to? Watch your tone? Watch your tone? Thank you? Watch your look? Who you who? You're rolling your just rolling the neck. I'm gonna do a sidebar here, these kids rolling their neck and out. You wouldn't live.

35:29 You wouldn't live in our generation. You would have been knock across the room. You wouldn't you wouldn't and you wouldn't have never eaten again. Our mothers and grandmothers didn't play. Do you hear me? Grandma? Can I want some more food? More food? You might eat what's all your plate, but can I have a piece of cake, eat what's all your plate? And then they put the cake up in front of you and put it put it way. No, ain't nobody's at three o'clock. Ain't nobody eating no cake? Oh? I want cereal for breakfast? No, you had egg, you had protea, you had a vegetable. I want serious serial What that's a snack that ain't no meal? Oh yeah, some of y'all wouldn't survive in our era. I know I wouldn't have survived in slavery days. So I know most of y'all would not survive during my childhood because you know that's when the neighbors could get after you. Say, y'all, I heard, Yes, I heard you were not do good at school. Today You're like, who told her? Missus Joels had got kids? And I don't want to tell you, daddy. No, Please don't tell you my daddy. Please, don't you need to tell you. Let me tell you, daddy. Okay, I'm not digressing, I'm coming back. I'm circling back talking about PTSD trauma. Back in my day, we didn't talk, we didn't call trauma. It was under the within the walls of the VA, the Veterans Administration. That's where they picked up that word PTSD. That was not outside in the community, no matter what. If you saw somebody get shot and fall out in front of you, that was not you were traumatized maybe, but they weren't not using those words. Oh,

37:00 you're probably a little scared, but it's going to be all right. They didn't use medication. You'll get over it. The times have change, and you've got to still take control of your thoughts, your behavior, the words that come out of your mouth, your actions, your behaviors. You can. You're just kind of comment and on the PTSD when it relates to military and just the bit that I do know or have seen or heard about. People don't understand when you're in that role as a person that's in the military, what that could look like, you know, not knowing if you're going to be called to war or if you're going to be going to places where you're not used to what you're going to experience, either en route while you're there or en route back to where you need to be. And I just want to take this opportunity to really think those who Syria was dinner many a night back. Yeah, just to thank those who sacrifice, because it is you know, I've known, I know many people that that we're in the military. My dad was was a veteran, a veteran, was a veteran, and then many people, my family members and in my circle that I know.

38:23 Has served in the military. And no matter what branch of service that you serve in, each one experiences their own their own challenges, you know, or roles. But it's not an easy feat. You know, it's it's. It could be. You know, it does have some perks, but it has some other stuff behind it as well, especially if you're a person that in a military and you're in a relationship, if you're a parent, if you're married, or you know, it does take a toll on it because of the demands, and no one really knows what happens because a lot of times they don't talk about it. But these are the silent things that the men and women go through day in and day out, and some things you just cannot wave away. They really struggle to manage every simple things that might seem simple to us. And so and I know in the Virginia area because it was you know that in the area that I'm you know that I'm from. It's It's it's multiple military bases and Fourth of July might seem fun for some folks, but they ask you to be kind and be mindful that firecrackers and things that are military people are not always in agreement with or it's not a fun thing for them.

39:46 It triggers a lot of PTSD because if you listen to it, it could sound like a missile or gunfire or whatever that means, and that can trigger. So I just want to kind of put that out there and then people just research it. I would just encourage people to research what that looks like and so we can become more simple. Sympathetic, and more mindful. Yeah to the situations and how it affects families and children with situations, especially if, like you said it, somebody backfiring. You know, if you're sitting in your home with your family and you're backfiring, and. To see people who you look up, maybe the.

40:26 Father who's just been a big person and he's getting under the table because he's hearing that, and it doesn't you know, some people say, wow, really, really it could be it's quote unquote simple as that, but we really want to kind of put it out there and thank the men and women who do, who have who are serving this country and who place their lives. On the line every day and not knowing what that would look like at the end of the day. And so I just want to put that No. Prophet Giles Joshua Giles josh with a J and Giles g I l e S. I follow him. He's one of the prophets that I do, I can relate to and relate with and everything. And today he was talking about the battlefield of war, and with his fear and intimidation, I say, oh my God, we're talking about PTSD because this is what this is what the revelation he received the God says that the battlefield that we're going through now is you're going to experience it in your environment, whether it's your your space, your workspace, your community, you know, storm, you know you're gonna experience this. It's going to experience in your environment. You having problems on the job, you having problems with your neighbors, second relationships, it's in your relationships.

41:40 You're not getting along with this person, you're not getting along with your significant other, whatever. This is where that battle feeling of war. Warfare is coming the double. He's very he's near, he's at his end. The moment the Bible was written, he was already at his end. But he is physically at his end now. So he's turning up the heat. He's gonna do whatever he can to do he can't do, to to keep us distracted, to steal from us, to kill us. Whatever. Then we go through these and then we're gonna pick up because we're gonna talk about I think at Alzheimer's next week or either migraines. But we're gonna still stay on the mind. Okay, emotions, you're gonna have warfare. Your emotions. You're up and down, you cry, you're lonely, you don't know what you want to do. Well, you're you're, you're you're experiencing all kinds of things and stuff is still emotional. And in your money and in your money because you're working that job.

42:29 You're getting the same paycheck, you're getting the same amount, you're getting the same deductions, and and you're you're you're still mad. You're mad, and it's like, who are you mad at? There's nothing we could do about that. Leave the job. But now we don't even have that choice hardly any more, to leave a job and go find another job because everything is kind of tightened and just really crazy now, and and appointments and and and and trying to get somebody. I just heard a near city, somebody very near and dear to me is in the hospital. They did something to it with this heart and everything, and the doctor, the surgeons. There's only three surgeons on the floor, only three surgeons in a hospital taking on the cardiac floor. And they were the families waiting to get it. So feedback and like, what's going on? What are we doing? When is he? You know, did everything go well? And you know, and stuff like that. So this is what you know. We got to, you know, pump it up, pump the brake a little bit. You got to say where I'm going. I'm not in a hurry, I know. I got to get information. You calm yourself down first so that won't transfer over to somebody else. Okay, So I want to talk about that, and I want to say this before we leave. It's already two minutes.

43:37 I can't believe this. It was just seven twenty six a few minutes ago. Forgiving and forgetting It comes back to that forgiving and forgetting, asking God to help you. And the forginning is not so much to wipe your memory. It's just to take that trauma off. It's to take that edge off. It's to take that pain away. Because right now you can still think of something and tears come to your eyes. And it happened when you in the second grade and you sixty two years old. You're holding onto that. Why are you holding onto that? You youngsters out there are young viewers out there. Be careful, be slow to anger. You're too young to have anger problems. To be honest with you, you're too young. Check yourself now and begin to forgive and forget. You got. It's a work in progress. It's going to happen probably throughout the rest of your life. You may have to put that in that deliverance column I talked about, you know, save, set free, and deliver. You may have to put that one on it because sometimes forgetting and forgiving. Yes, this has been helpful to me. Oh thank you. And the key.

44:36 Oh no, that's somebody else. That's a daughter. I think things are hard. Yes, this is okay. I think that's the daughter. Yes it is Amen. So I just want to say, you know, so you've got to forgive and forget. Why are you? And the first step will be I want you their homework will be fine. All the scriptures on forgetting and forgiving start right there, because if you've had a hard time forgiving people and forgetting about things that have happened to you, that should be your first Bible study for yourself. And you need to write down all the scriptures and in your physical Bible and your phone Bible. They need to be highlighted because you're going to have to go back to remind yourself and let the word cleanse you like it should, like it will.

45:16 And then the second then you got to get some scriptures and say, okay, now this is what I'm gonna lean on because I this this, These two here speak to me. You recite them one hundred times a day. That's meditating on his word. If you're serious. Now, if you you want to get out of bondage, we'll see you next week, same time, same station. Night, not y'alls,